Last night was amazing.......
Yesterday afternoon my heart was a little bit soar because because.... Gloria actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I am truly grateful for her yesterday she made me laugh. She is very funny, through communication, kindness and understanding we resolved our differences.
So as I felt quite sad and feeling the need for compassion, kindness, affection and a sense of belonging I decided to go to Ronchi78 again, ahhhh I always go to Ronchi I love Ronchi Ronchi78 and myself'87 are soul mates, heheheheh. So I entered Ronchi and the atmosphere was electrifying and most definitely not an evening to write, ohhhh no Max Morganti as well as Paolo Pilo were both performing, the handsome Giacomo was behind the bar the Naked shef in the kitchen, hehehehe noooo he is not really naked, unless he wants to be? I don't judge people..... hehehehhe va bene. So everybody was happy, joyful and I went downstairs to see what Max and Paolo were up to. I first saw Poalo he greeted me warm and welcoming over the microphone, then I went to the other section of the restaurant to see what Max was doing..... (blush).
I was not in the room long and Max asked me to sing "I will survive" I was still sad, I cannot sing when I am sad, I don't know why I cannot sing. When I am sad my intestants and all my muscles feels like it pulls tight and inwards, probably out of habit to feel safe. when this happens I cannot sing at all. Max I apologize for the worst performance ever last night, I tried though.
After I sang I met very interesting and beautiful fun people, they were so sweet and I met a sweet guy. He has a milk farm so I asked him if one sunday we can milk his cows and he said yes uhahahahaha that sound funny. I am so excited I read about how to properly milk a cow today.
I was really happy because he was Milanese but he felt like such a warm sincere person. He was not shy to talk to me, to be kind, to do anything, he had courage and confidence to approach me and he even kissed me, well, it was a peck on the lips and then I blushed. I was so surprised because the guys here I think wants an invitation before taking the lead, I don't give invitations. I am not used to giving permission for feelings of romance people are free to do as they choose, go for it and if the other person responds positively back GOOOOD. Where I come from the woman is the silent waiting sensual female, the guy sees you and if he really wants you he will do anything to get you and keep on trying even after you said no, its quite charming actually, persistence. It actually impossible to deny the charm of a man completely sure that he wants you, ahhhh let me stop.
Last night I even found myself being in the center of a group hug. It was wonderful, everybody last night at Ronchi was having so much fun it was magical. I felt really happy eventually when I left Ronchi78, but I left confused. Giacomo told me things that does not make sense.
Allora.
ohhh well.
Still every time I go to Ronchi78 everybody makes me very happy, I love Ronchi78 and everybody could consider to come and visit because there is so much love in the Ronchi family. ahhhh my heart.
ok write again soon.....
Amore sempre
Ronchi78
lunedì 28 marzo 2011
venerdì 25 marzo 2011
Thank you
Thank you
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everybody. For me showing my gratitude is extremely important. It shows that I appreciate and acknowledge what others do and help me with.
I want to thank you as reader for reading this blog, I truly appreciate it very much, as long as you enjoy what you read and sometimes benefit from the information or laugh out load it is a pleasure for me to write when you enjoy to read this blog. You reading and enjoying my blog makes me very happy. Thank you.
I remembered earlier the first day I arrived in Ronchi78, (smile), I remember all the times I spent in Ronchi78, ohhh DIO, spending time with the football team, spending time with Max, Giacomo, Mirko uhahahahaha, decorating for Christmas the Vuvuzela's, Christmas, New Years, meeting Laura the boys having trouble speaking Italian, big communication problems. I feel truly fortunate and grateful. If I had to rewind these past couple of months And I had a chance to live it over again I would not change a single moment.
Every day has been a new surprise almost and it has been miraculous.
Everybody at Ronchi78 Giacomo, Mirko, Laura, the boys the grandparents the uncles and aunts are just beautiful and truly I am blessed to be able to spend time with all of you.
I can remember the night I was hanging Christmas balls onto the little christmas tree in Ronchi78, Mirko looked at me and told me that I am lucky because I have three balls and all of them only two each, I replied "Si, io sono molto fortunata", he laughed himself silly. I remember the first time I brought Giacomo his Vuvuzela uhahahahahahahaha he was happy, he was like a little boy. You know every memory here has been priceless, every moment a new wonderful surprise and I can only be absolutely grateful and say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being with the most wonderful people I have ever came across in my life.
Thank you Giacomo, Mirko, Ronchi78, football team, inland sea, Paletti family for all of your love, I love you all with all my heart and truly grateful for every second spent with all of you.
Thank you
Amore Sempre
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everybody. For me showing my gratitude is extremely important. It shows that I appreciate and acknowledge what others do and help me with.
I want to thank you as reader for reading this blog, I truly appreciate it very much, as long as you enjoy what you read and sometimes benefit from the information or laugh out load it is a pleasure for me to write when you enjoy to read this blog. You reading and enjoying my blog makes me very happy. Thank you.
I remembered earlier the first day I arrived in Ronchi78, (smile), I remember all the times I spent in Ronchi78, ohhh DIO, spending time with the football team, spending time with Max, Giacomo, Mirko uhahahahaha, decorating for Christmas the Vuvuzela's, Christmas, New Years, meeting Laura the boys having trouble speaking Italian, big communication problems. I feel truly fortunate and grateful. If I had to rewind these past couple of months And I had a chance to live it over again I would not change a single moment.
Every day has been a new surprise almost and it has been miraculous.
Everybody at Ronchi78 Giacomo, Mirko, Laura, the boys the grandparents the uncles and aunts are just beautiful and truly I am blessed to be able to spend time with all of you.
I can remember the night I was hanging Christmas balls onto the little christmas tree in Ronchi78, Mirko looked at me and told me that I am lucky because I have three balls and all of them only two each, I replied "Si, io sono molto fortunata", he laughed himself silly. I remember the first time I brought Giacomo his Vuvuzela uhahahahahahahaha he was happy, he was like a little boy. You know every memory here has been priceless, every moment a new wonderful surprise and I can only be absolutely grateful and say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being with the most wonderful people I have ever came across in my life.
Thank you Giacomo, Mirko, Ronchi78, football team, inland sea, Paletti family for all of your love, I love you all with all my heart and truly grateful for every second spent with all of you.
Thank you
Amore Sempre
mercoledì 23 marzo 2011
loads of fun......
Sunday was fun....
.....it was the baptism of little Ludo, a very important baptism, the festivity was amazing, I played the piano it was beautiful, the piano is one of the most beautiful instruments for me in the world. The music produced from a piano gives me goosebumps ohhhhh WOW I want to play it. The church where the baptism was held in was incredible, ohhhh my goodness, I have met a Mini Duomo hehehehe ahhhhh it was amazing.
To be honest I have not been writing, my energy feels low because I think I need a hug or something pfff...... love is normally my inspiration, (Love for me is clarity, sweetness, kindness, fun, joy happiness yes and many other different forms) right now I feel a little bit loveless.
Sigh its just me perhaps or its just in my mind, remember I am a woman and it is important to understand that women have more mixed emotions than men.
These feelings shall pass soon do not worry. I have also my own things I need to think about my own worries and fears, right now I need to pause and think clearly but it feels like I cannot, it feels like I just want to find some GENI somewhere rub his lamp and have all the unnecessary obstacles which are my own worries (which are little things) removed so that I can focus on more important things, bigger things like my book, like helping people. uffff.
Allora I do apologize (sigh). l am still very grateful though, yet I realized that I am really strange, nothing about my life is normal it is like it is magical, truly, it is true I sat and I thought about these past 4 months and it has not been a normal situation, but as I sat and thought I became frightened because I don't know what is going to happen. Then whenever I feel the feelings of fear the song "QUE SERA SERA" suddenly plays in my mind and then I feel a little bit better.
Right now I just feel like breathing and taking one second at a time. (Sigh) someone took my Africans in the little garden and Gloria is rude to me, bossing me around again, she has been doing the same to poor Ialene, shame the poor girl confides in me so may times about her own past experiences and that's why she is so extremely quiet, she doesn't know how to speak up she needs a boost of courage and confidence, Ialene has a really beautiful heart and spirit she is still so naive ahhh shame. I don't really feel like smiling writing or doing anything when people are rude to me, my mind switches off, its like my brain thought itself to protect itself from any negativity...... there is no need to be rude to me, I am always the same, people assume thats where things go wrong, assumption is the mother of all evil. I also miss playing calcio in the park with the kids I don't know why we are not going anymore, I miss spending time with All Puccino, I don't even see him, it makes me sad and I have not been coming to Ronchi78. I feel like I write best when I write in Ronchi.
ohhhh dear I have to tell you, I met Giacomo's little babies ohhhh they are just so beautiful!!!!!
Yes I do love Ronci78 and everyone WoHoooooo, Everybody should come to Ronchi78 it is peaceful and wonderful the festivity is incredible and the atmosphere just revitalizing, it is like heaven on earth. Mirko's parents are also wonderful, ahhh Mirko and his mother smiles the same way, whenever Mirko or his mother smiles it looks like they heave stars in their eyes and their faces lights up like shining diamonds, they also have the same giggle hehehehe, it is beautiful and the most satisfying sight for me, just priceless. His father lights up when he sees me then he squishes my cheeks uhahahahaha Im like a doll!!! Ahhhhhh absolutely beautiful.
Everybody is wonderful..... I am so sorry for writing about my negative feelings in this piece but today was truly one of those days where life just wanted to throw every bad stone at me, I delt with all of them peacefully yet it was so uneccasary and confusing, it disturbed my spirit, but I feel better now. Thank you....
Allora now I will retreat and continue with my book....
baci baci
ciao...
(will write again soon)
.....it was the baptism of little Ludo, a very important baptism, the festivity was amazing, I played the piano it was beautiful, the piano is one of the most beautiful instruments for me in the world. The music produced from a piano gives me goosebumps ohhhhh WOW I want to play it. The church where the baptism was held in was incredible, ohhhh my goodness, I have met a Mini Duomo hehehehe ahhhhh it was amazing.
To be honest I have not been writing, my energy feels low because I think I need a hug or something pfff...... love is normally my inspiration, (Love for me is clarity, sweetness, kindness, fun, joy happiness yes and many other different forms) right now I feel a little bit loveless.
Sigh its just me perhaps or its just in my mind, remember I am a woman and it is important to understand that women have more mixed emotions than men.
These feelings shall pass soon do not worry. I have also my own things I need to think about my own worries and fears, right now I need to pause and think clearly but it feels like I cannot, it feels like I just want to find some GENI somewhere rub his lamp and have all the unnecessary obstacles which are my own worries (which are little things) removed so that I can focus on more important things, bigger things like my book, like helping people. uffff.
Allora I do apologize (sigh). l am still very grateful though, yet I realized that I am really strange, nothing about my life is normal it is like it is magical, truly, it is true I sat and I thought about these past 4 months and it has not been a normal situation, but as I sat and thought I became frightened because I don't know what is going to happen. Then whenever I feel the feelings of fear the song "QUE SERA SERA" suddenly plays in my mind and then I feel a little bit better.
Right now I just feel like breathing and taking one second at a time. (Sigh) someone took my Africans in the little garden and Gloria is rude to me, bossing me around again, she has been doing the same to poor Ialene, shame the poor girl confides in me so may times about her own past experiences and that's why she is so extremely quiet, she doesn't know how to speak up she needs a boost of courage and confidence, Ialene has a really beautiful heart and spirit she is still so naive ahhh shame. I don't really feel like smiling writing or doing anything when people are rude to me, my mind switches off, its like my brain thought itself to protect itself from any negativity...... there is no need to be rude to me, I am always the same, people assume thats where things go wrong, assumption is the mother of all evil. I also miss playing calcio in the park with the kids I don't know why we are not going anymore, I miss spending time with All Puccino, I don't even see him, it makes me sad and I have not been coming to Ronchi78. I feel like I write best when I write in Ronchi.
ohhhh dear I have to tell you, I met Giacomo's little babies ohhhh they are just so beautiful!!!!!
Yes I do love Ronci78 and everyone WoHoooooo, Everybody should come to Ronchi78 it is peaceful and wonderful the festivity is incredible and the atmosphere just revitalizing, it is like heaven on earth. Mirko's parents are also wonderful, ahhh Mirko and his mother smiles the same way, whenever Mirko or his mother smiles it looks like they heave stars in their eyes and their faces lights up like shining diamonds, they also have the same giggle hehehehe, it is beautiful and the most satisfying sight for me, just priceless. His father lights up when he sees me then he squishes my cheeks uhahahahaha Im like a doll!!! Ahhhhhh absolutely beautiful.
Everybody is wonderful..... I am so sorry for writing about my negative feelings in this piece but today was truly one of those days where life just wanted to throw every bad stone at me, I delt with all of them peacefully yet it was so uneccasary and confusing, it disturbed my spirit, but I feel better now. Thank you....
Allora now I will retreat and continue with my book....
baci baci
ciao...
(will write again soon)
martedì 22 marzo 2011
You're the Inspiration Lyrics
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martedì 15 marzo 2011
Roxette DANGEROUS+Lyrics
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Preface of my book.....
Preface
This book has been inside of me for about two years just wanting to be written and published and I can remember that I had so many doubts at first. I constantly started to write and then I stopped, wondering, pondering, deleting then lost all hope and confidence all the time.
We all have dreams we want to acchieve and it is true that we fear acchieving our dreams, we lack confidence, we think that we are not good enough and then just settle for second best, we end up sad then as we continue our daily lives, we then feel empty inside because we keep on sitting and wondering "What if?".
When I was a very young girl of about 5 years old I always sat and wondered when I saw very old people with sad faces. I one day asked my father why some old people have happy wrinkles and why some of them have sad wrinkles. I remember him telling me that it is because the happy wrinkle faced people followed their hearts, even though faced with fear they acchieved their dreams and have no regrets. The sad wrinkle faced people chose to let fear rule their lives and they sit daily asking themselves "What if?", they sit in regret.
I promised myself that when I grow old I want to have a happy wrinkled face and not a sad wrinkled face. I promised myself aswell that when I leave this planet I will leave my footsteps behind of good deeds. I love people worldwide and helping people is a passion for me. To be able to contribute to anothers life is so priceless because people always remember that miracle, that kind person, that passer by that helped without asking in return.
I pondered about this book, I worried if I was capable and smart enough to write this book. I decided that the vocabulary is not really that important, what is important is the information I provide to all of you readers, combined with my personality of coarse.
This book is about health. It is about healing in the body, the mind, the emotions and then the spirit combined with the law of attraction then of coarse examples from my past experiences. I truly hope and believe that this book can add valuable information to your life so that you as reader can grow, can live a full life, that you as reader can smile and be happy every day no matter what.
Now to be completely honest, I love books but I normally start reading a book on the first Chapter because I really do not normally find prefaces all that interesting, so this preface I am keeping short but before I take you into my journey I must say thank you first.....
I firstly want to thank God, Christ and Spirit and all the angels for helping me and being with me all my life as well sending me this heavenly idea to write this book, "God without You I am nothing and with You all is possible, Thank you and I love you."
Secondly I want to thank Mirko Paletti, Giacomo Bertacchi, Ronchi78 in Milan Italy, the whole Ronchi family, Paletti family, the band Inland Sea and the famous football team for embracing me, for showing me so much love and kindness, for giving me confidence in myself to complete this book. I love you all with all my heart and I have never been happier in my life.
Lastly I want to thank you as the reader for reading this book, for your own personal growth and your own healing process. I always say that everything starts with yourself. I truly appreciate that you as reader made a conscious decision to grow more in all areas of your life, I want to thank you for loving yourself.
Alright Alright enough, let us smile, let us breathe and start with Chapter one.
Amore Sempre.
This book has been inside of me for about two years just wanting to be written and published and I can remember that I had so many doubts at first. I constantly started to write and then I stopped, wondering, pondering, deleting then lost all hope and confidence all the time.
We all have dreams we want to acchieve and it is true that we fear acchieving our dreams, we lack confidence, we think that we are not good enough and then just settle for second best, we end up sad then as we continue our daily lives, we then feel empty inside because we keep on sitting and wondering "What if?".
When I was a very young girl of about 5 years old I always sat and wondered when I saw very old people with sad faces. I one day asked my father why some old people have happy wrinkles and why some of them have sad wrinkles. I remember him telling me that it is because the happy wrinkle faced people followed their hearts, even though faced with fear they acchieved their dreams and have no regrets. The sad wrinkle faced people chose to let fear rule their lives and they sit daily asking themselves "What if?", they sit in regret.
I promised myself that when I grow old I want to have a happy wrinkled face and not a sad wrinkled face. I promised myself aswell that when I leave this planet I will leave my footsteps behind of good deeds. I love people worldwide and helping people is a passion for me. To be able to contribute to anothers life is so priceless because people always remember that miracle, that kind person, that passer by that helped without asking in return.
I pondered about this book, I worried if I was capable and smart enough to write this book. I decided that the vocabulary is not really that important, what is important is the information I provide to all of you readers, combined with my personality of coarse.
This book is about health. It is about healing in the body, the mind, the emotions and then the spirit combined with the law of attraction then of coarse examples from my past experiences. I truly hope and believe that this book can add valuable information to your life so that you as reader can grow, can live a full life, that you as reader can smile and be happy every day no matter what.
Now to be completely honest, I love books but I normally start reading a book on the first Chapter because I really do not normally find prefaces all that interesting, so this preface I am keeping short but before I take you into my journey I must say thank you first.....
I firstly want to thank God, Christ and Spirit and all the angels for helping me and being with me all my life as well sending me this heavenly idea to write this book, "God without You I am nothing and with You all is possible, Thank you and I love you."
Secondly I want to thank Mirko Paletti, Giacomo Bertacchi, Ronchi78 in Milan Italy, the whole Ronchi family, Paletti family, the band Inland Sea and the famous football team for embracing me, for showing me so much love and kindness, for giving me confidence in myself to complete this book. I love you all with all my heart and I have never been happier in my life.
Lastly I want to thank you as the reader for reading this book, for your own personal growth and your own healing process. I always say that everything starts with yourself. I truly appreciate that you as reader made a conscious decision to grow more in all areas of your life, I want to thank you for loving yourself.
Alright Alright enough, let us smile, let us breathe and start with Chapter one.
Amore Sempre.
domenica 13 marzo 2011
Boney M. "Daddy Cool" (Sopot 79)
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Boney M."We Kill The World" ("Don't Kill the World")
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giovedì 10 marzo 2011
Festa Della Donna.....
Ohhhhh WoHoooooo Fiesta della Donna was wonderful, it was My first Fiesta Della Donna qua in Milano. It was amzing!!!!!!
Well My amazing and your amzing will differ because perhaps your amazing will include a breakfast in bed, a massage at a day SPA a precious heart felt gift, ok well that is amazing for me tooooooo no woman will refuse that but for me just a Surprise presence was enough which started in the morning........ I felt hipnotised and shy, bedazzled and surprised all at once but did not show it, I did not know what to do actually.... It was a big Surprise hello I was really happy.
You know when you meet someone and you really like them but you dont know how to approach them so you wish and pray they will just read your mind and grab you like a monkey kiss you .............. Then afterwards when the ice was finally broken you can talk, pfffff thats how I feel sometimes but because I am a woman similar to an early in the morning CAR in the middle of winter, one needs to get heated first to get turned on to be driven properly and we women only get heated with romance and feeling special in the beginning...... then afterwards the poor man has no more VA VA VOOM left to give to a VU VU ZELA which evident by the World Cup Soccer last Year can keep going.... Uhahahahaha, hehehehehehe (blush) joking joking.... Im so happy I am not a guy, if I could I would buy all male spiecies apology gifts just to say sorry that we women Are so complicated.
Allora, so I had a Surprise morning bedazzle then I went to Castello Park to write..... Later in the evening I went to Ronchi78 again and played with some pictures while everybody was tranquil. There were many festa della donna flowers on the tables provided by Ronchi for the Donna's and there were Yellow balloons outside the door, ohhh it was beautiful.
Once again in My little corner I was so happy, pleased and content just looking at the football team having fun, ohhh It was magical.
Afterwards while Ronchi closed ahhh I had fun, lets call these two boys Nimples and Dimples we left Ronchi hehehehehehehehe Nimples and Dimples took the rest of the donna flowers to sell with the balloons as a joke uhahahahahaha, boys will be boys sempre. I asked if I could join them and they told me no because I am a woman that is the first and only rule that no women Are allowed to sell flowers with them on donna day.... I was not sad, I was happy because Nimples and Dimples even though very serious men were like two mischievous boys wanting to have some innocent fun. How can one be sad for another's happiness?
When you love people or care for them you will do anything for them help them in any way and always want to see them happy with a smile, sigh....
Nimples and Dimples (smiling secretly to myself) I hope they had fun.....
Ahhhh sigh, so yes for me it was a beautiful fiesta Della Donna yesterday....
It was a priceless memory I once again collected into My heart and engraved into My spirit....
I hope everybodies day yesterday was magical too and I wish you a beautiful day today......
Amore Sempre
Well My amazing and your amzing will differ because perhaps your amazing will include a breakfast in bed, a massage at a day SPA a precious heart felt gift, ok well that is amazing for me tooooooo no woman will refuse that but for me just a Surprise presence was enough which started in the morning........ I felt hipnotised and shy, bedazzled and surprised all at once but did not show it, I did not know what to do actually.... It was a big Surprise hello I was really happy.
You know when you meet someone and you really like them but you dont know how to approach them so you wish and pray they will just read your mind and grab you like a monkey kiss you .............. Then afterwards when the ice was finally broken you can talk, pfffff thats how I feel sometimes but because I am a woman similar to an early in the morning CAR in the middle of winter, one needs to get heated first to get turned on to be driven properly and we women only get heated with romance and feeling special in the beginning...... then afterwards the poor man has no more VA VA VOOM left to give to a VU VU ZELA which evident by the World Cup Soccer last Year can keep going.... Uhahahahaha, hehehehehehe (blush) joking joking.... Im so happy I am not a guy, if I could I would buy all male spiecies apology gifts just to say sorry that we women Are so complicated.
Allora, so I had a Surprise morning bedazzle then I went to Castello Park to write..... Later in the evening I went to Ronchi78 again and played with some pictures while everybody was tranquil. There were many festa della donna flowers on the tables provided by Ronchi for the Donna's and there were Yellow balloons outside the door, ohhh it was beautiful.
Once again in My little corner I was so happy, pleased and content just looking at the football team having fun, ohhh It was magical.
Afterwards while Ronchi closed ahhh I had fun, lets call these two boys Nimples and Dimples we left Ronchi hehehehehehehehe Nimples and Dimples took the rest of the donna flowers to sell with the balloons as a joke uhahahahahaha, boys will be boys sempre. I asked if I could join them and they told me no because I am a woman that is the first and only rule that no women Are allowed to sell flowers with them on donna day.... I was not sad, I was happy because Nimples and Dimples even though very serious men were like two mischievous boys wanting to have some innocent fun. How can one be sad for another's happiness?
When you love people or care for them you will do anything for them help them in any way and always want to see them happy with a smile, sigh....
Nimples and Dimples (smiling secretly to myself) I hope they had fun.....
Ahhhh sigh, so yes for me it was a beautiful fiesta Della Donna yesterday....
It was a priceless memory I once again collected into My heart and engraved into My spirit....
I hope everybodies day yesterday was magical too and I wish you a beautiful day today......
Amore Sempre
mercoledì 9 marzo 2011
martedì 8 marzo 2011
Memory lane 2
Many things have been going through my mind since Sunday evening, my feelings were hurt badly but I am alright I guess, My own fault pffff.
I am sitting looking at walnuts and my thoughts drifted down memory lane..... Suddenly I found myself thinking about my father... He passed away many years ago but I still feel him close most times...
About a week ago I shared a photo of my parents with a close friend of mine who is very dear to My heart and means the world to me. I do not easily share my past with anyone, my past was very dark, difficult and painful and I choose to only shine light, give love, laughter and joy to the world now and in my future. I must add that even though I had many trails in my past , I would not change one day in my past because it has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of myself.
I can remember just after my concert My brother and I went to visit my Grandfather in Kwazlu Natal, Margate (100km from Durban) where he lived. We went to visit him every school holiday with my parents actually but that particular school holiday my parents could not go, my father just bought a new business for my mother and obviously with everything else with the new business they had to stay and work.
Ahhh Margate, always green and tropical, the house was a walk away from the beach but my favorite beach was Uvongo beach, it had a waterfall with a lagoon that flew into the sea, beautiful!!! We normally swam to the waterfall to sit under the waterfall ohh It was Devine. Normally we woke up at 6am to be at the beach at 7am and spend all day at the beach. I've always been a beach baby, I saw a picture of myself 2 years ago when I was 1 year old, I had only one pink g-string on running full speed towards the sea and my father behind me trying to catch me because I was told when they looked away for a second I was up running to the waves, hehehehe I kept them fit.
The evening before the second of October we were all having a barbaque with my grandfather and I saw the monkeys on the telephone lines walking to sit on the roof of the the lower section part of the house that was the maids quarters. The monkeys came because they were hoping for fruit but we were forbidden to feed them because when you first start to feed them, they come in and reck the house when you are not there.
So I was looking at the papa monkey, and whoops there he was licking his backside displaying his crown jewels very openly to the planet, uhahahahahaha, I was staring at this monkey's private parts because it was shocking blue, you couldnt miss these large shocking blue big balls, then while I was staring, this shocking pink thing emerged out from these shocking blue balls and I was really amused........I was hipnotised actually, the colours of those private parts were unbelievable It probably glows in the dark too?
My attention was then braught back to earth when my name was called to speak to my father on the telephone.
My father called the landline that night because he wanted to speak to everybody and as soon as I picked up the telephone to speak to him I told him all about the monkey's balls, he listened and laughed himself silly as I was passionately explaining the colours, how the monkey sat etc. While I was babbeling to him he suddenly just said loudly over the phone but gently with excitement and pride "Ek is lief vir jou My pop", translated "I love you my little doll".
I smiled broadly because I was surprised, ahhhh I love surprises, so I told him I loved him very much back, (soft loving smile).
My relationship with My father were not normal, I listened to him, respected him but he was My best friend too. We spent all our time together and he loved me more than anything on the planet, he was My hero too, we swam together always, played bee bee guns, went fishing every weekend, built go-carts in the back, another section on the house that was stocked with sleaper wood to build things, hehehehehe when My mother tried to get me to do the salon thing Mama Mia I was annoyed, My mind always drifted towards where My dad was. ohhh Sundays were Formula 1 day watching Micheal Shoemacher as he raced and won and we went offroad driving always... It was super fun, ohhh I love speed, adrenalin rush!!!
October the 2nd 1997, we awoke early to go to Uvongo Beach, we were there at 7am, the water was still low tide so I was playing in the little stream that flew from the waterfall into the sea. My brother joined me and told me that we must pretend to be still crocodiles so we both just layed in the little stream pretending to be still crocodiles hehehehehe, about 08:10 am My grandfather came walking towards where the grown-ups were sitting, I was confused because My grandfather was dressed in his suit and looked puzzled, when he saw myself and My brother he called My brother to go to him at once... I was really confused because once My brother reached everybody he was told some news and started to scream. My grandfather then patted him on his back hard and I thought that My brother was such a baby, yes he was sunburnt a bit but he did not have to act like a Crazy person.
So I twirled around in the water now pretending to be a happy syncronised swimming crocodile then suddenly I noticed everybody was crying and not just My brother. WOOAH, it was strange to me and remember clearly that I was wondering why everybody was crying over my brothers sunburn?
I ran to where everybody was standing and crying, but they all turned their backs on me, avoiding me, I was getting more nervous by the second and started to yell at the top of My trought "WHAT HAPPENED!!!!?", My stepgrandmother then looked at me and told me "your father died." , I can remember everybody turning towards me in horror, everything went quiet and felt slowmotion because It felt like somebody took a thick blunt spear and pressed it straight through My chest that crushed My heart, then another that went staight through my stomach. The pain and shock was so great within me, all that came from My Lips were a deadly loud scream, it sounded like I was being tortured to death slowly and then My knees collapsed underneath me. I was laying remembering people hovering over me, looking backwards seeing as My brother was trying to run, to where, I dont know?
We were taken to the doctor immedietly to get injections to calm down and afterwards I just layed staring a the walls, not moving, not making a sound, just lifeless eyes.
I was in denial for a long time, the funeral was the worst, when the coffin sunk into the ground they had to sustain me because I wanted to jump into the hole to go with. I was in denial for 4 years after My father's death, I could not accept it at all. I was dead inside, I was alone.
Yes it was tragic but I pulled through being a good person, remembering what he had thought me, remembering the solid and good morals as well as values of life, the unconditional pure love he thought me. I was blessed to have had him even if it was only for nine years... He was a really good man, father and husband dont forget son.
People do not understand me, time spent with someone you love or care about for me is priceless because I have lost everything already and all that kept me going was the memories and the desire to make new happy memories one day. Happy memories are the most precious gifts in life for me.
We all have trails we go through but remember that the hard Times Are there for a reason. What does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nobody's lives Are perfect, we all have had pain, we have all felt rejected, broken down, humiliated, sad, angry but look around you, if you still have your health and you Are still breathing then you have Made it untill now, you have gone through so much and you Are still standing tall, you Are fantastic, so be proud of yourself and let the past in the past.
WoW sorry for writing sooooooo much...
I wish you all a beautiful day and smile!
Amore Sempre
I am sitting looking at walnuts and my thoughts drifted down memory lane..... Suddenly I found myself thinking about my father... He passed away many years ago but I still feel him close most times...
About a week ago I shared a photo of my parents with a close friend of mine who is very dear to My heart and means the world to me. I do not easily share my past with anyone, my past was very dark, difficult and painful and I choose to only shine light, give love, laughter and joy to the world now and in my future. I must add that even though I had many trails in my past , I would not change one day in my past because it has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of myself.
I can remember just after my concert My brother and I went to visit my Grandfather in Kwazlu Natal, Margate (100km from Durban) where he lived. We went to visit him every school holiday with my parents actually but that particular school holiday my parents could not go, my father just bought a new business for my mother and obviously with everything else with the new business they had to stay and work.
Ahhh Margate, always green and tropical, the house was a walk away from the beach but my favorite beach was Uvongo beach, it had a waterfall with a lagoon that flew into the sea, beautiful!!! We normally swam to the waterfall to sit under the waterfall ohh It was Devine. Normally we woke up at 6am to be at the beach at 7am and spend all day at the beach. I've always been a beach baby, I saw a picture of myself 2 years ago when I was 1 year old, I had only one pink g-string on running full speed towards the sea and my father behind me trying to catch me because I was told when they looked away for a second I was up running to the waves, hehehehe I kept them fit.
The evening before the second of October we were all having a barbaque with my grandfather and I saw the monkeys on the telephone lines walking to sit on the roof of the the lower section part of the house that was the maids quarters. The monkeys came because they were hoping for fruit but we were forbidden to feed them because when you first start to feed them, they come in and reck the house when you are not there.
So I was looking at the papa monkey, and whoops there he was licking his backside displaying his crown jewels very openly to the planet, uhahahahahaha, I was staring at this monkey's private parts because it was shocking blue, you couldnt miss these large shocking blue big balls, then while I was staring, this shocking pink thing emerged out from these shocking blue balls and I was really amused........I was hipnotised actually, the colours of those private parts were unbelievable It probably glows in the dark too?
My attention was then braught back to earth when my name was called to speak to my father on the telephone.
My father called the landline that night because he wanted to speak to everybody and as soon as I picked up the telephone to speak to him I told him all about the monkey's balls, he listened and laughed himself silly as I was passionately explaining the colours, how the monkey sat etc. While I was babbeling to him he suddenly just said loudly over the phone but gently with excitement and pride "Ek is lief vir jou My pop", translated "I love you my little doll".
I smiled broadly because I was surprised, ahhhh I love surprises, so I told him I loved him very much back, (soft loving smile).
My relationship with My father were not normal, I listened to him, respected him but he was My best friend too. We spent all our time together and he loved me more than anything on the planet, he was My hero too, we swam together always, played bee bee guns, went fishing every weekend, built go-carts in the back, another section on the house that was stocked with sleaper wood to build things, hehehehehe when My mother tried to get me to do the salon thing Mama Mia I was annoyed, My mind always drifted towards where My dad was. ohhh Sundays were Formula 1 day watching Micheal Shoemacher as he raced and won and we went offroad driving always... It was super fun, ohhh I love speed, adrenalin rush!!!
October the 2nd 1997, we awoke early to go to Uvongo Beach, we were there at 7am, the water was still low tide so I was playing in the little stream that flew from the waterfall into the sea. My brother joined me and told me that we must pretend to be still crocodiles so we both just layed in the little stream pretending to be still crocodiles hehehehehe, about 08:10 am My grandfather came walking towards where the grown-ups were sitting, I was confused because My grandfather was dressed in his suit and looked puzzled, when he saw myself and My brother he called My brother to go to him at once... I was really confused because once My brother reached everybody he was told some news and started to scream. My grandfather then patted him on his back hard and I thought that My brother was such a baby, yes he was sunburnt a bit but he did not have to act like a Crazy person.
So I twirled around in the water now pretending to be a happy syncronised swimming crocodile then suddenly I noticed everybody was crying and not just My brother. WOOAH, it was strange to me and remember clearly that I was wondering why everybody was crying over my brothers sunburn?
I ran to where everybody was standing and crying, but they all turned their backs on me, avoiding me, I was getting more nervous by the second and started to yell at the top of My trought "WHAT HAPPENED!!!!?", My stepgrandmother then looked at me and told me "your father died." , I can remember everybody turning towards me in horror, everything went quiet and felt slowmotion because It felt like somebody took a thick blunt spear and pressed it straight through My chest that crushed My heart, then another that went staight through my stomach. The pain and shock was so great within me, all that came from My Lips were a deadly loud scream, it sounded like I was being tortured to death slowly and then My knees collapsed underneath me. I was laying remembering people hovering over me, looking backwards seeing as My brother was trying to run, to where, I dont know?
We were taken to the doctor immedietly to get injections to calm down and afterwards I just layed staring a the walls, not moving, not making a sound, just lifeless eyes.
I was in denial for a long time, the funeral was the worst, when the coffin sunk into the ground they had to sustain me because I wanted to jump into the hole to go with. I was in denial for 4 years after My father's death, I could not accept it at all. I was dead inside, I was alone.
Yes it was tragic but I pulled through being a good person, remembering what he had thought me, remembering the solid and good morals as well as values of life, the unconditional pure love he thought me. I was blessed to have had him even if it was only for nine years... He was a really good man, father and husband dont forget son.
People do not understand me, time spent with someone you love or care about for me is priceless because I have lost everything already and all that kept me going was the memories and the desire to make new happy memories one day. Happy memories are the most precious gifts in life for me.
We all have trails we go through but remember that the hard Times Are there for a reason. What does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nobody's lives Are perfect, we all have had pain, we have all felt rejected, broken down, humiliated, sad, angry but look around you, if you still have your health and you Are still breathing then you have Made it untill now, you have gone through so much and you Are still standing tall, you Are fantastic, so be proud of yourself and let the past in the past.
WoW sorry for writing sooooooo much...
I wish you all a beautiful day and smile!
Amore Sempre
martedì 1 marzo 2011
Paolo Pilo
Paolo ahhhh Paolo, the funny English speaking Italian man, also always serious but has a good heart you can see, he has had his challenges in life and overcame them, he has a very strong spirit and very brave because he follows his heart and passions come what may.
Paolo made me fall in love with Ronchi78, he was the musician that was playing that beautiful magical evening, I was sitting upstairs trying to decide what my purpose in Milan was, I still don't know, hehehehehe then I heard music and my spirit flew to the stairs where I stood seeing all the beautiful Italian people having such a big Feast, singing with Paolo, dancing, dancing on the table oh my dear it was such a powerful strong love emotion that spread right through my body and my heart was stolen by Ronchi78 on the steps, not by Paolo, hehehehehehe sorry Poalo, no with the beautiful happy faces just enjoying life, enjoying that moment, celebrating life to me ohhh wow seeing so much happiness at once I just fell in love.......
In the beginning Paolo did not speak to me, but when he actually started to speak to me I was surprised at how well he spoke English, it was impressive and he has always been sarcastic but very sincere.
The one evening I was sitting in Ronchi78 and I spoke to Poalo asking him one million questions, heheheheh, he just answered truthfully but told me something private that truly made me respect him in so many ways, like I said he has had his challenges I am very very proud of him.
At the Inland Sea concert I met his beautiful wife and his little daughter I was surprised because I assumed that he was a lone walking musician, those tranquil one's that just has the quitar on the back and moves around, hehehe.. he is awesome..... not just about Poalo's character but also his music, he is really such an excellent performer, he is downstairs now playing "Hey Jude" its wonderful!!!!
Paolo Pilo is really a very good performer, he is part of the Ronchi78 family so of coarse he gets some biscotti and some chocolates with a lot of smiles and applauds from me....
Where can you buy this brilliant musician's CD..... hmmmm well from a man called Giacomo at Ronchi78 so you really have to come visit Ronchi78, online I believe you can buy it on ITUNES or for more information you can follow these links:
http://www.palbertmusic.com
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Palbert-Music/180603769020?v=wall
Ohh dear, It is wonderful, Paolo is an EXCELLENT Performer so please I suggest you buy his CD because you will not regret it, it will inspire you, you will fall in love you will smile always and another day.
I will write again soon....
Tanti Baci
Amore Sempre
Paolo made me fall in love with Ronchi78, he was the musician that was playing that beautiful magical evening, I was sitting upstairs trying to decide what my purpose in Milan was, I still don't know, hehehehehe then I heard music and my spirit flew to the stairs where I stood seeing all the beautiful Italian people having such a big Feast, singing with Paolo, dancing, dancing on the table oh my dear it was such a powerful strong love emotion that spread right through my body and my heart was stolen by Ronchi78 on the steps, not by Paolo, hehehehehehe sorry Poalo, no with the beautiful happy faces just enjoying life, enjoying that moment, celebrating life to me ohhh wow seeing so much happiness at once I just fell in love.......
In the beginning Paolo did not speak to me, but when he actually started to speak to me I was surprised at how well he spoke English, it was impressive and he has always been sarcastic but very sincere.
The one evening I was sitting in Ronchi78 and I spoke to Poalo asking him one million questions, heheheheh, he just answered truthfully but told me something private that truly made me respect him in so many ways, like I said he has had his challenges I am very very proud of him.
At the Inland Sea concert I met his beautiful wife and his little daughter I was surprised because I assumed that he was a lone walking musician, those tranquil one's that just has the quitar on the back and moves around, hehehe.. he is awesome..... not just about Poalo's character but also his music, he is really such an excellent performer, he is downstairs now playing "Hey Jude" its wonderful!!!!
Paolo Pilo is really a very good performer, he is part of the Ronchi78 family so of coarse he gets some biscotti and some chocolates with a lot of smiles and applauds from me....
Where can you buy this brilliant musician's CD..... hmmmm well from a man called Giacomo at Ronchi78 so you really have to come visit Ronchi78, online I believe you can buy it on ITUNES or for more information you can follow these links:
http://www.palbertmusic.com
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Palbert-Music/180603769020?v=wall
Ohh dear, It is wonderful, Paolo is an EXCELLENT Performer so please I suggest you buy his CD because you will not regret it, it will inspire you, you will fall in love you will smile always and another day.
I will write again soon....
Tanti Baci
Amore Sempre
sabato 26 febbraio 2011
hmmmmmm.....
I have not been writing, I don't know where to write or what, I could tell you everything but everything right now is really confusing.... I could be the middle of a world war and I wont know that I am in a world war because I don't fight, I don't get angry and if I do get really upset I speak really fast and the tone of my voice rises so high that the person I am upset with bursts out laughing out load, then I laugh back because I love laughing hehehehe.... pffff. I am just always me, because I know who I am and the world tried to change me once, it did not work, I love myself and as long as I can be myself, smiling through thick and thin, as long as I am allowed to giggle for better or for worse as long as I can make a joke or say something really strange that amuses the hell out of me until death does me part I am happy.
I am really a very simple honest person with simple needs I assume a simple honest and clear approach will be appreciated.... but ohh well
what has been happening at Ronchi78?
PLENTY!!!!!!!
I did have a strange request that I could not fulfill just before Inland Sea concert, Giacomo asked me to please get strange people like me in for the concert, that request was really difficult well it was impossible because I don't know anybody like me really, to find someone like me might take much longer than 3 weeks........ It might take even forever. So I did fail at that request I apologize.
Everybody has been asking me lately what my plans are for the future, As far as my plans for the future goes, I never make plans I only follow my heart and the feathers because I tried for long to plan my life in the past and it never happened as I planned it, normally everything works out for the best for everybody envolved because my intentions are always pure.... even now I have no plan Im just enjoying my life and writing as well as spending time with 3 little angels so let me be..... I am exhausted, seriously it feels to me like for the first time in 13 years I can relax and breathe and not worry about anything, I don't know why I feel like this but I do.... I am really happy, even hopelessly clueless of what is really happening but ohhh well, I cannot forse anyone to talk...
I have been thinking and I truly want to start writing about the musicians in Ronchi78 which is also part of Palbert Music... I spend time at Ronchi78 with all these musicians and I want you to get to know them too, they are all great performers as well as such beautiful people on the inside, ahhhh bellissimo!!!!!
For the next few weeks I will be writing about these musicians and what magic they have contributed and still contribute to my life.
To be truly honest this piece was difficult for me to write because my feelings and mind is not completely balanced or knows what is happening but now I decided that "QUE SERA SERA, WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE" so I am going to relax and just play CALCIO, Ohhhh I love playing calcio with the kids, truly!!!!!!
Ooh there are beautiful rides like a theme park at Castello. I am going to go now.
Have a wonderful day!!!
Tanti baci!!!!!
I am really a very simple honest person with simple needs I assume a simple honest and clear approach will be appreciated.... but ohh well
what has been happening at Ronchi78?
PLENTY!!!!!!!
I did have a strange request that I could not fulfill just before Inland Sea concert, Giacomo asked me to please get strange people like me in for the concert, that request was really difficult well it was impossible because I don't know anybody like me really, to find someone like me might take much longer than 3 weeks........ It might take even forever. So I did fail at that request I apologize.
Everybody has been asking me lately what my plans are for the future, As far as my plans for the future goes, I never make plans I only follow my heart and the feathers because I tried for long to plan my life in the past and it never happened as I planned it, normally everything works out for the best for everybody envolved because my intentions are always pure.... even now I have no plan Im just enjoying my life and writing as well as spending time with 3 little angels so let me be..... I am exhausted, seriously it feels to me like for the first time in 13 years I can relax and breathe and not worry about anything, I don't know why I feel like this but I do.... I am really happy, even hopelessly clueless of what is really happening but ohhh well, I cannot forse anyone to talk...
I have been thinking and I truly want to start writing about the musicians in Ronchi78 which is also part of Palbert Music... I spend time at Ronchi78 with all these musicians and I want you to get to know them too, they are all great performers as well as such beautiful people on the inside, ahhhh bellissimo!!!!!
For the next few weeks I will be writing about these musicians and what magic they have contributed and still contribute to my life.
To be truly honest this piece was difficult for me to write because my feelings and mind is not completely balanced or knows what is happening but now I decided that "QUE SERA SERA, WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE" so I am going to relax and just play CALCIO, Ohhhh I love playing calcio with the kids, truly!!!!!!
Ooh there are beautiful rides like a theme park at Castello. I am going to go now.
Have a wonderful day!!!
Tanti baci!!!!!
venerdì 11 febbraio 2011
The Concert.......
You know sometimes just before you meet people you really could not wait to meet and you have this whole picture in your mind of how it would be, how you want it to be, the first sight, you practice your best look before the time, your best way to greet, you have this whole picture in your head of how the first meeting is going to be and you are all excited, your heart races faster, emotions of excitement just keeps on stirring and stirring so much that you want to yell out loud and bounce off of the planet, well.......
......that is how I felt last night when I was getting ready in the bathroom in front of the mirror and these feelings of incredible excitement just became stronger the closer I got to Ronchi78 for the concert......
I walked from home to the Concert last night because of the fresh air and the fact that there were so many things going through my mind, fears, hopes, meeting the band for the first time whether some important people were going to be at the concert, for me, I never think or worry about myself or what I want as long as everybody is happy around me I am happy, yet sometimes its difficult to make people happy because people want too much sometimes, expect too much too soon and It does make a person tired, I can imagine being in a band and (trust me performing in front of a handful people is much more stressful than performing in front of a big group of people) also just wanting to give your fans your best, THAT IS WHY I MUST SAY COMPLIMENTS TO INLAND SEA, last night they performed without the violinist very very extremely well, It was absolutely beautiful and I had goosebumps all over me all the time. Truly you are excellent Inland Sea.
So as I entered Ronchi78 last night expecting to see the band first, I didn't because they were downstairs eating, so now already practicing my entrance and the first look the pose and the greeting were now not possible anymore so now I had to go to pose, smile and greeting PLAN B.... there were no PLAN B hehehehhe ohhh dear so I just went with the flow of things....
I was waiting for friends obviously important, they did not show but it didn't stop me from being happy, I was disappointed but I understood because it was a week night and people has to work difficult thinking professions so they need rest, I understand completely.....
While I was waiting peacefully downstairs at the table to meet the band, people started to fill the room and I was worried that the band was just going to start performing without talking to me so I got up, swallowed once, exhaled and walked to the other section of the restaurant where the band was sitting.
As I entered I saw and met the band Inland Sea and WOW Paolo Spada Really looks very young for his age it is incredible, I wonder what cream he uses? or what his secret is? Its true, things here are not normal, everything here are so backwards especially me, its really unbelievable. Giorgio the Pianist in the band has this incredible beautiful pair of blue eyes, also a Cardiologist like Paolo, but you can see that they are very sweet and kind people, truly absolutely amazing Characters and very deep, shy though but only in new company, I am sure they are loads of fun when you know them personally for a while, one big festive cantare e ballare PARTY!!!!!
Paolo is a gentleman very sweet and extremely deep person, he is sensitive, handsome obviously smart, has a sense of humor writes and performs music with passion, its amazing I am blown away with this band actually, WOW.......!!!!!!
Giorgio Poletto is very shy, at first I thought he was strange, hehehehe, we were talking and he told me that he felt like a cigarette, he then showed me his electric cigarette but told me that sometimes he feels like a normal cigarette, I can understand that he was nervous just before he would perform but he really looked very eager for the cigarette, his mind was on tobacco planet so I stood there trying to find him a cigarette, hehehehe it was amusing to me..... after the concert he came up where I was sitting at the corner table alone and he was really happy I was talking too much and too fast and exactly like Max normally does he just sat looking at me in amusement laughing while I was babbling away talking about everything...... Obviously I was so excited to meet them for the first time and It felt like the time was too short to really get to know them so you try savor up every detail and every movement, the other two band members I did not even get a chance to talk to once and I feel very guilty about that, I was really so happy last night, I tried not to smile at times, but it was really difficult for me.
The music ohh my goodness, it was absolutely incredible....... I did notice the difference without the violinist, the violin really adds a great deal to the music, the song "come to me now" did not sound the same at all without the violin, the violin has a very powerful effect on that particular song not just on the music but also on Paolo's voice when he sings, yet COMPLIMENTS, because like any good artists, when you are good you can perform without anything anywhere anytime.... it was truly BEAUTIFUL, and they even had MARACAS Wohooooo!!!!!!!! Ahhhh I love the Maracas, I must say I really love their drums and the drummer knows what he is doing....... Goosebumps I tell you all over......
As always when there are an enormous amount of joy inside of me I cannot sit still because when I sit still my joy comes from my stomach and I smile more and more and giggle more and more, I glow actually and I cannot help it or hide it, I sometimes disguise it with a glass or two of wine so that people think I am a little bit tipsy and think that I am tipsy starry eyed smiling, nooo actually its my disguise lately, I really don't know where all this happiness is coming from really, I have been laughing and giggling myself awake even, I am serious, I am not joking...... pffffff allora,
As I was running around everywhere in Ronchi78 last night because I have too many happy feelings and did not know how to deal with them all at once, I heard a familiar heavenly sound, the melody was peaceful, it was like a peaceful rain of words that filled my ears and pulled my spirit down the steps towards the band where Inland sea sang another favorite song of mine called "Rain of Words", it was absolutely beautiful, ahhh all off the excitement in me turned to complete inner peace for the entire song..... afterwards my happy pack was charged again and I am still happy at this moment the happiness still has not gone allora...... maybe I am ET's sister who knows, I am really frightened to try point my finger to the sky, I am really afraid the top part of my finger will actually glow hahahaha.... I'm just kidding hehehehehe I already pointed my finger to the sky, it did not glow don't worry....
Truly If you have not heard the music of Inland Sea please do visit their website www.inlandsea.it their CD called "Things Change" can also be bought on ITUNES, when you visit their website you will find all the necessary information.
Furthermore I was really happy with the concert for me it was really beautiful, I hope that for two of the Directors of Palbert Music, Giacomo Bertacci and Mirko Paletti that was there last night aswell, that they too were happy and pleased, ahhh I just want everybody to be happy, if you are a man know that you are fortunate because it is so difficult to be a woman sometimes, we care too much, we have so many emotions and just wants everybody to be pleased, nurtured, smiling, peaceful and extremely happy.
.....Once again I was bedazzled by Inland Sea..... in Ronchi78
I am tired now, I want to sleep but.......
I will write again soon....
Amore Sempre
domenica 6 febbraio 2011
lunedì 31 gennaio 2011
PARTY TIME!!!!
Inland Sea Concert
Ciao Regazzi......
As you now now, Inland Sea will be performing in Ronchi78 Milan Italy on the 09t h of February 2011. This concert is really so important for me because even just the band members are all amazing, everybody that helped Inland Sea with their CD is amazing and now everybody will be under one roof having a PARTY WoHoooooooo, it's going to be so much fun. I am so excited I cannot wait, I wish I had a time machine!!!!
I do believe that if you read this blog and you like smiling, excellent cuisine, laughing, excellent bands, excellent music, wines, classy but relaxed venues, intellegent and amazing people, if you speak Italian, English, Dutch, Afrikaans, French and Spanish and if you love dancing then you cannot miss this CONCERT of Inland Sea in Ronchi78, come on spoil yourself come and have a party with us in Ronchi78 but please book I will write down all the contact details below for you to plan to come and visit.
Last night I spoke to Giacomo because Inland Sea is obviously a very unique band, this band is Italian, yet writes excellent lyrics in english, performs in english and the type of instruments used to preduce their music, it is not usual or ordinary its different, new, it is really excellent. Up untill now the lead singer of Inland Sea (Paolo Spada) told me that they have up untill now only really played amongst their friends and Max another Ronchi78 artist told me that Italians are very private people they dont talk easily, well not like me, I am like I told dottore a colourful butterfly and when I love something will convince the planet that its the best and that everybody must have it, visit it, be part of it etc. hehehehehehe, I could sell an egg to a chicken when I am inspired hehehehehehe allora.....
So I spoke to Giacomo because I really love Inland Sea's music, now I am trying to get in contact with my friend in America who knows very important people in the music industry who just needs to one time listen to the CD of Inland Sea then Surprise, Inland Sea will then need body guards, but getting hold of my friend is not easy even if he is a good friend pfffff.
I will first need to speak to Paolo and everybody involved to hear what they want then we will see where this band will be in the future, if I get only yes, yes, yes, yes then my dear readers this concert might be the last concert where you can meet this band in Person and speak to them face to face....
Right now I am not promising anything, I am just sharing my thoughts and hopes with all of you.
Soooooo Now ofcoarse you should call Ronchi78 and book a table for you and all of your friends, it is not wise to wait because people are booking and if all the tables are booked you can take a chance to just walk in but you will not feel too comfortable just standing around all the time.
Please find all the details below:
INLAND SEA CONCERT @ RONCHI78
Date: 09 February 2011
Time: 21:30
Place: Ronchi78
Address: Via San Maurilio 7
Tel./Fax: 02867295
cell: 327 7358587
More info.: ENTRANCE Is €10, the first drink is for free and after €5 it's a
give away!!!!!!!!
Directions: When you come from Piazza Duomo in Central Milan you will see a shop called ZARA, that street is called Via Torino. Walk straight down Via Torino, on your left hand side you will see a shop called FNAC, the street right opposite the shop called FNAC in Via Torino is called Via San Maurilio where you will see your desired destination called Ronchi78.
Website:
www.ronchi78.it
www.inlandsea.it
www.palbertmusic.it
Facebook:
www.facebook.com/ronchi78
www.facebook.com/inlandsea
Blogs:
mariletteronchi78.blogspot.com
inlandseapalbertmusic.blogspot.com
Now you might be worried when planning to travel from afar about accomodation, do not worry there are sites here I will add on here for you, take a look at this accomodation it is absolutely beautiful and most definitaly worth it:
http://filiberto.filcasaservice.it/index.html
http://www.gruppomirage.it/
Now that you have all the information, I suggest you get your fine backside onto the telephone, book your accomodation, book your table at Ronchi78 for this amazing Concert and come meet Inland Sea and myself where we will be festive and have FUN!!!!!!
See you soon!!!!!!!
Ciao Regazzi......
As you now now, Inland Sea will be performing in Ronchi78 Milan Italy on the 09t h of February 2011. This concert is really so important for me because even just the band members are all amazing, everybody that helped Inland Sea with their CD is amazing and now everybody will be under one roof having a PARTY WoHoooooooo, it's going to be so much fun. I am so excited I cannot wait, I wish I had a time machine!!!!
I do believe that if you read this blog and you like smiling, excellent cuisine, laughing, excellent bands, excellent music, wines, classy but relaxed venues, intellegent and amazing people, if you speak Italian, English, Dutch, Afrikaans, French and Spanish and if you love dancing then you cannot miss this CONCERT of Inland Sea in Ronchi78, come on spoil yourself come and have a party with us in Ronchi78 but please book I will write down all the contact details below for you to plan to come and visit.
Last night I spoke to Giacomo because Inland Sea is obviously a very unique band, this band is Italian, yet writes excellent lyrics in english, performs in english and the type of instruments used to preduce their music, it is not usual or ordinary its different, new, it is really excellent. Up untill now the lead singer of Inland Sea (Paolo Spada) told me that they have up untill now only really played amongst their friends and Max another Ronchi78 artist told me that Italians are very private people they dont talk easily, well not like me, I am like I told dottore a colourful butterfly and when I love something will convince the planet that its the best and that everybody must have it, visit it, be part of it etc. hehehehehehe, I could sell an egg to a chicken when I am inspired hehehehehehe allora.....
So I spoke to Giacomo because I really love Inland Sea's music, now I am trying to get in contact with my friend in America who knows very important people in the music industry who just needs to one time listen to the CD of Inland Sea then Surprise, Inland Sea will then need body guards, but getting hold of my friend is not easy even if he is a good friend pfffff.
I will first need to speak to Paolo and everybody involved to hear what they want then we will see where this band will be in the future, if I get only yes, yes, yes, yes then my dear readers this concert might be the last concert where you can meet this band in Person and speak to them face to face....
Right now I am not promising anything, I am just sharing my thoughts and hopes with all of you.
Soooooo Now ofcoarse you should call Ronchi78 and book a table for you and all of your friends, it is not wise to wait because people are booking and if all the tables are booked you can take a chance to just walk in but you will not feel too comfortable just standing around all the time.
Please find all the details below:
INLAND SEA CONCERT @ RONCHI78
Date: 09 February 2011
Time: 21:30
Place: Ronchi78
Address: Via San Maurilio 7
Tel./Fax: 02867295
cell: 327 7358587
More info.: ENTRANCE Is €10, the first drink is for free and after €5 it's a
give away!!!!!!!!
Directions: When you come from Piazza Duomo in Central Milan you will see a shop called ZARA, that street is called Via Torino. Walk straight down Via Torino, on your left hand side you will see a shop called FNAC, the street right opposite the shop called FNAC in Via Torino is called Via San Maurilio where you will see your desired destination called Ronchi78.
Website:
www.ronchi78.it
www.inlandsea.it
www.palbertmusic.it
Facebook:
www.facebook.com/ronchi78
www.facebook.com/inlandsea
Blogs:
mariletteronchi78.blogspot.com
inlandseapalbertmusic.blogspot.com
Now you might be worried when planning to travel from afar about accomodation, do not worry there are sites here I will add on here for you, take a look at this accomodation it is absolutely beautiful and most definitaly worth it:
http://filiberto.filcasaservice.it/index.html
http://www.gruppomirage.it/
Now that you have all the information, I suggest you get your fine backside onto the telephone, book your accomodation, book your table at Ronchi78 for this amazing Concert and come meet Inland Sea and myself where we will be festive and have FUN!!!!!!
See you soon!!!!!!!
venerdì 28 gennaio 2011
Happy confusion...
As most of you may know by now, Inland Sea will be performing in Ronchi78 on the 9th of February 2011. This Concert will be an unforgettable evening for all Who will attend, because Inland Sea is really really amazing. Not just really really amazing but excellent.
Alright I know, you have not heard of them but when I arrived in Milan I did not know about them either, only when I was about to leave this magical band reeled me in like a tuna fish, no a tuna fish is very difficult to reel in, more like a normal big eyed gold fish, and the first time I heard their music I was won over, I fell head over heels completely in love with the music and the lyrics, trust me I am a lover of excellent things, excellent music, excellent cuisine, excellent people, places and events so trust me they are excellent!!!!!!
I have not been writing sorry, I have been studying loads of Italian and a very sweet person has been sobotaging all of My postings, reporting all of My writings as abusive. I wonder If this person knows what the word abuse actually means and I am trying to understand the mentality of this person because I dont understand how somebody can sit, investigate what good others produce and would want to sabotage it, WoW it scares me because such a person must be carrying round so much hate, so much unacceptance, so much sadness and pain, I am worried about this person, please if you have been sabotaging all of My postings please contact me as soon as possible so that I can try help you, I am not upset with you, I forgive you, I am never angry only if you hurt animals, sick people, old people and children in front of me then I will turn into a demon, otherwise I mostly understand people or try to.
Normally for me if you Are human there is nothing new to learn, people Are people all that differentiates us is our cultures and languages, but of all the people I have met, mostly everybody thinks similar, depressed people thinks like depressed people and I can go on.
Now if you come to me and tell me that you are ET, then you might interest the #*%=+# out of me, and I would probably warn you to stay away from NASA, hehehehe, but if you dont listen do not be afraid, I will come to visit you in the big water tube, I will come with My swimwear, hehehehe, no biscotti though it will get wet sorry, hehehehe......
Allora, Ahhhhhh I missed writing, I love writing, its My life, I missed writing right here, at My little corner table in Ronchi78, where the atmosphere is tranquil, the music enfolding sweet melodies into My ears that sends beautiful wavelengths to every cell in My body, where all the worry and tension dissapears and My mind as well as body enters a state of complete relaxation.......ouffffffff, I know I know, dont ask questions just accept please?
Now the concert..... To be continued on inlandseapalbertmusic.blogspot.com
Click on these links if any accomodation is wanted in Milan:
http://www.gruppomirage.it/
http://filiberto.filcasaservice.it/index.html
Alright I know, you have not heard of them but when I arrived in Milan I did not know about them either, only when I was about to leave this magical band reeled me in like a tuna fish, no a tuna fish is very difficult to reel in, more like a normal big eyed gold fish, and the first time I heard their music I was won over, I fell head over heels completely in love with the music and the lyrics, trust me I am a lover of excellent things, excellent music, excellent cuisine, excellent people, places and events so trust me they are excellent!!!!!!
I have not been writing sorry, I have been studying loads of Italian and a very sweet person has been sobotaging all of My postings, reporting all of My writings as abusive. I wonder If this person knows what the word abuse actually means and I am trying to understand the mentality of this person because I dont understand how somebody can sit, investigate what good others produce and would want to sabotage it, WoW it scares me because such a person must be carrying round so much hate, so much unacceptance, so much sadness and pain, I am worried about this person, please if you have been sabotaging all of My postings please contact me as soon as possible so that I can try help you, I am not upset with you, I forgive you, I am never angry only if you hurt animals, sick people, old people and children in front of me then I will turn into a demon, otherwise I mostly understand people or try to.
Normally for me if you Are human there is nothing new to learn, people Are people all that differentiates us is our cultures and languages, but of all the people I have met, mostly everybody thinks similar, depressed people thinks like depressed people and I can go on.
Now if you come to me and tell me that you are ET, then you might interest the #*%=+# out of me, and I would probably warn you to stay away from NASA, hehehehe, but if you dont listen do not be afraid, I will come to visit you in the big water tube, I will come with My swimwear, hehehehe, no biscotti though it will get wet sorry, hehehehe......
Allora, Ahhhhhh I missed writing, I love writing, its My life, I missed writing right here, at My little corner table in Ronchi78, where the atmosphere is tranquil, the music enfolding sweet melodies into My ears that sends beautiful wavelengths to every cell in My body, where all the worry and tension dissapears and My mind as well as body enters a state of complete relaxation.......ouffffffff, I know I know, dont ask questions just accept please?
Now the concert..... To be continued on inlandseapalbertmusic.blogspot.com
Click on these links if any accomodation is wanted in Milan:
http://www.gruppomirage.it/
http://filiberto.filcasaservice.it/index.html
lunedì 17 gennaio 2011
SMILE........!!!!!!!!!!
Ciao a tutti....
Ahhhh I love you all, ohhh dear I had such a relaxing day, I laughed a lot watching old movies and allora I giggled myself awake again this morning, It happens sometimes, pfffff I cannot help it and I don't know what I dream to laugh myself awake in the mornings because when I open my eyes I don't remember my dreams...... Mama Mia.
Last night was WONDERFUL at Ronchi78, ohhh I had so much fun but it was so busy, I don't know why because it is not Christmas, is it not supposed to be back to normal again? I could only get a table before 12pm and later I spoke Giacomo silly again and then I fooled around singing I will survive on the microphone, pheww its fantastic because it is live karaoke everybody is so relaxed and even if you sing terrible people loves it, its wonderful ohhh I love Ronchi78. Everybody should come and visit, it is WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!
Giacomo told me that in summer Ronchi is empty and then I felt like a beach party all of the sudden because summer was mentioned while I was having a good time..... ooooh just think, the beach, bikini, cocktail, HULA outfit, bonfire, cool sea water over your skin and SHAKE ITTTTTTT HULA STYLE with DRUMMMMMS and MARACAS, WOHOOOOOOOOOO, AI REEEEEEBA REEEEEEEEBA JAI JAI JAI....... OLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe Ronchi78 must get a swimming pool with some plants and a jacuzzi with a bar on the roof, we can import beach sand ohhhhh and have beach parties all through summer...... fantastic IDEA, did I mention Giorgio Armani is looking for new models and they are installing video cameras all over Ronch78 to choose a few lucky girls, hehehehehe NOOOOOOO I'm joking, I just felt like giving everyone a minor heart attack for a second, sorry I am cruel I know, well nothing is impossible if you think about it...... pfffff nooooo I'm joking, I am just being amused that's all.......
Allora, WOHOOOOO yes this is a new year and from tomorrow I will be excersisng with Laura so I will not be able to be at Ronchi so much anymore, maybe during the weekends perhaps and definitely when INLAND SEA is going to play, ohhhhhh I hope they come soon for a concert at Ronchi I cannot wait!!!!!
I am happy because everybody is smiling again in Ronchi's and at home, ahhhh I just love it when everybody is happy, when everybody is happy I am happy and nobody needs to worry I will never disappear or leave nooooo I love everybody too much, I only disappear somehow when I am being treated badly or not appreciated or being taken advantage of and most of the time I don't plan to leave, it just happens, I cannot leave where there is happiness, joy and love, all is good and nobody needs to worry about a thing.
I have been paying a little bit of attention to the boys that has been entering Ronchi because well I am a woman but I don't know, when it comes to romance I am old school and very stupid when it comes to hints or pick up lines, for example the other day a guy told me that when he looks at me I make him dizzy, so I replied "ohhh I am so sorry" and really being sorry because obviously I was thinking about healing methods or something constructive in my mind again, so this poor man looked puzzled at me and left, shame only after about 10 minutes I burst out laughing realising that the guy was using a pick-up line and giving me a compliment. uhahahahahaha I felt stupid, I am not used to guys being not sure or taking the lead. telling me straight and asking me out, being straight with me works but not by just meeting me telling me "hey I like you lets go to your room" that's insane!!!!! One thing about me is, is that I love romance and being treated special obviously, every woman likes to feel like a princess and our butts sugar coated.
I am a very deep woman, a hopeless romantic and I love love, I love falling in love, I love the stars, candles, soft music, private dinner, slow dancing, slowwwwww hand, soft touch, kissed feverishly, my head then all dizzzzzy and smiling, then ufffffffffffffffffffff beautifullllll prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrFECT..... obviously waking up with a smile on my face feeling all fuzzy satisfied and de-flowered, hehehehehehe...... OHHHH DIO!!!!!!
Also for me when I meet a guy lately I think in the back of my head if everybody in Ronchi will approve of him, if everybody at home (Mirko, Laura, Pierepaolo, Edoardo, Ludivico etc) will approve of him, if the football team will approve of him and if there is one sign that someone might not approve I loose interest very quickly and I don't know why I feel like this, its so strange. Sigh, I can start the Bachelorette here already ufffff (sigh).
OK I am going to stop writing now because I want to sleep.....
Buonna notte a tutti!!!!
Tanti baci e Amore Sempre!!!!!!
Ahhhh I love you all, ohhh dear I had such a relaxing day, I laughed a lot watching old movies and allora I giggled myself awake again this morning, It happens sometimes, pfffff I cannot help it and I don't know what I dream to laugh myself awake in the mornings because when I open my eyes I don't remember my dreams...... Mama Mia.
Last night was WONDERFUL at Ronchi78, ohhh I had so much fun but it was so busy, I don't know why because it is not Christmas, is it not supposed to be back to normal again? I could only get a table before 12pm and later I spoke Giacomo silly again and then I fooled around singing I will survive on the microphone, pheww its fantastic because it is live karaoke everybody is so relaxed and even if you sing terrible people loves it, its wonderful ohhh I love Ronchi78. Everybody should come and visit, it is WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!
Giacomo told me that in summer Ronchi is empty and then I felt like a beach party all of the sudden because summer was mentioned while I was having a good time..... ooooh just think, the beach, bikini, cocktail, HULA outfit, bonfire, cool sea water over your skin and SHAKE ITTTTTTT HULA STYLE with DRUMMMMMS and MARACAS, WOHOOOOOOOOOO, AI REEEEEEBA REEEEEEEEBA JAI JAI JAI....... OLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe Ronchi78 must get a swimming pool with some plants and a jacuzzi with a bar on the roof, we can import beach sand ohhhhh and have beach parties all through summer...... fantastic IDEA, did I mention Giorgio Armani is looking for new models and they are installing video cameras all over Ronch78 to choose a few lucky girls, hehehehehe NOOOOOOO I'm joking, I just felt like giving everyone a minor heart attack for a second, sorry I am cruel I know, well nothing is impossible if you think about it...... pfffff nooooo I'm joking, I am just being amused that's all.......
Allora, WOHOOOOO yes this is a new year and from tomorrow I will be excersisng with Laura so I will not be able to be at Ronchi so much anymore, maybe during the weekends perhaps and definitely when INLAND SEA is going to play, ohhhhhh I hope they come soon for a concert at Ronchi I cannot wait!!!!!
I am happy because everybody is smiling again in Ronchi's and at home, ahhhh I just love it when everybody is happy, when everybody is happy I am happy and nobody needs to worry I will never disappear or leave nooooo I love everybody too much, I only disappear somehow when I am being treated badly or not appreciated or being taken advantage of and most of the time I don't plan to leave, it just happens, I cannot leave where there is happiness, joy and love, all is good and nobody needs to worry about a thing.
I have been paying a little bit of attention to the boys that has been entering Ronchi because well I am a woman but I don't know, when it comes to romance I am old school and very stupid when it comes to hints or pick up lines, for example the other day a guy told me that when he looks at me I make him dizzy, so I replied "ohhh I am so sorry" and really being sorry because obviously I was thinking about healing methods or something constructive in my mind again, so this poor man looked puzzled at me and left, shame only after about 10 minutes I burst out laughing realising that the guy was using a pick-up line and giving me a compliment. uhahahahahaha I felt stupid, I am not used to guys being not sure or taking the lead. telling me straight and asking me out, being straight with me works but not by just meeting me telling me "hey I like you lets go to your room" that's insane!!!!! One thing about me is, is that I love romance and being treated special obviously, every woman likes to feel like a princess and our butts sugar coated.
I am a very deep woman, a hopeless romantic and I love love, I love falling in love, I love the stars, candles, soft music, private dinner, slow dancing, slowwwwww hand, soft touch, kissed feverishly, my head then all dizzzzzy and smiling, then ufffffffffffffffffffff beautifullllll prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrFECT..... obviously waking up with a smile on my face feeling all fuzzy satisfied and de-flowered, hehehehehehe...... OHHHH DIO!!!!!!
Also for me when I meet a guy lately I think in the back of my head if everybody in Ronchi will approve of him, if everybody at home (Mirko, Laura, Pierepaolo, Edoardo, Ludivico etc) will approve of him, if the football team will approve of him and if there is one sign that someone might not approve I loose interest very quickly and I don't know why I feel like this, its so strange. Sigh, I can start the Bachelorette here already ufffff (sigh).
OK I am going to stop writing now because I want to sleep.....
Buonna notte a tutti!!!!
Tanti baci e Amore Sempre!!!!!!
sabato 15 gennaio 2011
The young the old and the beautiful......
Ahhhh recently a great amount of love has been entering and filling My core, My chest area and it is because of the enormous amount of laughter and joy that old Italian grandmothers, amazing Italian mothers as well as children has been adding to my life and one particular baby boy that completely stole My heart and another 2 little boys, ouffff, little Ludovico, Edoardo and Pierepaolo, ahhhh the most content and happiest almost 7 month old boy, the cutest 5 year old Edo and the very responsible Pierre.... Priceless.
Babies are so increadible, the little features, hands and ohh my goodness the laughter, when a baby laughs to me it is the most beautiful and joyful sound in the world it makes me so excited and happy as well as warm, fuzzy and dizzy, ohhh too much love.
2 Nights ago, I was in Ronchi78 it was just before it was time to close for the night and the guests down stairs that was dancing and singing with Paolo the musician, drew their eveing to a close, they were paying their accounts and leaving.
Standing at the bar and greeting all the guests as they left this one amusing family caught My attention, ohh dear, it was a grandfather and grandmother that had an awesome evening with their children or grand children but they were all adults, hahahaha, the grandfather was smiling at me all the time and the grandmother was dancing and so full of life she just stole My heart, ahhhh.
Before this amazing little Italian woman left Ronchi she stopped when she saw me and asked me if I would be one of her son's girlfriend, I told her ok because obviously she was joking, then she pointed to her son and asked me if I liked him hahahahahahaha, ohhh dear the son or grandson looked so embarrest and she was just too cute, hahahahahaha, BELLISSIMA!!!!!
Old people facinates me, they carry round within them almost one century's knowledge and experiences, you can ask them anything. The grandmothers have almost one century of recipies stored in their minds as well as remedies, it is increadible like a walking living, caring, sweet adorable warm trustworthy gentle library and you can hug them, talk to them do things for them help them ahhhh it is beautiful.
About a month ago I was speaking to Mirko about My grandfather that has passed away because of cancer when I was 17. My relationship with My grandfather was very strange, for 17 years My grandfather never showed me affection or even spoke to me, yet I was his only grandaughter. My brother and myself Who was his only granchildren went to visit him every school holiday but he had his busineses so we never saw him.
One year before My grandfather passed away I knew that My time with him was limited so I thought to myself "Enough is Enough, I am going to force him to speak and spend time with me, I am going to become his personal poltergeist" so I did, I started by sitting with him at the breakfast table every morning talking to him and asking him 20 0000 questions. His replies were short without feeling and he looked very confused. Sundays were the only day when he was not working and he was not a person that could sleep in the afternoon, me neither so he would go into the gerage looking at his new branch trimming toy's and then walk round in the garden trimming the tree branches, so I would walk behind him picking up the branches that fell onto the ground after he cut them just to help him so that he does not have to bend afterwards to pick up all the branches. He noticed me following him and helping him then he would say in afrikaans "n bietjie beter met n bietjie botter", it means directly translated "a little bit better with a little bit of butter", meaning that it looks better now that it is trimmed. I thought that this rime was absolutely beautiful and I always walked behind him giggling every time he said this rhyming phrase, hehehehe he would smile as I would giggle.
I remember that the branches I collected as he would CUT them off of the trees had many thorns and these thorns were cutting My hands badly, but I did not care, the time with him was too precious to complain about My hands bleeding. My grandfather noticed the blood on My hands but said noting, he looked shocked after a while when he saw that after an hour of giggling behind him with really bloody hands and could not understand why I didnt care about the pain.
The time with him was far more precious to me than to worry about My freshly CUT bruises, from that moment our relationship started to develop, he was curious to know why this child would hurt herself to spend time with him, he wanted to get to know me. For my grandfather, he never knew that love does not cost a thing, he never knew that all he had to do and all I wanted from him was just to spend time with me, hehehehehe the last year of his life was wonderful but difficult, I finally had a real grandfather that loved me, ahhh he was so sweet and I could not stop spending time with him, his cancer killed me too, not to be able to help someone you love or to take away their pain killed me slowly, all I could do was be there for him 1000% for anything he needed, I massaged him on the painful areas but it didnt help, when he needed anything it was there it was done.
Our birthdays were two days apart, his birthday was on the 18th of October and mine is on the 20th of October he was exactly 50 years and two days older than me and I loved buying him presents, A year before he passed away for his birthday I baught him 2 work shirts one black and another dark blue he looked very good in dark colours and I would tell him that too, his last days those two shirts were the only two shirts he wore. He was always facinated with his gift bags I normally gave with his presents and 2 days afterwards on my birthday he would come with a very tiny gift bag and inside the little gift bag was money hehehehehe.
I also sent him an sms every morning before I went to school then in the afternoon he would give me money because of one simple sms, what I would do then is take the cash and buy chocolates as well as sweets cookies and milo, water etc and then we would have a picknick on his bed, hahahaha ahhh the memories of his last month are priceless but it killed me as I saw how the cancer took toll on him every day.
In the last year of his life I had to have incredibile self controll because his wife. My step grandmother treated him bad and it only got worse the weaker he got, the one day he asked his wife to please get his coat because he was feeling cold, ohhh I was sitting NeXT to him when she trew a fit walked out of the living room returned and trew his coat right into his face, ohhh dear God, anger arose in me like I have never felt before I wanted to se this woman being slowly tortured to death, but I kept My face staight and My voice pleasant and helped My grandfather to put on his coat. When someone is dying of an illness it is important to keep their environments as peaceful, happy, luxurious and joyful as much as humanly possible.
The one afternoon we were still having our picknick, he then took out all my lille gifts I gave him from when I was 7 years old. When I was 7 I gave him a little business card size black suitcase for all his business cards, that day he gave it back to me exactly as I gave it to him 10 years before, inside was still my 7 year old handwriting wishing him happy birthday,. for me that broke my heart because all the years I thought he did not care about me, he loved me, he just never knew how to show me, that day I knew and I was happy but sad, it was his gift I didn't want it back, I wanted him to stay.
My grandfathers last days were terrible and I was exhausted, all he wanted was me, when I left or was not close he would look around in panick, so I stayed in his hospital room by his bed, rubbing his feet, rubbing his back, helping him eat, speaking to him, holding his hand. The morning before he passed I put right his daily boxers and vest, it was a white vest with red boxers the cartoon on the boxers were little devils and underneath it said naughty devil.
His last moments were strange, he kept looking at an empty corner in the room with a smile on his face while squeezing My hand with all his might, My hand was numb after a while but it did not matter.
While he was breathing his last breath I was telling him how much I loved him and that one day I will see him again, I also kissed the top of his head and rubbed his ears for the last time, I was the only one that could touch his ears, the last breath and the last look was not pretty so I walked out of the room emotionless, not crying not saying a word, I died again that day, there were no more tears, I was dried up, I had mo more emotion to be sad even I was just existing again.
The next day I went to go select his coffin and select the flowers because if I did not do this his wife would have chosen a shoe box if she could, just to pocket more money, disgusting pffff.
For me, if you hurt children, old people, Ill people or animals in front of me Uffff there is no words to describe how upset I feel, it is in my sight forbidden and not even thought of because I get too furious, if I had to be a cartoon character I would explode of fury and shoot the person with a shotgun afterwards feed him to the pigs then burn the bastard and poohp on his ashes. Sorry it's just how I feel, I do not have the heart to actually do it, I cannot even hurt an ant conciously, I'm just describing my feelings.
Children and old people as well as Ill people and animals are so dependent on a physical person for comfort, help, as well as survival, they cannot be alone or look after themselves it is so important to be kind and look after these four groups of beings. They are innocent and need to be taken care of with love.
Oki doki I am exhausted and think that I have written quite a bit today...
I will write again soon..
Amore Sempre
Babies are so increadible, the little features, hands and ohh my goodness the laughter, when a baby laughs to me it is the most beautiful and joyful sound in the world it makes me so excited and happy as well as warm, fuzzy and dizzy, ohhh too much love.
2 Nights ago, I was in Ronchi78 it was just before it was time to close for the night and the guests down stairs that was dancing and singing with Paolo the musician, drew their eveing to a close, they were paying their accounts and leaving.
Standing at the bar and greeting all the guests as they left this one amusing family caught My attention, ohh dear, it was a grandfather and grandmother that had an awesome evening with their children or grand children but they were all adults, hahahaha, the grandfather was smiling at me all the time and the grandmother was dancing and so full of life she just stole My heart, ahhhh.
Before this amazing little Italian woman left Ronchi she stopped when she saw me and asked me if I would be one of her son's girlfriend, I told her ok because obviously she was joking, then she pointed to her son and asked me if I liked him hahahahahahaha, ohhh dear the son or grandson looked so embarrest and she was just too cute, hahahahahaha, BELLISSIMA!!!!!
Old people facinates me, they carry round within them almost one century's knowledge and experiences, you can ask them anything. The grandmothers have almost one century of recipies stored in their minds as well as remedies, it is increadible like a walking living, caring, sweet adorable warm trustworthy gentle library and you can hug them, talk to them do things for them help them ahhhh it is beautiful.
About a month ago I was speaking to Mirko about My grandfather that has passed away because of cancer when I was 17. My relationship with My grandfather was very strange, for 17 years My grandfather never showed me affection or even spoke to me, yet I was his only grandaughter. My brother and myself Who was his only granchildren went to visit him every school holiday but he had his busineses so we never saw him.
One year before My grandfather passed away I knew that My time with him was limited so I thought to myself "Enough is Enough, I am going to force him to speak and spend time with me, I am going to become his personal poltergeist" so I did, I started by sitting with him at the breakfast table every morning talking to him and asking him 20 0000 questions. His replies were short without feeling and he looked very confused. Sundays were the only day when he was not working and he was not a person that could sleep in the afternoon, me neither so he would go into the gerage looking at his new branch trimming toy's and then walk round in the garden trimming the tree branches, so I would walk behind him picking up the branches that fell onto the ground after he cut them just to help him so that he does not have to bend afterwards to pick up all the branches. He noticed me following him and helping him then he would say in afrikaans "n bietjie beter met n bietjie botter", it means directly translated "a little bit better with a little bit of butter", meaning that it looks better now that it is trimmed. I thought that this rime was absolutely beautiful and I always walked behind him giggling every time he said this rhyming phrase, hehehehe he would smile as I would giggle.
I remember that the branches I collected as he would CUT them off of the trees had many thorns and these thorns were cutting My hands badly, but I did not care, the time with him was too precious to complain about My hands bleeding. My grandfather noticed the blood on My hands but said noting, he looked shocked after a while when he saw that after an hour of giggling behind him with really bloody hands and could not understand why I didnt care about the pain.
The time with him was far more precious to me than to worry about My freshly CUT bruises, from that moment our relationship started to develop, he was curious to know why this child would hurt herself to spend time with him, he wanted to get to know me. For my grandfather, he never knew that love does not cost a thing, he never knew that all he had to do and all I wanted from him was just to spend time with me, hehehehehe the last year of his life was wonderful but difficult, I finally had a real grandfather that loved me, ahhh he was so sweet and I could not stop spending time with him, his cancer killed me too, not to be able to help someone you love or to take away their pain killed me slowly, all I could do was be there for him 1000% for anything he needed, I massaged him on the painful areas but it didnt help, when he needed anything it was there it was done.
Our birthdays were two days apart, his birthday was on the 18th of October and mine is on the 20th of October he was exactly 50 years and two days older than me and I loved buying him presents, A year before he passed away for his birthday I baught him 2 work shirts one black and another dark blue he looked very good in dark colours and I would tell him that too, his last days those two shirts were the only two shirts he wore. He was always facinated with his gift bags I normally gave with his presents and 2 days afterwards on my birthday he would come with a very tiny gift bag and inside the little gift bag was money hehehehehe.
I also sent him an sms every morning before I went to school then in the afternoon he would give me money because of one simple sms, what I would do then is take the cash and buy chocolates as well as sweets cookies and milo, water etc and then we would have a picknick on his bed, hahahaha ahhh the memories of his last month are priceless but it killed me as I saw how the cancer took toll on him every day.
In the last year of his life I had to have incredibile self controll because his wife. My step grandmother treated him bad and it only got worse the weaker he got, the one day he asked his wife to please get his coat because he was feeling cold, ohhh I was sitting NeXT to him when she trew a fit walked out of the living room returned and trew his coat right into his face, ohhh dear God, anger arose in me like I have never felt before I wanted to se this woman being slowly tortured to death, but I kept My face staight and My voice pleasant and helped My grandfather to put on his coat. When someone is dying of an illness it is important to keep their environments as peaceful, happy, luxurious and joyful as much as humanly possible.
The one afternoon we were still having our picknick, he then took out all my lille gifts I gave him from when I was 7 years old. When I was 7 I gave him a little business card size black suitcase for all his business cards, that day he gave it back to me exactly as I gave it to him 10 years before, inside was still my 7 year old handwriting wishing him happy birthday,. for me that broke my heart because all the years I thought he did not care about me, he loved me, he just never knew how to show me, that day I knew and I was happy but sad, it was his gift I didn't want it back, I wanted him to stay.
My grandfathers last days were terrible and I was exhausted, all he wanted was me, when I left or was not close he would look around in panick, so I stayed in his hospital room by his bed, rubbing his feet, rubbing his back, helping him eat, speaking to him, holding his hand. The morning before he passed I put right his daily boxers and vest, it was a white vest with red boxers the cartoon on the boxers were little devils and underneath it said naughty devil.
His last moments were strange, he kept looking at an empty corner in the room with a smile on his face while squeezing My hand with all his might, My hand was numb after a while but it did not matter.
While he was breathing his last breath I was telling him how much I loved him and that one day I will see him again, I also kissed the top of his head and rubbed his ears for the last time, I was the only one that could touch his ears, the last breath and the last look was not pretty so I walked out of the room emotionless, not crying not saying a word, I died again that day, there were no more tears, I was dried up, I had mo more emotion to be sad even I was just existing again.
The next day I went to go select his coffin and select the flowers because if I did not do this his wife would have chosen a shoe box if she could, just to pocket more money, disgusting pffff.
For me, if you hurt children, old people, Ill people or animals in front of me Uffff there is no words to describe how upset I feel, it is in my sight forbidden and not even thought of because I get too furious, if I had to be a cartoon character I would explode of fury and shoot the person with a shotgun afterwards feed him to the pigs then burn the bastard and poohp on his ashes. Sorry it's just how I feel, I do not have the heart to actually do it, I cannot even hurt an ant conciously, I'm just describing my feelings.
Children and old people as well as Ill people and animals are so dependent on a physical person for comfort, help, as well as survival, they cannot be alone or look after themselves it is so important to be kind and look after these four groups of beings. They are innocent and need to be taken care of with love.
Oki doki I am exhausted and think that I have written quite a bit today...
I will write again soon..
Amore Sempre
giovedì 13 gennaio 2011
While in Pisa.....
Allora 2 giorni va/fa (two days ago) WAIT MAMA MIA it took me two hours just to write this little part because I am thinking, singing, dancing, drinking vino rosso and remembering 20 000 000 things at once...... allora, allow me to organise my thoughts then I will write again........ go to sleep, rest, smile and know this will be a magical year......
CIAOOOOOOOOOO....
Dammi febre, quando baci mi ..... Hhehehehehehe.. Ooh Dio.
CIAOOOOOOOOOO....
Dammi febre, quando baci mi ..... Hhehehehehehe.. Ooh Dio.
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