Last night was amazing.......
Yesterday afternoon my heart was a little bit soar because because.... Gloria actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I am truly grateful for her yesterday she made me laugh. She is very funny, through communication, kindness and understanding we resolved our differences.
So as I felt quite sad and feeling the need for compassion, kindness, affection and a sense of belonging I decided to go to Ronchi78 again, ahhhh I always go to Ronchi I love Ronchi Ronchi78 and myself'87 are soul mates, heheheheh. So I entered Ronchi and the atmosphere was electrifying and most definitely not an evening to write, ohhhh no Max Morganti as well as Paolo Pilo were both performing, the handsome Giacomo was behind the bar the Naked shef in the kitchen, hehehehe noooo he is not really naked, unless he wants to be? I don't judge people..... hehehehhe va bene. So everybody was happy, joyful and I went downstairs to see what Max and Paolo were up to. I first saw Poalo he greeted me warm and welcoming over the microphone, then I went to the other section of the restaurant to see what Max was doing..... (blush).
I was not in the room long and Max asked me to sing "I will survive" I was still sad, I cannot sing when I am sad, I don't know why I cannot sing. When I am sad my intestants and all my muscles feels like it pulls tight and inwards, probably out of habit to feel safe. when this happens I cannot sing at all. Max I apologize for the worst performance ever last night, I tried though.
After I sang I met very interesting and beautiful fun people, they were so sweet and I met a sweet guy. He has a milk farm so I asked him if one sunday we can milk his cows and he said yes uhahahahaha that sound funny. I am so excited I read about how to properly milk a cow today.
I was really happy because he was Milanese but he felt like such a warm sincere person. He was not shy to talk to me, to be kind, to do anything, he had courage and confidence to approach me and he even kissed me, well, it was a peck on the lips and then I blushed. I was so surprised because the guys here I think wants an invitation before taking the lead, I don't give invitations. I am not used to giving permission for feelings of romance people are free to do as they choose, go for it and if the other person responds positively back GOOOOD. Where I come from the woman is the silent waiting sensual female, the guy sees you and if he really wants you he will do anything to get you and keep on trying even after you said no, its quite charming actually, persistence. It actually impossible to deny the charm of a man completely sure that he wants you, ahhhh let me stop.
Last night I even found myself being in the center of a group hug. It was wonderful, everybody last night at Ronchi was having so much fun it was magical. I felt really happy eventually when I left Ronchi78, but I left confused. Giacomo told me things that does not make sense.
Allora.
ohhh well.
Still every time I go to Ronchi78 everybody makes me very happy, I love Ronchi78 and everybody could consider to come and visit because there is so much love in the Ronchi family. ahhhh my heart.
ok write again soon.....
Amore sempre