Last night was amazing.......
Yesterday afternoon my heart was a little bit soar because because.... Gloria actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I am truly grateful for her yesterday she made me laugh. She is very funny, through communication, kindness and understanding we resolved our differences.
So as I felt quite sad and feeling the need for compassion, kindness, affection and a sense of belonging I decided to go to Ronchi78 again, ahhhh I always go to Ronchi I love Ronchi Ronchi78 and myself'87 are soul mates, heheheheh. So I entered Ronchi and the atmosphere was electrifying and most definitely not an evening to write, ohhhh no Max Morganti as well as Paolo Pilo were both performing, the handsome Giacomo was behind the bar the Naked shef in the kitchen, hehehehe noooo he is not really naked, unless he wants to be? I don't judge people..... hehehehhe va bene. So everybody was happy, joyful and I went downstairs to see what Max and Paolo were up to. I first saw Poalo he greeted me warm and welcoming over the microphone, then I went to the other section of the restaurant to see what Max was doing..... (blush).
I was not in the room long and Max asked me to sing "I will survive" I was still sad, I cannot sing when I am sad, I don't know why I cannot sing. When I am sad my intestants and all my muscles feels like it pulls tight and inwards, probably out of habit to feel safe. when this happens I cannot sing at all. Max I apologize for the worst performance ever last night, I tried though.
After I sang I met very interesting and beautiful fun people, they were so sweet and I met a sweet guy. He has a milk farm so I asked him if one sunday we can milk his cows and he said yes uhahahahaha that sound funny. I am so excited I read about how to properly milk a cow today.
I was really happy because he was Milanese but he felt like such a warm sincere person. He was not shy to talk to me, to be kind, to do anything, he had courage and confidence to approach me and he even kissed me, well, it was a peck on the lips and then I blushed. I was so surprised because the guys here I think wants an invitation before taking the lead, I don't give invitations. I am not used to giving permission for feelings of romance people are free to do as they choose, go for it and if the other person responds positively back GOOOOD. Where I come from the woman is the silent waiting sensual female, the guy sees you and if he really wants you he will do anything to get you and keep on trying even after you said no, its quite charming actually, persistence. It actually impossible to deny the charm of a man completely sure that he wants you, ahhhh let me stop.
Last night I even found myself being in the center of a group hug. It was wonderful, everybody last night at Ronchi was having so much fun it was magical. I felt really happy eventually when I left Ronchi78, but I left confused. Giacomo told me things that does not make sense.
Allora.
ohhh well.
Still every time I go to Ronchi78 everybody makes me very happy, I love Ronchi78 and everybody could consider to come and visit because there is so much love in the Ronchi family. ahhhh my heart.
ok write again soon.....
Amore sempre
Ronchi78
lunedì 28 marzo 2011
venerdì 25 marzo 2011
Thank you
Thank you
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everybody. For me showing my gratitude is extremely important. It shows that I appreciate and acknowledge what others do and help me with.
I want to thank you as reader for reading this blog, I truly appreciate it very much, as long as you enjoy what you read and sometimes benefit from the information or laugh out load it is a pleasure for me to write when you enjoy to read this blog. You reading and enjoying my blog makes me very happy. Thank you.
I remembered earlier the first day I arrived in Ronchi78, (smile), I remember all the times I spent in Ronchi78, ohhh DIO, spending time with the football team, spending time with Max, Giacomo, Mirko uhahahahaha, decorating for Christmas the Vuvuzela's, Christmas, New Years, meeting Laura the boys having trouble speaking Italian, big communication problems. I feel truly fortunate and grateful. If I had to rewind these past couple of months And I had a chance to live it over again I would not change a single moment.
Every day has been a new surprise almost and it has been miraculous.
Everybody at Ronchi78 Giacomo, Mirko, Laura, the boys the grandparents the uncles and aunts are just beautiful and truly I am blessed to be able to spend time with all of you.
I can remember the night I was hanging Christmas balls onto the little christmas tree in Ronchi78, Mirko looked at me and told me that I am lucky because I have three balls and all of them only two each, I replied "Si, io sono molto fortunata", he laughed himself silly. I remember the first time I brought Giacomo his Vuvuzela uhahahahahahahaha he was happy, he was like a little boy. You know every memory here has been priceless, every moment a new wonderful surprise and I can only be absolutely grateful and say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being with the most wonderful people I have ever came across in my life.
Thank you Giacomo, Mirko, Ronchi78, football team, inland sea, Paletti family for all of your love, I love you all with all my heart and truly grateful for every second spent with all of you.
Thank you
Amore Sempre
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everybody. For me showing my gratitude is extremely important. It shows that I appreciate and acknowledge what others do and help me with.
I want to thank you as reader for reading this blog, I truly appreciate it very much, as long as you enjoy what you read and sometimes benefit from the information or laugh out load it is a pleasure for me to write when you enjoy to read this blog. You reading and enjoying my blog makes me very happy. Thank you.
I remembered earlier the first day I arrived in Ronchi78, (smile), I remember all the times I spent in Ronchi78, ohhh DIO, spending time with the football team, spending time with Max, Giacomo, Mirko uhahahahaha, decorating for Christmas the Vuvuzela's, Christmas, New Years, meeting Laura the boys having trouble speaking Italian, big communication problems. I feel truly fortunate and grateful. If I had to rewind these past couple of months And I had a chance to live it over again I would not change a single moment.
Every day has been a new surprise almost and it has been miraculous.
Everybody at Ronchi78 Giacomo, Mirko, Laura, the boys the grandparents the uncles and aunts are just beautiful and truly I am blessed to be able to spend time with all of you.
I can remember the night I was hanging Christmas balls onto the little christmas tree in Ronchi78, Mirko looked at me and told me that I am lucky because I have three balls and all of them only two each, I replied "Si, io sono molto fortunata", he laughed himself silly. I remember the first time I brought Giacomo his Vuvuzela uhahahahahahahaha he was happy, he was like a little boy. You know every memory here has been priceless, every moment a new wonderful surprise and I can only be absolutely grateful and say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being with the most wonderful people I have ever came across in my life.
Thank you Giacomo, Mirko, Ronchi78, football team, inland sea, Paletti family for all of your love, I love you all with all my heart and truly grateful for every second spent with all of you.
Thank you
Amore Sempre
mercoledì 23 marzo 2011
loads of fun......
Sunday was fun....
.....it was the baptism of little Ludo, a very important baptism, the festivity was amazing, I played the piano it was beautiful, the piano is one of the most beautiful instruments for me in the world. The music produced from a piano gives me goosebumps ohhhhh WOW I want to play it. The church where the baptism was held in was incredible, ohhhh my goodness, I have met a Mini Duomo hehehehe ahhhhh it was amazing.
To be honest I have not been writing, my energy feels low because I think I need a hug or something pfff...... love is normally my inspiration, (Love for me is clarity, sweetness, kindness, fun, joy happiness yes and many other different forms) right now I feel a little bit loveless.
Sigh its just me perhaps or its just in my mind, remember I am a woman and it is important to understand that women have more mixed emotions than men.
These feelings shall pass soon do not worry. I have also my own things I need to think about my own worries and fears, right now I need to pause and think clearly but it feels like I cannot, it feels like I just want to find some GENI somewhere rub his lamp and have all the unnecessary obstacles which are my own worries (which are little things) removed so that I can focus on more important things, bigger things like my book, like helping people. uffff.
Allora I do apologize (sigh). l am still very grateful though, yet I realized that I am really strange, nothing about my life is normal it is like it is magical, truly, it is true I sat and I thought about these past 4 months and it has not been a normal situation, but as I sat and thought I became frightened because I don't know what is going to happen. Then whenever I feel the feelings of fear the song "QUE SERA SERA" suddenly plays in my mind and then I feel a little bit better.
Right now I just feel like breathing and taking one second at a time. (Sigh) someone took my Africans in the little garden and Gloria is rude to me, bossing me around again, she has been doing the same to poor Ialene, shame the poor girl confides in me so may times about her own past experiences and that's why she is so extremely quiet, she doesn't know how to speak up she needs a boost of courage and confidence, Ialene has a really beautiful heart and spirit she is still so naive ahhh shame. I don't really feel like smiling writing or doing anything when people are rude to me, my mind switches off, its like my brain thought itself to protect itself from any negativity...... there is no need to be rude to me, I am always the same, people assume thats where things go wrong, assumption is the mother of all evil. I also miss playing calcio in the park with the kids I don't know why we are not going anymore, I miss spending time with All Puccino, I don't even see him, it makes me sad and I have not been coming to Ronchi78. I feel like I write best when I write in Ronchi.
ohhhh dear I have to tell you, I met Giacomo's little babies ohhhh they are just so beautiful!!!!!
Yes I do love Ronci78 and everyone WoHoooooo, Everybody should come to Ronchi78 it is peaceful and wonderful the festivity is incredible and the atmosphere just revitalizing, it is like heaven on earth. Mirko's parents are also wonderful, ahhh Mirko and his mother smiles the same way, whenever Mirko or his mother smiles it looks like they heave stars in their eyes and their faces lights up like shining diamonds, they also have the same giggle hehehehe, it is beautiful and the most satisfying sight for me, just priceless. His father lights up when he sees me then he squishes my cheeks uhahahahaha Im like a doll!!! Ahhhhhh absolutely beautiful.
Everybody is wonderful..... I am so sorry for writing about my negative feelings in this piece but today was truly one of those days where life just wanted to throw every bad stone at me, I delt with all of them peacefully yet it was so uneccasary and confusing, it disturbed my spirit, but I feel better now. Thank you....
Allora now I will retreat and continue with my book....
baci baci
ciao...
(will write again soon)
.....it was the baptism of little Ludo, a very important baptism, the festivity was amazing, I played the piano it was beautiful, the piano is one of the most beautiful instruments for me in the world. The music produced from a piano gives me goosebumps ohhhhh WOW I want to play it. The church where the baptism was held in was incredible, ohhhh my goodness, I have met a Mini Duomo hehehehe ahhhhh it was amazing.
To be honest I have not been writing, my energy feels low because I think I need a hug or something pfff...... love is normally my inspiration, (Love for me is clarity, sweetness, kindness, fun, joy happiness yes and many other different forms) right now I feel a little bit loveless.
Sigh its just me perhaps or its just in my mind, remember I am a woman and it is important to understand that women have more mixed emotions than men.
These feelings shall pass soon do not worry. I have also my own things I need to think about my own worries and fears, right now I need to pause and think clearly but it feels like I cannot, it feels like I just want to find some GENI somewhere rub his lamp and have all the unnecessary obstacles which are my own worries (which are little things) removed so that I can focus on more important things, bigger things like my book, like helping people. uffff.
Allora I do apologize (sigh). l am still very grateful though, yet I realized that I am really strange, nothing about my life is normal it is like it is magical, truly, it is true I sat and I thought about these past 4 months and it has not been a normal situation, but as I sat and thought I became frightened because I don't know what is going to happen. Then whenever I feel the feelings of fear the song "QUE SERA SERA" suddenly plays in my mind and then I feel a little bit better.
Right now I just feel like breathing and taking one second at a time. (Sigh) someone took my Africans in the little garden and Gloria is rude to me, bossing me around again, she has been doing the same to poor Ialene, shame the poor girl confides in me so may times about her own past experiences and that's why she is so extremely quiet, she doesn't know how to speak up she needs a boost of courage and confidence, Ialene has a really beautiful heart and spirit she is still so naive ahhh shame. I don't really feel like smiling writing or doing anything when people are rude to me, my mind switches off, its like my brain thought itself to protect itself from any negativity...... there is no need to be rude to me, I am always the same, people assume thats where things go wrong, assumption is the mother of all evil. I also miss playing calcio in the park with the kids I don't know why we are not going anymore, I miss spending time with All Puccino, I don't even see him, it makes me sad and I have not been coming to Ronchi78. I feel like I write best when I write in Ronchi.
ohhhh dear I have to tell you, I met Giacomo's little babies ohhhh they are just so beautiful!!!!!
Yes I do love Ronci78 and everyone WoHoooooo, Everybody should come to Ronchi78 it is peaceful and wonderful the festivity is incredible and the atmosphere just revitalizing, it is like heaven on earth. Mirko's parents are also wonderful, ahhh Mirko and his mother smiles the same way, whenever Mirko or his mother smiles it looks like they heave stars in their eyes and their faces lights up like shining diamonds, they also have the same giggle hehehehe, it is beautiful and the most satisfying sight for me, just priceless. His father lights up when he sees me then he squishes my cheeks uhahahahaha Im like a doll!!! Ahhhhhh absolutely beautiful.
Everybody is wonderful..... I am so sorry for writing about my negative feelings in this piece but today was truly one of those days where life just wanted to throw every bad stone at me, I delt with all of them peacefully yet it was so uneccasary and confusing, it disturbed my spirit, but I feel better now. Thank you....
Allora now I will retreat and continue with my book....
baci baci
ciao...
(will write again soon)
martedì 22 marzo 2011
You're the Inspiration Lyrics
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martedì 15 marzo 2011
Roxette DANGEROUS+Lyrics
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Preface of my book.....
Preface
This book has been inside of me for about two years just wanting to be written and published and I can remember that I had so many doubts at first. I constantly started to write and then I stopped, wondering, pondering, deleting then lost all hope and confidence all the time.
We all have dreams we want to acchieve and it is true that we fear acchieving our dreams, we lack confidence, we think that we are not good enough and then just settle for second best, we end up sad then as we continue our daily lives, we then feel empty inside because we keep on sitting and wondering "What if?".
When I was a very young girl of about 5 years old I always sat and wondered when I saw very old people with sad faces. I one day asked my father why some old people have happy wrinkles and why some of them have sad wrinkles. I remember him telling me that it is because the happy wrinkle faced people followed their hearts, even though faced with fear they acchieved their dreams and have no regrets. The sad wrinkle faced people chose to let fear rule their lives and they sit daily asking themselves "What if?", they sit in regret.
I promised myself that when I grow old I want to have a happy wrinkled face and not a sad wrinkled face. I promised myself aswell that when I leave this planet I will leave my footsteps behind of good deeds. I love people worldwide and helping people is a passion for me. To be able to contribute to anothers life is so priceless because people always remember that miracle, that kind person, that passer by that helped without asking in return.
I pondered about this book, I worried if I was capable and smart enough to write this book. I decided that the vocabulary is not really that important, what is important is the information I provide to all of you readers, combined with my personality of coarse.
This book is about health. It is about healing in the body, the mind, the emotions and then the spirit combined with the law of attraction then of coarse examples from my past experiences. I truly hope and believe that this book can add valuable information to your life so that you as reader can grow, can live a full life, that you as reader can smile and be happy every day no matter what.
Now to be completely honest, I love books but I normally start reading a book on the first Chapter because I really do not normally find prefaces all that interesting, so this preface I am keeping short but before I take you into my journey I must say thank you first.....
I firstly want to thank God, Christ and Spirit and all the angels for helping me and being with me all my life as well sending me this heavenly idea to write this book, "God without You I am nothing and with You all is possible, Thank you and I love you."
Secondly I want to thank Mirko Paletti, Giacomo Bertacchi, Ronchi78 in Milan Italy, the whole Ronchi family, Paletti family, the band Inland Sea and the famous football team for embracing me, for showing me so much love and kindness, for giving me confidence in myself to complete this book. I love you all with all my heart and I have never been happier in my life.
Lastly I want to thank you as the reader for reading this book, for your own personal growth and your own healing process. I always say that everything starts with yourself. I truly appreciate that you as reader made a conscious decision to grow more in all areas of your life, I want to thank you for loving yourself.
Alright Alright enough, let us smile, let us breathe and start with Chapter one.
Amore Sempre.
This book has been inside of me for about two years just wanting to be written and published and I can remember that I had so many doubts at first. I constantly started to write and then I stopped, wondering, pondering, deleting then lost all hope and confidence all the time.
We all have dreams we want to acchieve and it is true that we fear acchieving our dreams, we lack confidence, we think that we are not good enough and then just settle for second best, we end up sad then as we continue our daily lives, we then feel empty inside because we keep on sitting and wondering "What if?".
When I was a very young girl of about 5 years old I always sat and wondered when I saw very old people with sad faces. I one day asked my father why some old people have happy wrinkles and why some of them have sad wrinkles. I remember him telling me that it is because the happy wrinkle faced people followed their hearts, even though faced with fear they acchieved their dreams and have no regrets. The sad wrinkle faced people chose to let fear rule their lives and they sit daily asking themselves "What if?", they sit in regret.
I promised myself that when I grow old I want to have a happy wrinkled face and not a sad wrinkled face. I promised myself aswell that when I leave this planet I will leave my footsteps behind of good deeds. I love people worldwide and helping people is a passion for me. To be able to contribute to anothers life is so priceless because people always remember that miracle, that kind person, that passer by that helped without asking in return.
I pondered about this book, I worried if I was capable and smart enough to write this book. I decided that the vocabulary is not really that important, what is important is the information I provide to all of you readers, combined with my personality of coarse.
This book is about health. It is about healing in the body, the mind, the emotions and then the spirit combined with the law of attraction then of coarse examples from my past experiences. I truly hope and believe that this book can add valuable information to your life so that you as reader can grow, can live a full life, that you as reader can smile and be happy every day no matter what.
Now to be completely honest, I love books but I normally start reading a book on the first Chapter because I really do not normally find prefaces all that interesting, so this preface I am keeping short but before I take you into my journey I must say thank you first.....
I firstly want to thank God, Christ and Spirit and all the angels for helping me and being with me all my life as well sending me this heavenly idea to write this book, "God without You I am nothing and with You all is possible, Thank you and I love you."
Secondly I want to thank Mirko Paletti, Giacomo Bertacchi, Ronchi78 in Milan Italy, the whole Ronchi family, Paletti family, the band Inland Sea and the famous football team for embracing me, for showing me so much love and kindness, for giving me confidence in myself to complete this book. I love you all with all my heart and I have never been happier in my life.
Lastly I want to thank you as the reader for reading this book, for your own personal growth and your own healing process. I always say that everything starts with yourself. I truly appreciate that you as reader made a conscious decision to grow more in all areas of your life, I want to thank you for loving yourself.
Alright Alright enough, let us smile, let us breathe and start with Chapter one.
Amore Sempre.
domenica 13 marzo 2011
Boney M. "Daddy Cool" (Sopot 79)
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Boney M."We Kill The World" ("Don't Kill the World")
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giovedì 10 marzo 2011
Festa Della Donna.....
Ohhhhh WoHoooooo Fiesta della Donna was wonderful, it was My first Fiesta Della Donna qua in Milano. It was amzing!!!!!!
Well My amazing and your amzing will differ because perhaps your amazing will include a breakfast in bed, a massage at a day SPA a precious heart felt gift, ok well that is amazing for me tooooooo no woman will refuse that but for me just a Surprise presence was enough which started in the morning........ I felt hipnotised and shy, bedazzled and surprised all at once but did not show it, I did not know what to do actually.... It was a big Surprise hello I was really happy.
You know when you meet someone and you really like them but you dont know how to approach them so you wish and pray they will just read your mind and grab you like a monkey kiss you .............. Then afterwards when the ice was finally broken you can talk, pfffff thats how I feel sometimes but because I am a woman similar to an early in the morning CAR in the middle of winter, one needs to get heated first to get turned on to be driven properly and we women only get heated with romance and feeling special in the beginning...... then afterwards the poor man has no more VA VA VOOM left to give to a VU VU ZELA which evident by the World Cup Soccer last Year can keep going.... Uhahahahaha, hehehehehehe (blush) joking joking.... Im so happy I am not a guy, if I could I would buy all male spiecies apology gifts just to say sorry that we women Are so complicated.
Allora, so I had a Surprise morning bedazzle then I went to Castello Park to write..... Later in the evening I went to Ronchi78 again and played with some pictures while everybody was tranquil. There were many festa della donna flowers on the tables provided by Ronchi for the Donna's and there were Yellow balloons outside the door, ohhh it was beautiful.
Once again in My little corner I was so happy, pleased and content just looking at the football team having fun, ohhh It was magical.
Afterwards while Ronchi closed ahhh I had fun, lets call these two boys Nimples and Dimples we left Ronchi hehehehehehehehe Nimples and Dimples took the rest of the donna flowers to sell with the balloons as a joke uhahahahahaha, boys will be boys sempre. I asked if I could join them and they told me no because I am a woman that is the first and only rule that no women Are allowed to sell flowers with them on donna day.... I was not sad, I was happy because Nimples and Dimples even though very serious men were like two mischievous boys wanting to have some innocent fun. How can one be sad for another's happiness?
When you love people or care for them you will do anything for them help them in any way and always want to see them happy with a smile, sigh....
Nimples and Dimples (smiling secretly to myself) I hope they had fun.....
Ahhhh sigh, so yes for me it was a beautiful fiesta Della Donna yesterday....
It was a priceless memory I once again collected into My heart and engraved into My spirit....
I hope everybodies day yesterday was magical too and I wish you a beautiful day today......
Amore Sempre
Well My amazing and your amzing will differ because perhaps your amazing will include a breakfast in bed, a massage at a day SPA a precious heart felt gift, ok well that is amazing for me tooooooo no woman will refuse that but for me just a Surprise presence was enough which started in the morning........ I felt hipnotised and shy, bedazzled and surprised all at once but did not show it, I did not know what to do actually.... It was a big Surprise hello I was really happy.
You know when you meet someone and you really like them but you dont know how to approach them so you wish and pray they will just read your mind and grab you like a monkey kiss you .............. Then afterwards when the ice was finally broken you can talk, pfffff thats how I feel sometimes but because I am a woman similar to an early in the morning CAR in the middle of winter, one needs to get heated first to get turned on to be driven properly and we women only get heated with romance and feeling special in the beginning...... then afterwards the poor man has no more VA VA VOOM left to give to a VU VU ZELA which evident by the World Cup Soccer last Year can keep going.... Uhahahahaha, hehehehehehe (blush) joking joking.... Im so happy I am not a guy, if I could I would buy all male spiecies apology gifts just to say sorry that we women Are so complicated.
Allora, so I had a Surprise morning bedazzle then I went to Castello Park to write..... Later in the evening I went to Ronchi78 again and played with some pictures while everybody was tranquil. There were many festa della donna flowers on the tables provided by Ronchi for the Donna's and there were Yellow balloons outside the door, ohhh it was beautiful.
Once again in My little corner I was so happy, pleased and content just looking at the football team having fun, ohhh It was magical.
Afterwards while Ronchi closed ahhh I had fun, lets call these two boys Nimples and Dimples we left Ronchi hehehehehehehehe Nimples and Dimples took the rest of the donna flowers to sell with the balloons as a joke uhahahahahaha, boys will be boys sempre. I asked if I could join them and they told me no because I am a woman that is the first and only rule that no women Are allowed to sell flowers with them on donna day.... I was not sad, I was happy because Nimples and Dimples even though very serious men were like two mischievous boys wanting to have some innocent fun. How can one be sad for another's happiness?
When you love people or care for them you will do anything for them help them in any way and always want to see them happy with a smile, sigh....
Nimples and Dimples (smiling secretly to myself) I hope they had fun.....
Ahhhh sigh, so yes for me it was a beautiful fiesta Della Donna yesterday....
It was a priceless memory I once again collected into My heart and engraved into My spirit....
I hope everybodies day yesterday was magical too and I wish you a beautiful day today......
Amore Sempre
mercoledì 9 marzo 2011
martedì 8 marzo 2011
Memory lane 2
Many things have been going through my mind since Sunday evening, my feelings were hurt badly but I am alright I guess, My own fault pffff.
I am sitting looking at walnuts and my thoughts drifted down memory lane..... Suddenly I found myself thinking about my father... He passed away many years ago but I still feel him close most times...
About a week ago I shared a photo of my parents with a close friend of mine who is very dear to My heart and means the world to me. I do not easily share my past with anyone, my past was very dark, difficult and painful and I choose to only shine light, give love, laughter and joy to the world now and in my future. I must add that even though I had many trails in my past , I would not change one day in my past because it has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of myself.
I can remember just after my concert My brother and I went to visit my Grandfather in Kwazlu Natal, Margate (100km from Durban) where he lived. We went to visit him every school holiday with my parents actually but that particular school holiday my parents could not go, my father just bought a new business for my mother and obviously with everything else with the new business they had to stay and work.
Ahhh Margate, always green and tropical, the house was a walk away from the beach but my favorite beach was Uvongo beach, it had a waterfall with a lagoon that flew into the sea, beautiful!!! We normally swam to the waterfall to sit under the waterfall ohh It was Devine. Normally we woke up at 6am to be at the beach at 7am and spend all day at the beach. I've always been a beach baby, I saw a picture of myself 2 years ago when I was 1 year old, I had only one pink g-string on running full speed towards the sea and my father behind me trying to catch me because I was told when they looked away for a second I was up running to the waves, hehehehe I kept them fit.
The evening before the second of October we were all having a barbaque with my grandfather and I saw the monkeys on the telephone lines walking to sit on the roof of the the lower section part of the house that was the maids quarters. The monkeys came because they were hoping for fruit but we were forbidden to feed them because when you first start to feed them, they come in and reck the house when you are not there.
So I was looking at the papa monkey, and whoops there he was licking his backside displaying his crown jewels very openly to the planet, uhahahahahaha, I was staring at this monkey's private parts because it was shocking blue, you couldnt miss these large shocking blue big balls, then while I was staring, this shocking pink thing emerged out from these shocking blue balls and I was really amused........I was hipnotised actually, the colours of those private parts were unbelievable It probably glows in the dark too?
My attention was then braught back to earth when my name was called to speak to my father on the telephone.
My father called the landline that night because he wanted to speak to everybody and as soon as I picked up the telephone to speak to him I told him all about the monkey's balls, he listened and laughed himself silly as I was passionately explaining the colours, how the monkey sat etc. While I was babbeling to him he suddenly just said loudly over the phone but gently with excitement and pride "Ek is lief vir jou My pop", translated "I love you my little doll".
I smiled broadly because I was surprised, ahhhh I love surprises, so I told him I loved him very much back, (soft loving smile).
My relationship with My father were not normal, I listened to him, respected him but he was My best friend too. We spent all our time together and he loved me more than anything on the planet, he was My hero too, we swam together always, played bee bee guns, went fishing every weekend, built go-carts in the back, another section on the house that was stocked with sleaper wood to build things, hehehehehe when My mother tried to get me to do the salon thing Mama Mia I was annoyed, My mind always drifted towards where My dad was. ohhh Sundays were Formula 1 day watching Micheal Shoemacher as he raced and won and we went offroad driving always... It was super fun, ohhh I love speed, adrenalin rush!!!
October the 2nd 1997, we awoke early to go to Uvongo Beach, we were there at 7am, the water was still low tide so I was playing in the little stream that flew from the waterfall into the sea. My brother joined me and told me that we must pretend to be still crocodiles so we both just layed in the little stream pretending to be still crocodiles hehehehehe, about 08:10 am My grandfather came walking towards where the grown-ups were sitting, I was confused because My grandfather was dressed in his suit and looked puzzled, when he saw myself and My brother he called My brother to go to him at once... I was really confused because once My brother reached everybody he was told some news and started to scream. My grandfather then patted him on his back hard and I thought that My brother was such a baby, yes he was sunburnt a bit but he did not have to act like a Crazy person.
So I twirled around in the water now pretending to be a happy syncronised swimming crocodile then suddenly I noticed everybody was crying and not just My brother. WOOAH, it was strange to me and remember clearly that I was wondering why everybody was crying over my brothers sunburn?
I ran to where everybody was standing and crying, but they all turned their backs on me, avoiding me, I was getting more nervous by the second and started to yell at the top of My trought "WHAT HAPPENED!!!!?", My stepgrandmother then looked at me and told me "your father died." , I can remember everybody turning towards me in horror, everything went quiet and felt slowmotion because It felt like somebody took a thick blunt spear and pressed it straight through My chest that crushed My heart, then another that went staight through my stomach. The pain and shock was so great within me, all that came from My Lips were a deadly loud scream, it sounded like I was being tortured to death slowly and then My knees collapsed underneath me. I was laying remembering people hovering over me, looking backwards seeing as My brother was trying to run, to where, I dont know?
We were taken to the doctor immedietly to get injections to calm down and afterwards I just layed staring a the walls, not moving, not making a sound, just lifeless eyes.
I was in denial for a long time, the funeral was the worst, when the coffin sunk into the ground they had to sustain me because I wanted to jump into the hole to go with. I was in denial for 4 years after My father's death, I could not accept it at all. I was dead inside, I was alone.
Yes it was tragic but I pulled through being a good person, remembering what he had thought me, remembering the solid and good morals as well as values of life, the unconditional pure love he thought me. I was blessed to have had him even if it was only for nine years... He was a really good man, father and husband dont forget son.
People do not understand me, time spent with someone you love or care about for me is priceless because I have lost everything already and all that kept me going was the memories and the desire to make new happy memories one day. Happy memories are the most precious gifts in life for me.
We all have trails we go through but remember that the hard Times Are there for a reason. What does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nobody's lives Are perfect, we all have had pain, we have all felt rejected, broken down, humiliated, sad, angry but look around you, if you still have your health and you Are still breathing then you have Made it untill now, you have gone through so much and you Are still standing tall, you Are fantastic, so be proud of yourself and let the past in the past.
WoW sorry for writing sooooooo much...
I wish you all a beautiful day and smile!
Amore Sempre
I am sitting looking at walnuts and my thoughts drifted down memory lane..... Suddenly I found myself thinking about my father... He passed away many years ago but I still feel him close most times...
About a week ago I shared a photo of my parents with a close friend of mine who is very dear to My heart and means the world to me. I do not easily share my past with anyone, my past was very dark, difficult and painful and I choose to only shine light, give love, laughter and joy to the world now and in my future. I must add that even though I had many trails in my past , I would not change one day in my past because it has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of myself.
I can remember just after my concert My brother and I went to visit my Grandfather in Kwazlu Natal, Margate (100km from Durban) where he lived. We went to visit him every school holiday with my parents actually but that particular school holiday my parents could not go, my father just bought a new business for my mother and obviously with everything else with the new business they had to stay and work.
Ahhh Margate, always green and tropical, the house was a walk away from the beach but my favorite beach was Uvongo beach, it had a waterfall with a lagoon that flew into the sea, beautiful!!! We normally swam to the waterfall to sit under the waterfall ohh It was Devine. Normally we woke up at 6am to be at the beach at 7am and spend all day at the beach. I've always been a beach baby, I saw a picture of myself 2 years ago when I was 1 year old, I had only one pink g-string on running full speed towards the sea and my father behind me trying to catch me because I was told when they looked away for a second I was up running to the waves, hehehehe I kept them fit.
The evening before the second of October we were all having a barbaque with my grandfather and I saw the monkeys on the telephone lines walking to sit on the roof of the the lower section part of the house that was the maids quarters. The monkeys came because they were hoping for fruit but we were forbidden to feed them because when you first start to feed them, they come in and reck the house when you are not there.
So I was looking at the papa monkey, and whoops there he was licking his backside displaying his crown jewels very openly to the planet, uhahahahahaha, I was staring at this monkey's private parts because it was shocking blue, you couldnt miss these large shocking blue big balls, then while I was staring, this shocking pink thing emerged out from these shocking blue balls and I was really amused........I was hipnotised actually, the colours of those private parts were unbelievable It probably glows in the dark too?
My attention was then braught back to earth when my name was called to speak to my father on the telephone.
My father called the landline that night because he wanted to speak to everybody and as soon as I picked up the telephone to speak to him I told him all about the monkey's balls, he listened and laughed himself silly as I was passionately explaining the colours, how the monkey sat etc. While I was babbeling to him he suddenly just said loudly over the phone but gently with excitement and pride "Ek is lief vir jou My pop", translated "I love you my little doll".
I smiled broadly because I was surprised, ahhhh I love surprises, so I told him I loved him very much back, (soft loving smile).
My relationship with My father were not normal, I listened to him, respected him but he was My best friend too. We spent all our time together and he loved me more than anything on the planet, he was My hero too, we swam together always, played bee bee guns, went fishing every weekend, built go-carts in the back, another section on the house that was stocked with sleaper wood to build things, hehehehehe when My mother tried to get me to do the salon thing Mama Mia I was annoyed, My mind always drifted towards where My dad was. ohhh Sundays were Formula 1 day watching Micheal Shoemacher as he raced and won and we went offroad driving always... It was super fun, ohhh I love speed, adrenalin rush!!!
October the 2nd 1997, we awoke early to go to Uvongo Beach, we were there at 7am, the water was still low tide so I was playing in the little stream that flew from the waterfall into the sea. My brother joined me and told me that we must pretend to be still crocodiles so we both just layed in the little stream pretending to be still crocodiles hehehehehe, about 08:10 am My grandfather came walking towards where the grown-ups were sitting, I was confused because My grandfather was dressed in his suit and looked puzzled, when he saw myself and My brother he called My brother to go to him at once... I was really confused because once My brother reached everybody he was told some news and started to scream. My grandfather then patted him on his back hard and I thought that My brother was such a baby, yes he was sunburnt a bit but he did not have to act like a Crazy person.
So I twirled around in the water now pretending to be a happy syncronised swimming crocodile then suddenly I noticed everybody was crying and not just My brother. WOOAH, it was strange to me and remember clearly that I was wondering why everybody was crying over my brothers sunburn?
I ran to where everybody was standing and crying, but they all turned their backs on me, avoiding me, I was getting more nervous by the second and started to yell at the top of My trought "WHAT HAPPENED!!!!?", My stepgrandmother then looked at me and told me "your father died." , I can remember everybody turning towards me in horror, everything went quiet and felt slowmotion because It felt like somebody took a thick blunt spear and pressed it straight through My chest that crushed My heart, then another that went staight through my stomach. The pain and shock was so great within me, all that came from My Lips were a deadly loud scream, it sounded like I was being tortured to death slowly and then My knees collapsed underneath me. I was laying remembering people hovering over me, looking backwards seeing as My brother was trying to run, to where, I dont know?
We were taken to the doctor immedietly to get injections to calm down and afterwards I just layed staring a the walls, not moving, not making a sound, just lifeless eyes.
I was in denial for a long time, the funeral was the worst, when the coffin sunk into the ground they had to sustain me because I wanted to jump into the hole to go with. I was in denial for 4 years after My father's death, I could not accept it at all. I was dead inside, I was alone.
Yes it was tragic but I pulled through being a good person, remembering what he had thought me, remembering the solid and good morals as well as values of life, the unconditional pure love he thought me. I was blessed to have had him even if it was only for nine years... He was a really good man, father and husband dont forget son.
People do not understand me, time spent with someone you love or care about for me is priceless because I have lost everything already and all that kept me going was the memories and the desire to make new happy memories one day. Happy memories are the most precious gifts in life for me.
We all have trails we go through but remember that the hard Times Are there for a reason. What does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nobody's lives Are perfect, we all have had pain, we have all felt rejected, broken down, humiliated, sad, angry but look around you, if you still have your health and you Are still breathing then you have Made it untill now, you have gone through so much and you Are still standing tall, you Are fantastic, so be proud of yourself and let the past in the past.
WoW sorry for writing sooooooo much...
I wish you all a beautiful day and smile!
Amore Sempre
martedì 1 marzo 2011
Paolo Pilo
Paolo ahhhh Paolo, the funny English speaking Italian man, also always serious but has a good heart you can see, he has had his challenges in life and overcame them, he has a very strong spirit and very brave because he follows his heart and passions come what may.
Paolo made me fall in love with Ronchi78, he was the musician that was playing that beautiful magical evening, I was sitting upstairs trying to decide what my purpose in Milan was, I still don't know, hehehehehe then I heard music and my spirit flew to the stairs where I stood seeing all the beautiful Italian people having such a big Feast, singing with Paolo, dancing, dancing on the table oh my dear it was such a powerful strong love emotion that spread right through my body and my heart was stolen by Ronchi78 on the steps, not by Paolo, hehehehehehe sorry Poalo, no with the beautiful happy faces just enjoying life, enjoying that moment, celebrating life to me ohhh wow seeing so much happiness at once I just fell in love.......
In the beginning Paolo did not speak to me, but when he actually started to speak to me I was surprised at how well he spoke English, it was impressive and he has always been sarcastic but very sincere.
The one evening I was sitting in Ronchi78 and I spoke to Poalo asking him one million questions, heheheheh, he just answered truthfully but told me something private that truly made me respect him in so many ways, like I said he has had his challenges I am very very proud of him.
At the Inland Sea concert I met his beautiful wife and his little daughter I was surprised because I assumed that he was a lone walking musician, those tranquil one's that just has the quitar on the back and moves around, hehehe.. he is awesome..... not just about Poalo's character but also his music, he is really such an excellent performer, he is downstairs now playing "Hey Jude" its wonderful!!!!
Paolo Pilo is really a very good performer, he is part of the Ronchi78 family so of coarse he gets some biscotti and some chocolates with a lot of smiles and applauds from me....
Where can you buy this brilliant musician's CD..... hmmmm well from a man called Giacomo at Ronchi78 so you really have to come visit Ronchi78, online I believe you can buy it on ITUNES or for more information you can follow these links:
http://www.palbertmusic.com
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Palbert-Music/180603769020?v=wall
Ohh dear, It is wonderful, Paolo is an EXCELLENT Performer so please I suggest you buy his CD because you will not regret it, it will inspire you, you will fall in love you will smile always and another day.
I will write again soon....
Tanti Baci
Amore Sempre
Paolo made me fall in love with Ronchi78, he was the musician that was playing that beautiful magical evening, I was sitting upstairs trying to decide what my purpose in Milan was, I still don't know, hehehehehe then I heard music and my spirit flew to the stairs where I stood seeing all the beautiful Italian people having such a big Feast, singing with Paolo, dancing, dancing on the table oh my dear it was such a powerful strong love emotion that spread right through my body and my heart was stolen by Ronchi78 on the steps, not by Paolo, hehehehehehe sorry Poalo, no with the beautiful happy faces just enjoying life, enjoying that moment, celebrating life to me ohhh wow seeing so much happiness at once I just fell in love.......
In the beginning Paolo did not speak to me, but when he actually started to speak to me I was surprised at how well he spoke English, it was impressive and he has always been sarcastic but very sincere.
The one evening I was sitting in Ronchi78 and I spoke to Poalo asking him one million questions, heheheheh, he just answered truthfully but told me something private that truly made me respect him in so many ways, like I said he has had his challenges I am very very proud of him.
At the Inland Sea concert I met his beautiful wife and his little daughter I was surprised because I assumed that he was a lone walking musician, those tranquil one's that just has the quitar on the back and moves around, hehehe.. he is awesome..... not just about Poalo's character but also his music, he is really such an excellent performer, he is downstairs now playing "Hey Jude" its wonderful!!!!
Paolo Pilo is really a very good performer, he is part of the Ronchi78 family so of coarse he gets some biscotti and some chocolates with a lot of smiles and applauds from me....
Where can you buy this brilliant musician's CD..... hmmmm well from a man called Giacomo at Ronchi78 so you really have to come visit Ronchi78, online I believe you can buy it on ITUNES or for more information you can follow these links:
http://www.palbertmusic.com
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Palbert-Music/180603769020?v=wall
Ohh dear, It is wonderful, Paolo is an EXCELLENT Performer so please I suggest you buy his CD because you will not regret it, it will inspire you, you will fall in love you will smile always and another day.
I will write again soon....
Tanti Baci
Amore Sempre
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