So.....
I was in France.... then I travelled back to Italy to Unite with my heart but what does one do when ones one heart does not want you anymore?
So I travelled back to South Africa, Im visiting my mother, her boyfriend died a week before, I arrived, luckily my mother met me at the airport in Johannesburg and after that she had to go collect her previous boyfriends ashes, then I was taken to my baby boy Gizmo Dogs doggy hospital, he could not be saved so he had to die too on the day of my arrival. The new place my mother was staying was interesting but not to my standards so I took controll and had changes made immedietly, Im actually still with my mother and decided that "oh well, its better to have a best friend than a mother" so we sorted out our own differences and we are singing Duets together. My mother sings better than me and she is absolutely gorgeous, well our birthdays are 3 days apart so we are exactly the same person, the only difference is is that she does not have all that much rythm and when we were in Yoga class together she couldnt put her legs between her head, uhahahahahaha, it was funny.
Yesterday we had a wonderful day together, I made her laugh so much she was crying and all her mascara came running off her face, uhahahahaha, I was laughing too. Luckily she took my advice and now everything is wonderful. phew, if I knew having a parent was this difficult I would have never gotten born.
The truth is, is that I still love and miss Ronchi78 so much it hurts, I miss Mirko, Giacomo, the boys, the families`, I am lost here. Im having fun but its not my heart. I am but existing in comfort but senza my heart. But what can I do, when my heart doest want me then hell I need to survive somewhere?
Here at the Northern farm I met a hippopottomus, I named her Sally, she has a child and husband too but I cannot bond with them, they are too dangerous. allora so I am now a proffesional tree climber and driving arround on Quad bikes all day, sit in the rocks in the middle of the river and listen to the water, its beautiful, but whenever I have an open moment, my thoughts go back to Milan and my families there. Its hurts., I love them so much. they have my heart forever.
Ok thats enough for now Im drinking wine.
Amore Sempre
Ciao