Ronchi78

sabato 31 dicembre 2011

ABBA-HAPPY NEW YEAR

venerdì 23 dicembre 2011

Little Angels

I have not written on this blog for a while because I have been busy with other projects but sitting here this morning my thoughts are consumed with past memories that lingers still fresh in my mind as if I am living in the moment.
Beautiful memories arose again this morning about my heart and the place I have found nothing except love and home but who I am thinking about this morning are little angels that touched my heart.
About a year ago I was looking for Pokemon because Pierre told me he wanted Pokemon and Edo told me he wanted Red Power Ranger, mama mia, what a mission.... Running around Milan trying to find these characters was not easy.
Pierre has one side of his fathers personality and Edo another, Pierre is very sophisticated and serious but given time his fun side shines through with a very adorable side grin ehehehe, ACMilan crazy and really just the sweetest child ever.
Edo is an extrovert, really flashy and out there, can talk for hours, wants to give presents all the time and loves his perfumes as well as looking good. Edo called me "bad girl" all the time for a while and I could not understand what he was on about, the one day a Barbie advert came on on SKY and Edo pointed to the television saying again "Marilette, bad girl", I laughed out loud finally understanding what he ment. The most fun we had was playing with a balloon, "bomba" a game I still can't figure out, ahhhh at night before their father came home they would get so excited when the bell rings, when their father enter they pretend not to care or show their excitement, it's a male reaction but it still happens every night.

Ludo loves the IPad, his determination to get to it made him crawl and he loves cars. Ludo has good taste too, from his little young age he likes beautiful things.

Last year from beginning of December up until new years Eve was just beautiful and magical, decorating Ronchi, hunting down Pokemon, having Christmas and New years.... There is no replacement and no money can buy these precious memories or replace anybody, it was priceless.

I do miss everybody with my whole heart and as I said to Mario once, things are replaceable, homes can be great and beautiful but without the ones we care for most, everything we have has no real value to us.

I wish you all a beautiful Christmas and a beautiful new year.

Tanti baci e amore Sempre

Smile Always

domenica 18 dicembre 2011

Decorazione ehehehe Grazie!!!!!

Si prega di una foto dell'albero di Natale con le mie palle belle (my beautiful balls, hihi) ahhhh il mio cuore è troppo felice, lo apprezzo veramente!!!!! Grazie Mille il mio cuore!!!!! YeeeeeeeHaaaaa!!!!! <3

Decorazione :-D

Guarda le decorazioni di Natale, ahhhh mio cuore è così felice ora!!! WoHooooooo Grazie Mille :-D

domenica 27 novembre 2011

Running With Angels Preface

Most of us has read many books to live a happier and healthier life. We read the books on the law of attraction, we go to book stores strolling though the mind, body, psychology and abundance sections to gather and absorb information to be healthier either physically, emotionally, mentally, financially as well as spiritually.

We ask ourselves "how can I attain a healthier lifestyle?" , "how can I be wealthier?" "how can I be more spiritual?" and I can keep on writing these questions because I myself as well as many others like you, researchers, writers, activists, scientists as well as presidents have asked themselves the same questions once upon a time and still today.

I was about 9 years of age just after my first traumatising experience when suddenly had to say goodbye to my father after he had a heart attack and passed away. I can remember that my mother was advised to send myself as well as my brother to a psychologist to help us work through our pain, shock, denial as well as grief and that is where my first interest in psychology started. From the age of nine years old throughout ally experiences, learning experiences, traumatising experiences and journeys I always did more research, reading and study of the mind.

When I graduated High School I enrolled to study psychology to further my studies on the mind. I loved every book, every piece of information that I read and studied, I firmly believed in the power of the mind.
It was my second year with a psychological mentor that made me want to quit because even though I firmly believed in the power of the mind, I also believed in a higher power and I was not willing to compromise my personal beliefs for any career, dream or hobby.

I then met another mentor, a wonderful old woman, she has a doctors degree in psychology and she thought me about healing with angels and energies combined with psychology. My heart made a 360 degree loop inside of my soul as this new mentor of mine shared her knowledge as well as wisdom with me.
My hopes for my healing future was restored and all of my studies as well as interests took a while new change in direction, the direction of spiritual, mental as well as emotional health.

After a while I pondered a little more about all of these concepts , my angelic mentor had a way of healing patients that intrigued me, she worked with the blood group diet, explaining to me that in order for true mental, emotional and spiritual healing to take affect, one must first physically heal meaning that our bodies and minds must be pure, clean and healthy. There is a saying that " a healthy body equals a healthy mind " and that is absolutely true.

Sit and think about it for a moment, you only consume healthy foods and beverages, you inhale only fresh air, you are committed to your excersise routine and you get enough sleep every night, your physical body is healthy and so all these good and positive love and care you give to your body meaning healthy food, that is absorbed into your blood stream and also flows to and from your mind, your healthy excersise routine which means increased healthy oxygen absorbed into your lungs to your heart which is processed into your blood stream that also flows to and from your brain and then the proper amount of sleep you also get, which means you allow your mind to switch off to process all your daily activities, information to organise, store and to prepare yourself for a brand new day.
All of these good, loving and physically healthy steps helps your brain to be at it's best function for you as humanly possible.

When our bodies are healthy our minds are healthy and we can make healthy choices, decisions also attain spiritual health and truly live the law of attraction. When we are healthy it is easier to be positive, we think more positive so then we will attract the positive.

This book is about health in four areas of our lives, the physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and then the law of attraction.

Everybody wants to be happy and we normally look at healthy, wealthy, successful and happy families thinking "WoW, they are so blessed, I wish I could be more like them", we look at activists and wonder how all these people have so many blessings with only faith. We try to practice the law of attraction but give up after two weeks because there is so much health in our lives still lacking, your mind is not healthy, well rested and you do not even realise that you are thinking more negative than positive.

In this book I will explain to you from basic physical health for your blood group, attaining mental as well as emotional health, introducing spiritual health and then the law of attraction for you as reader to apply this to your life to have a happier and healthier future.

Remember that nobody is perfect and that any type of healing is a steady process so be kind to yourself, take time on healing and know just by trying your best as individual, that you will be successful.

sabato 16 luglio 2011

Plans.... Thoughts... etc.

So I have only been back here for 3 weeks, its been fun and strange, Ive been doing all crazy things, fun things but what what caught my attention most was investing.

I felt business oriented for the past few weeks and have been attending these business meetings at night. Talking business with other business people turns me on and I never realised that before so my energy has been fired up and I am very optomistic about any future projects I will be taking on.

What is true and what I love about any investment information is that in life you get several different types of people, you get people that works as an employee, then you get the business owner, then you get a company owner, and then you get the investor. The true Billionares in this world are the risk takers, well thats true, normally you will call us crazy but actually we just take use risks. So Ive been interested more in the bulls and the bears, Donald Trump and also reading many business related books.

Yes Im in my element again and just love life and enjoy having fun while taking on new projects not just business, not just completing my book  but also helping the illiterate children teaching them how to read and to write, I love balancing out my life with spiritual work aswell. Its good to do charity work to boost ones faith and spirit. Helping people without expecting anything in return and also seeing a person happy is absolutely priceless.

At the moment there are once again many options, many things to take into concideration and also loads of planning. But for today I will enjoy entertaining guests and making people smile, relaxed and joyful.

I do wish you all a beautiful day where ever you are in the world and remember that knowledge is power.

I love you all have a beautiful Saturday and have fun because life is short.

Tanti baci e Amore Sempre

Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody

venerdì 15 luglio 2011

hmmmmmm..... what can I say

So.....

I was in France.... then I travelled back to Italy to Unite with my heart but what does one do when ones one heart does not want you anymore?

So I travelled back to South Africa, Im visiting my mother, her boyfriend died a week before, I arrived, luckily my mother met me at the airport in Johannesburg and after that she had to go collect her previous boyfriends ashes, then I was taken to my baby boy Gizmo Dogs doggy hospital, he could not be saved so he had to die too on the day of my arrival. The new place my mother was staying was interesting but not to my standards so I took controll and had changes made immedietly, Im actually still with my mother and decided that "oh well, its better to have a best friend than a mother" so we sorted out our own differences and we are singing Duets together. My mother sings better than me and she is absolutely gorgeous, well our birthdays are 3 days apart so we are exactly the same person, the only difference is is that she does not have all that much rythm and when we were in Yoga class together she couldnt put her legs between her head, uhahahahahaha, it was funny.

Yesterday we had a wonderful day together, I made her laugh so much she was crying and all her mascara came running off her face, uhahahahaha, I was laughing too. Luckily she took my advice and now everything is wonderful. phew, if I knew having a parent was this difficult I would have never gotten born.

The truth is, is that I still love and miss Ronchi78 so much it hurts, I miss Mirko, Giacomo, the boys, the families`, I am lost here. Im having fun but its not my heart. I am but existing in comfort but senza my heart. But what can I do, when my heart doest want me then hell I need to survive somewhere?

Here at the Northern farm I met a hippopottomus, I named her Sally, she has a child and husband too but I cannot bond with them, they are too dangerous. allora so I am now a proffesional tree climber and driving arround on Quad bikes all day, sit in the rocks in the middle of the river and listen to the water, its beautiful, but whenever I have an open moment, my thoughts go back to Milan and my families there. Its hurts., I love them so much. they have my heart forever.

Ok thats enough for now Im drinking wine.

Amore Sempre

Ciao

Daughtry - Life After You

martedì 7 giugno 2011

Animals.....

Allora, as I am sitting here thinking of beautiful thoughts that makes my body tingles, my thoughts suddenly changed to beutiful memories of animals.....

Ahhh the most innocent thoughts, the most joyful heavenly creations this planet inhibits....

I was thinking off all the animals I have had and cared for, most of all of them had identity crisises because they acted like children, I have never baught a pet in my life, somehow they just chose me and followed me around.

I can remember my little dog called Gizmo, he was a pikineze, I called him Gizmo after the cute gremlin on the film 'Gremlins'. I can remember the first sight of him, he was so tiny but too beautiful, when he saw me he jumped up and down, he was so happy to see me almost like he saw his long lost mother for the first time. He scared me a bit, he didnt want to leave me alone, the morning after my friends told me to take him home because he was depressed after I wanted to leave, he was sitting staring at me while I was sleeping, not licking my face to get up, no he was just sitting and staring deep into my face, when I woke up I had a shock because it was not normal animal behaviour. Ahhhh he loved going shopping for his toys, he loved having a bath, he insisted having his hair blown dry, he loved the wind and when he was on my lap or bed nobody could come close or enter, if that was the case he became an evil dangerous gremlyn, he was really over protective. Shame , as he grew older he would sit on my lap while I was getting ready for an event by my dressing table, he would look at me in the mirror then turn his head looking at me again, then he would look at himself, stare back at me with sad eyes almost as if asking me when he was going to look human like me. Ahhhh shame, it broke my heart but I was no fairy godmother or Gepetto.

My pigeon Noah, he was strange. I was peaceful doing work in my study and this pigeon just flew into my house. I was confused, so I tried to chase him back outside again with my broom, ehehehehe it must have looked rediculous, I spent two hours chasing this bird from room to room with my broom. eventually I said out load to the pigeon 'fine stay, but dont poohp anywhere', the pigeon then flew right over me and poophed on my head, uffff I was really upset. finally he left. The next morning he came back, I chased him around again with my broom and eventually decided just to leave him. As I was minding my own business and walking from and to other sections of the house he followed me, when I sat in the livingroom he would just stay there where I was. Very strange pigeon. Allora, so the bird flew out every night and returned every morning to see what I was doing. Eventually I got used to this bird, named him Noah and baught him food. uhahahahaha I remember the one day he came in with another pigeon, I think it was his girlfriend and it really looked like he wanted approval. All I said out loud to Noah was 'dont let her poohp on me or anywhere'. The next day Noah returned single.
Just before I flew to Italy I told Noah 'Noah, you must find another home, I will leave your food outside but you cannot enter the house', he 'krrrrred' back at me.

While I was in hotel Rio in Milan, I woke up one morning, my window was open and here came flying in Noah, he came to visit me in Italy, he was fatter, he probably hung around the tourists at the Duomo.
He finally found a family. He flew in sitting on the desk for a while then he flew around me and left. I never saw him again but I know that he is probably in Milan somewhere with his fellow pigeons and he probably fell in love with some Italian pigeon, probably got married on the Duomo steps and built himself a nest close to the Duomo in a tree. Strange bird.

My other animals well, larger animals I had a very close relationship with, looking after animals are not easy, its like looking after a child, a child that never grows up. I prefer keeping those memories to myself right now because I am still grieving. I dont want to start crying right now.

When you spend a large amount of time with animals you start to comunicate with them through feeling. Animals are very intelligent, the can see right through your soul, they can feel what type of person you are and they can feel your wants as well as needs. Sometimes when I felt sad or lonely my pet at the time would just surround me with kisses and fluffy hugs, joy as well as playfulness, if that didnt want to work the animal would adopt my mood and that drove me crazy, I prefer my animals happy, so if they feel sad I make a plan to make them happy even if it meant changing my own mood.

Animals are truly beautiful creations. To have a bond with an animal is a feeling that is fulfilling and priceless. No amount of money can buy the joy and happiness an animal brings to your life.

Ok thats me for now.....

Have a beautiful day

Amore Sempre


Air Supply - Making Love Out of Nothing At All

giovedì 2 giugno 2011

The Everly Brothers - All I Have To Do Is Dream (Shindig! 1964)

feelings of peacefulness,,,,

I feel very peaceful this evening, my surroundings might not be perfect but all my relationships are very harmanious, peaceful and friendly.

Throughout the first week in France I was frightened, ending took place to those very close to my heart and forced retreat but as I sat and pondered close to the ocean breeze, understanding emerged in my heart, clarity of my own feelings evolved and I could look deeper into my situations. Ahhh I love and miss everybody in Milan and Ronchi78, I even realised a greater understanding and love for Monkey man, no matter what they ever confess, what wrong or good they do towards myself or others, no high or low positions they may be in, I can never love them any less. They are my family, perhaps not in blood but much deeper. They are all beautiful people and always will be.

I love Milan and miss Milan, I love and miss the statues, the buildings and the calmnes and love the City embraces me with, the love and need for my activist deeds in Milan are devinely inspired and I pray that all homeless there has a place to sleep tonight.

Marseille is beautiful yet not safe enough for me walking around giving people gratitude stones, warm blankets or any encouragement. Yet I could take time to reflect upon myself close to the healing effects of the ocean to look deeper into my own heart and for my own personal growth. 

As I was reflecting upon what has been and happened I worked and healed through the confusion and different emotions, peacefulnes arose in me once again.

We can plan our lives and futures yet how do we forsee, plan or control miracles, I tried once upon a time to be in control, to plan every step and I was only stressed, I believed that I needed things and powerful positions to give me freedom, truth peacefulness and true love. 
I remeber trying harder every day, sleepless nights with the vision of being the most loved, powerful and succesful person, sometimes I was not kind to people, I did not pay attention to people, I judged people by appearance, wealth and status yet I was not happy inside. 
I remeber sitting the one day at the ocean, on the rocks looking at the large waves breaking and I started to pay close attention to the seagulls. Some seagulls were already satisfied with the black mussles they had consumed and new seagulls were extremely hungry. They picked the mussles from the rocks, flew it upwards and allowed it to fall, to break against the rocks and then eat, every single seagull had a different way, some that were full  just played around. That day I asked myself how much do I truly need because just looking and paying attention to the seagulls gave me more tranquility than  anything I had. I aked myself why I was trying to be perfect when I am only human and have mistakes, I asked myself why I was trying to please people and seem important to people I didntt even know, that has their own lives and that does not really care about me.

That is the day when I started my journey of finding myself, what I truly want, what I truly need and what truly makes me happy. We can have all yet things do not provide love, comfort, truth, peace, acceptance or understanding. 
What we want and need is already given to us, that is air, nature, friends and family.

 Sometimes one need to pause for a moment and realise what is truly important, that is is health, family and our true friends.

I cannot be dishonesst and tell someone I care about what they want to hear, I can only speak my truth, because with truth comes clarity, understanding and healing.

What you want or what you think you want and desrerve or believe is what you are living at this moment. Want the best for yourself as well as your loved ones, Want happiness, truth, clarity and peacefulnes and you will recieve it.

Life is actually very simple when you choose it to be. More will never be enough...

I wish you all a beautiful sleep with magical dreams....

My love always




giovedì 26 maggio 2011

a woman and her kitchen.....

I was wining and dining guests tonight, something part of me, something inside of myself I can never deny is my Kitchen and the nurishment coming from it.

Being a woman is not easy, we are beings more emotional and sensitive to our surroundings. You can tell who a woman is by entering her kitchen. Even though I am not close to my origanal kitchen, my warm and welcoming space  that is perfect,  I still do appreciate my kitchen here in France. Tonight I had the opportunity to cook a 4 course meal for guests, I started with an apperatif which were cold meats, gerkins, pickled onions, bread sticks and cream cheeses, then I prepared and served Tarrolinni pasta my own unique recipe because it was the first time I ever prepared this type of dish, it was perfect and I served it with a many different cheeses. Afrerwards I prepared sauteed wine steak with some salds for the second dish and a cream fruit cake for the dessert.

I love wining and dining people but what I enjoy most is preparing these dishes and seeing the absolute satisfaction on the guests faces.

For me, excellent nourishment and satisfaction is very important. I was not braught up modern, I still have so many old school values and morals stuck in me. Even though I have an adventurous spirit, cooking excellent cuisine satisfy my spirit when seeing all around me amazed by the different tastes enveloping their toungs and sending out burst of excitement through their stomachs. What excites me the most is the fact that I prepared these dishes myself. Do not forget about the wine..... :-D

I wondered what happened to this world, the appreciation for the smallest things fell away, you can make excellent cuisine without much really at all, I wondered what happened to women in this world? Being a woman is so much more that just looking beautiful and elagant, being a woman is being nurturing, caring as well as loving. There is a reason why we have an extra rib and have the ability to grow little angels inside of us and looking after them. Being a woman for me is looking after, being loving and caring for all close that loves and appreciates us.

3 years ago I was walking in a big store that distributes kitchens, I was walking peacefully without anything interesting catching my eye and then I stopped dead at the sight of a little petit kitchen with so much character it reminds me of the details of the Duomo in Milan. It was solid, with so many character, it had a warm and inviting feeling to it. I fell in love with this kitchen, I asked the sales consultant about this kitchen and he told me that it was an original kitchen from Tuscany. I wanted it ...... hehehehe

I have for a long time wined and dined guests in elegant style and satisfaction and tonight all of those memories came rushing through my mind that awoke my passionate female feminine side inside of me once again. I love being a woman, women has more freedom than men, we can do anything. we can play sports look after ourselves, cook, clean, have fun, travell and have children. I am proud to be a nurturing, kind, generous, intelligent, tidy, loving and a beautiful woman.

If you are a woman and reading this, feel proud of yourself. Be the best you can be for your loved ones and enjoy life because you are worth it and deserve it.

Write another day

Tanti baci e amore sempre







sabato 21 maggio 2011

L'assasymphonie - Florent Mothe - Mozart l'Opéra Rock

Check out this video on YouTube:

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In France ..... ehehehe

Hello  my darling readers

I arrived In the South of France and the first almost 24 hours was really fun!!!!!

Oh wow this place is beautiful but suddenly I speak fluent Italian to French people and currently studying how to speak french, you know while I was on the train to here I spoke to interesting people and made them laugh out loud ehehehe it was beautiful.

When I arrived at the station I was a liitle confused but when I finally went out and saw the City I was surprised by its beauty..... WOW.

We then drove over the mountain WOW and to a little town called Cassis, I fell almost on my back because it was really beautiful and then we ate at this really beautiful restuarant just looking at the boats and the mountain with the castle ohh my it was breathtaking, I was lauging and making jokes and when I saw, all the people around me were laughing out load, ehehehe I was making yeeeeeeeha and Wohoooooo sounds again because I was joyful, ahhhh,  I was so relaxed and peaceful and then wondered what everybody in Milan was doing?  I wondered if they missed me, probably being gone for for a few hours it must be impossible.

Right now I am getting settled in the apartment in the city, cleaning and going to do some stuff later, mwha ha ha I did call people to let them know that I am safe and alive.

There is a lot of work to be done here and I do not know when I will be going to Milan but surely only time will tell, but Milan and Ronchi78 is my home, I love everybody in Milan, Ronchi78 and the big beautiful Duomo. My life is strange, I was  born in South Africa, found home in Milan and now will live and work in the South of France for a while, uhahahaha then open up a big Guesthouse one day where everybody can come to me.
I go to the world first then one day the world will come to me, Yeeeeeeehaaaaaa

Sha la la.....

Ok my dearst readers I love you all, have a beautiful day and SHAKEEEEE ITTTTTT!!!!!!

venerdì 29 aprile 2011

Un nuovo inizio.....

Un nuovo inizio

La mattina seguente dopo il mio compleanno .....

Mi sono svegliato ottimista per la giornata sapendo in quel momento come viaggiare correttamente dal mio albergo alla metropolitana, dalla fermata della metropolitana dal Duomo e dal Duomo di Ronchi78 e poi in retromarcia, sapevo anche Via via Torino, ma ho avuto un problema , il mio caricatore del computer portatile non ha voglia di lavorare nel mio albergo e ho dovuto acquistare un caricabatterie universale, non avevo idea di dove trovare o acquistare un caricabatterie universale, quindi ho iniziato al supermercato e così ogni utile italiano che sapeva parlare poko poko Inglese , mi ha indirizzato al Fnac, Fnac è ​​situato a destra per Via Torino e in tutta Fnac è ​​San Maurilo la strada dove è in Ronchi78.
Ancora una volta non sapevo di queste informazioni, ho camminato con il mio GPS trovare tutti i posti giorni, quando Fnac mi ha detto che sono stati venduti fuori con caricabatterie, ero così triste, così ho deciso di giocare sul Wii Party è stato bellissimo come la sua Zumba, Voglio un Wii Party WOHOOOO!! Così dopo aver ridacchiato ridere e divertito tutti con scuotendo le mie guance in testa al Wii Party ho preso l'uscita di Fnac e come ho preso l'uscita per Via Torino, ho visto la strada dove è in Ronchi78, così sono andato di nuovo a Ronchi87.

Sono entrato e Giacomo mi ha detto che il mio amico (ex amico) è stato giù per le scale dopo il pranzo e ho scosso la testa segnalazione no grazie, voglio essere da me, hahahahaha, stava parlando così forte, mia mamma hehehe!!
Così ho fatto colazione, è stato meraviglioso e poi ho ancora senza un caricabatterie portatile, ha preso la metropolitana di nuovo al mio hotel. Stavo camminando lungo la strada Carlo e sorprendentemente non vi era un negozio con un caricabatterie universale, così l'ho comprato e ha funzionato perfettamente quando sono tornato di hotel.
Ero esausto e ho perso tutti in Ronchi78 già così ho dovuto cenare lì, ero ancora così felice di vederli per far loro conoscere le mie esperienze, ma di comunicazione grossolani era un problema e che mi ha fatto tanto arrabbiare così come frustrato per non sapere tutto di tutti a Ronchi78, così ho cercato di studiare Italiano sé.
Ogni volta che sono andato a Ronchi78 Giacomo ha fatto il suo segnale vuvuzela è stato bello, si sentiva come a casa, come la famiglia, caldo e felice accettazione incondizionata così come tutto l'amore incondizionato sentiva così 
bene.

Così quella sera ero seduta cercando di studiare Italiano sé e due uomini sono entrati nel ristorante, sempre intorno a Giacomo, è stato San Carlo e San un'altra, San Carlo continuavano ad arrivare a me il vino, ho sentito la musica al piano di sotto e ho chiesto a Giacomo se posso andare giù ? Mi ha risposto "sì".

Tic, tic, tic, tic, curva a destra trimestre e un altro 5 passi giù per le scale ho visto il cantante, nonché tutti gli altri italiani che hanno prenotato per il karaoke erano tutti cantando dal loro stomaco e divertendosi così tanto, erano tutti felice, essendo festa era magico ..... Ero in piedi sulle scale vedendo la felice sorrisi e la gioia, la risata la felicità e mi sono innamorato di Ronchi78 proprio in quel momento, tanto amore riempito la mia anima ho ottenuto di essere emotivo, il mio cuore pieno di gioia, le lacrime versando le mie guance con la felicità, sapendo che se non ho intenzione di far parte di questo per sempre non voglio esistere, sapevo già da allora che se avessi dovuto lasciare mai morirò di crepacuore!!
Al 21 ottobre 2010 il mio cuore è stato perso senza condizioni per un certo numero di persone che conoscevo appena. Quello che mi piace la lingua italiana è, è che alcune cose dovrebbero essere lasciati fuori di dubbio. Basta accettare le cose come sono senza chiedermi il perchè!

Mi sento così appassionato Ronchi78 perché il mio ultimo ricordo felice come una famiglia è morto all'età di otto realtà, si sa dato tutto, lottando e combattendo anche attraverso la vita prendendo preoccupazione e responsabilità sulle mie spalle come un bambino molto giovane, appena cercando di sopravvivere e per mantenere sano di mente, con tutto il male che era accaduto e cercare sorridente attraverso tutte queste le esperienze.
Ho fatto a sopravvivere ho fatto tirare fino alla fine e io sono troppo riconoscente e felice oggi perché ho visto e vissuto il peggio già. Se non fosse stato per Dio, io non sarebbe stato qui oggi, sono molto grato.

Mi sono innamorato di una regione che amo più di windsurf, con un ristorante accogliente famiglia italiana che ho sempre immaginato di essere come famiglia e avere, e di una chiesa è considerato un capolavoro e un arte in tante forme non posso immaginare di vivere senza ... Amo Ronchi78 non riesco a immaginare un mondo senza il popolo, senza che gli ospiti e senza la Festa.
Non ho mai vissuto un Restuarant nella mia vita con tanta passione per la cucina eccellente, vini, musica, karaoke, feste e tanto caldo e l'apertura amorevole.

Il mio cuore è stato rubato e non so nemmeno lo voglio indietro ..... tenerlo per sempre e un altro giorno.

da continuare ......

giovedì 28 aprile 2011

Caduto dal cielo e il mio compleanno .....

Caduto dal cielo e il mio compleanno .....

Ho voluto iniziare questo blog per una semplice ragione, che è amore incondizionato.

Circa un mese fa non avrei potuto sognare tutto ciò che sta accadendo nella mia vita, per accadere, non per un momento. Sono attualmente in Italia Milano, ho recentemente deciso di risiedere qui per sempre e un giorno, perché tutto il mio cuore è stato rubato tutto, in primo luogo dal Duomo, in secondo luogo da un caloroso, affettuoso e assolutamente bello ristorante chiamato Ronchi78.

Le mie esperienze qui in Italia è solo stata assolutamente incredibile e ancora una aswel avventura.
La vita è inestimabile e assolutamente bello non c'è un giorno mi permetterà di passare senza riconoscenza e un sorriso.

Prima del mio arrivo a Milano non avevo idea anche riguardo l'attrazione turistica più piccolo qui, ho davvero mai avuto alcun interesse a visitare sempre Milano, la mia comprensione di Milano è solo moda, il che significa tessuto freddo e mi piace pensare a me stesso come un ambiente caldo, amorevole, affettuoso, gioioso, sensuale, caldo sangue giovane, non avevo intenzione di volo dal Sud Africa a fare shopping ma sono stato convinto da un amico a visitare così ho fatto.

Sono arrivato a Milano il giorno prima del mio 23esimo compleanno il 19 ottobre 2010. Non ho avuto una mappa della città a tutti, tutto quello che avevo era il mio 2 valigie rosa e il mio sorriso.
Ho dovuto prendere un taxi per l'aeroporto, perché non sapevo come utilizzare la Metropolitana, non sapevo neanche che ci fosse qualcosa che si chiama una linea gialla (risatina).
Sono arrivato al mio albergo, mi sono stabilita a rinfrescare e preso per la cena la sera con il mio amico. Un terribile errore ho fatto è stato quello di indossare scarpe col tacco alto, Mama Mia ...... queste donne qui sono troppo coraggioso per camminare tutto il giorno in scarpe col tacco alto.

Così ho incontrato il mio amico siamo andati a cena e camminava nel centro della città, caro ohhh, statue di arcangeli e santi in tutto il mondo ... questa città è assolutamente bello.
Eravamo ancora a piedi e stavo lottando per prestare attenzione su ciò che il mio amico stava parlando a causa dei tacchi alti che mi stava uccidendo ma improvvisamente mi sono fermato, come fece una pausa e ho guardato ho visto l'edificio più bello che io abbia mai visto, il famoso Duomo, una chiesa. La mia bocca si aprì, gli occhi quasi spuntato fuori da esso è prese e mi fermò, stordito ... riempirono di lacrime gli occhi, perché non ho mai visto così tanti dettagli in una chiesa o di qualsiasi edificio, il Duomo è un simbolo di pazienza, duro lavoro, passione, amore per Dio, di bellezza, storia e mi trovavo proprio di fronte, E 'stato assolutamente magico e lo è ancora. E 'stato amore a prima vista era a casa.

Mi svegliai la mattina dopo e mi sono vestita molto ottimista per una splendida giornata e poi mi sono completamente perso, il mio amico ha dimenticato di dirmi dove la metropolitana è stata o che ho dimenticato di chiedere, ohh ma è stato meraviglioso perdersi, ho cercato di comunicare e le mamme di età superiore italiano mi ha aiutato, sono stati così utili anche oggi. Potrei solo dire ciao e buongiorno così mi ha preso per mano nella direzione corretta.

Dopo circa 2 ore mi sono trovato a camminare su una rampa di scale in piedi proprio di fronte al Duomo, un grande sorriso luminoso è apparso sul mio viso e io ero innamorata di nuovo, così ho dovuto entrare in questa grande chiesa bellissima.
Entrando all'interno del Duomo il mio cuore si sciolse anche di più, ho preso le candele ho pregato, pianto riempito la mia gratitudine gli occhi pieni mio cuore e io ero così felice, mi sono seduto in Duomo per circa 2 ore prima ho dovuto lasciare per rispondere il mio amico per il pranzo, era il mio compleanno anche.
Ho incontrato il mio amico di via via Torino presso il negozio di Zara, dove chiama il mio amico e mi camminava per strada a parlare delle mie esperienze mattino e il suo lavoro.
Improvvisamente la porta si aprì e mi stavo guardando questo bel ristorante piccolo e accogliente pieno di uomini con i vestiti in bianco e nero su e mi sentivo un po 'sotto vestito, ho avuto un pantalone nero con un top rosa perlato su, una cintura spessa, bianco e perle rosa e questa borsa enorme. Ho guardato strano, ma suppongo che il proprietario chiamato Giacomo mi ha fatto sentire subito il benvenuto!!
Ho mangiato questo piatto di pasta molto affascinante, sapeva divina, ma mi scuso non riesco a ricordare il nome del piatto, la stessa pasta io ricordo erano in forma di palline.
Il mio amico mi ha detto "Buon Compleanno" ho risposto con un gentile ringraziamento e abbiamo pranzato a Ronchi78, per me la prima volta. Mentre stavamo per partire ho inciampò e cadde sulla sedia, mi sentivo ridicolo perché ero maldestro e fissò, ma il proprietario mi ha fatto sentire meglio, ancora una volta, sono stato chiamato miss Vuvuzela (risatina).

Dopo pranzo il mio amico doveva andare di nuovo al lavoro e mi ha detto di continuare a camminare via via Torino, ho fatto come mi è stato detto e ho comprato il mio primo gelato di pistacchio o cara, è stato divino, io ero in paradiso.
Poi ho ricevuto un messaggio di testo dal mio amico dicendo che lui non vuole più vedermi, perché io non sono a quanto pare la sua tazza di tè, per fortuna ero ancora a mangiare il mio Gelato quindi non mi preoccupo troppo. Successivamente ho fatto pensare alla situazione, era dopo tutto il mio compleanno, ho in quel momento soltanto in Italia per 24 ore senza sapere come tornare al mio albergo o dove io in realtà è stato, ma poi mi sono ricordato il mio viaggio di ritorno verso il Duomo così mi è stato grato.
Non mi arrabbio al mio amico, ero abbastanza tranquillo, la mia mente era in quel momento ancora in corso l'elaborazione di tutti i nuovi intorno a me così non ho potuto veramente preoccuparsi troppo di un uomo, ma l'ho perdonato subito e gli disse in seguito che è bene, possiamo restare amici, ma non sarò mai con lui perché io non sarà mai in grado di pensare anche di fare ad altri quello che aveva fatto per me, è stato molto maleducato.
Dopo di che non ho mai sentito parlare di lui ancora una volta mi auguro che è benedetto con la bontà, la saggezza, la luce e risate però.
Così è stato ancora il mio compleanno, ero seduta vicino alla statua di Leonardo da Vinci, in silenzio parlando con la statua nella mia testa che dice "sì, penso proprio come te e me." I ridacchiò e ha preso un taxi per raggiungere il mio hotel dove ho fatto la doccia e ha deciso anche io sono qui per un mese, così mi permetta di fare la maggior parte di esso.

Ho preso la metropolitana, ancora una volta al Duomo dove ho guardato occhi che brillano in questa bella chiesa enorme, ho deciso di attaccare piuttosto le cose che sapevo e fare una passeggiata lungo la strada di Torino ancora una volta, ho cercato di ricordare dove ho pranzato con il mio amico, quel pomeriggio, perché si sentiva così caldo e al sicuro all'interno Ronchi78, ma il mio cuore è sceso, mi sentivo scoraggiato perché sono all'interno di 24hours stati persi tante volte, ho comprato un piccolo libro mappa e solo più tardi si rese conto che il libro di carta sono stati scritti in spagnolo. (Risatina)

Mentre camminavo giù Torino la mia testa voltata a destra, cercando una strada che sembrava familiare, ed era, si è Ronchi78 dove io e il mio amico ex pranzato quello stesso pomeriggio, ohhh il mio cuore correva e io ero così felice, è stato meraviglioso. Così sono andato dentro e il cameriere Max mi ha aiutato, come una persona gentile, ha visitato il Sud Africa e lui piaceva hehehe e Giacomo ancora called manco Vuvuzela, ero così felice perché mi sentivo al sicuro, l'atmosfera sentivo un po in modo pacifico e amorevole le persone in modo caldo e amichevole .... Felicità.

Non ho avuto una serata in ritardo vi a Ronchi78, mi sentivo un po 'esausto così ho lasciato presto, l'uomo che era alla guida il mio taxi, mi parlò e io gli ho detto che era il mio compleanno, così si è offerto di portarmi fuori per un drink per il mio compleanno, ho accettato ed è stato divertente, era un gentiluomo e mi ha portato di nuovo al mio hotel e poi mi ha spiegato come prendere la metro di nuovo al mio albergo, che cosa è il nome della via e tutti devono sapere le cose. Quella notte sono andata a letto sensazione felice sapendo che finché io so come arrivare al Duomo e al Ronchi78 sarò Va bene.

....... da proseguire.

mercoledì 20 aprile 2011

A change in direction

Change in direction......

Last night at Ronchi78 the atmosphere was amazing, both Max Morganti as well as the musicians called Bello e Dannata performed who also performs absolutely fantastic, here is their link for more detailed information: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Bello-e-Dannata/301050180922

At first I performed with Max again and afterwards with Bello e Dannata, and both of these musicians performing in Ronchi78 are absolutely amazing,  my energy has been low lately as well as my inspiration because of several different reasons and I cannot give my best in anything being a little heartbroken so my singing has been terrible, I apologize but it is true I cannot be dishonest not even on this blog. 

Last night as I was writing in my corner table again with the football team dining and everybody looked so content, I felt a little emotional because of what I was writing, my mind drifted afar and before I could help myself little tears were falling onto my cheeks, luckily nobody noticed, I prefer being happy and to smile, I prefer making the world smile and seeing everybody happy because it gives me great joy.
My tiny tear drops were not only tear drops of what I was writing, no they were tears of appreciation and gratitude, tears of happiness for my present too. As I sat and looked at the table right across from me, I looked straight into a table of Angels in my life whom I feel completely safe with, whom I can trust with my heart and my life even and I felt so grateful, not in a million years I could have ever dreamed of receiving a greater gift from heaven.

After I sang with the two musicians Max Morganti as well as Bello e Dannata, I bonded a little bit with the beautiful staff at Ronchi showing them pictures of the human body as well as the brain which I downloaded to my Ipad for research and we laughed a little. As the evening drew to a close I spoke with a very sweet friend from Switzerland called Mario and I asked him advice on publishing companies for my first book that I am currently busy with.
Even though I have a publishing company who is interested in publishing my book when I am completed with it and because they were the first publishing company which I approached, I decided that I would like to shop around with other publishing companies first to see which are the best Publishers for me, I want a publishing company in Italy or the UK. 
I know that many thinks that it is impossible but I am just taking one day and one step at a time because last night when Mario and myself spoke about all that has to be done I felt a bit frightened and like I wanted to cancel my entire project because I felt a little negative and like I was not capable.

As I took a peaceful walk back home I asked myself many questions I noticed that my thoughts had turned negative and I stopped dead in my tracks, I then decided that I cannot allow fears to keep me from achieving what I want, fear is only an illusion to keep us from achieving our dreams.
I then decided that all I need to do is to have my visions of already have succeeded in my dreams and just take one day at a time as well as give my best every day.

This blog is taking an interesting change in direction, while I was writing about all the good times and having fun in Ronchi78 in the past now I will be writing still about the incredibly fun times in Ronchi, as well as me writing in Ronchi about writing my first book, all my fears and emotions going with it, what Publishing companies I will be approaching, the steps I will be taking into completing my first book as well as my journey having my first book published. So keep on following the blog because yes I will sometimes feel negative and like I would want to give up, yes I might feel discouraged and hopeless approaching publishing companies but It is achievable most definitely and together we will get there while singing songs in Ronchi78.

My decision for doing this is because I know that everybody has dreams, everybody wants to be successful and absolutely happy, I hope that writing about myself trying to achieve in a dream of mine will inspire you as reader not to be afraid to make your changes and trying your best to achieve whatever you want in life. In life we are all faced with fear but if we allow fear to hold us back we will just end up sad and miserable with regret.

Your journey in life is your choice, whatever you want you will have, whatever you believe your life should be or must be is what and how you will live. Your life is your choice for yourself, it is what you choose. Choose wisely, choose happiness, choose that change that seems so difficult because of the illusion of fear yet so easy actually. Choose a happy, successful, joyful, peaceful and joyful journey for yourself because life is precious and so short, just be happy, true to yourself and grateful.

I must retreat now because I want to do research again, I am busy with the physical health section now of my book combined with the mind. Its a lot of reading and research but I enjoy it.

Have an amazing day all of you beautiful people and smile, shake your bon bons and have fun.

Amore Sempre 

giovedì 7 aprile 2011

SUNSHINE!!!!!!

Ahhh I love the Sun, It is Spring in Europe and it is wonderful!!!!

I have been going to the park to read and write ohhh my goodness the trees, the green the Ponies in the park the pond Mama Mia just beautiful for my spirit and completely soul satisfying

I was Laying under a big tree, thinking, I thought about many things, about the band called Inland Sea, about, Ronchi78, about the sunshine on my skin and thoughts of when it is Winter again, I would want to spend it somewhere in a wooden Cabin, covered in snow on the outside, A big fireplace on the inside with a red satin blanket on the wooden floor, shampagne and a lover..... ahhhhhhhh (sigh) For now its WoHooooooooo SUNSHINE!!!!!!!!

I was thinking about Ronchi78 and how much Ronchi78 means to me, how much all of them mean to me, Giacomo, Mirko, the whole football team, tha staff, Max the musicians, all of them have such a big space in my heart its unbelievable. I want all of them to be absolutely happy forever and another day. For me Ronchi78 is not just a restaurant, its so much more, its so warm, friendly, nurturing, it is absolutely wonderful.

Before I decided to come to Italy I was going to start a guesthouse, for me a guesthouse is not only a work, it is a big very fluent and changing home, yes you will pay to sleep over but to create an atmosphere of nurturing, warm friendly kindness, truly italian style, excellent cuisine, Festivity, fun, bedrooms beautifully decorated to make you feel as if you are sleeping in a very safe heaven, chocolates on the pillows, a friendly welcome by the breakfast table making sure that everybodies needs are met and taken care of is absolutely beautiful to me. Also completely child friendly, where children can have fun. Ahhhhh Laughing talking and having fun with new faces every day, ahhh the thought is just beautiful. A little bit of Tuscany in Milan.

When I met Ronchi78 the whole place just reeled me in like a fish it felt like home to me, the ambience, the atmosphere, I love Ronchi78 and one day hope to have a guesthouse exactly the same but with Mirko and Giacomo guiding me because these two Archangels in my life knows what their doing, I am really impressed.

Yes we all have dreams and this is a hope for my future, a little rain of words must fall first, clarity and understanding, then investment, pure joy, hard work and stability will follow with contentment. Ahhhh I will have such a big family then WoHooooo!! Maybe one day, we will see.

Today as I walked to the park for the second time I had such a pleasant surprise from Carlo, I crossed the street and he was on his way to an appointment from his office.
It was really wonderful, it was an absolutely pleasant surprise and unexpected.

Ahhh I feel so content, I have no idea what these people think of me except Giacomo. Giacomo thinks I am crazy, don't worry, I think he is crazy tooo hehehehehe, but an excellent person, truly.

Allora, yes I will stop writing now because it is very late and I have a very important appointment tomorrow morning with the SuNsHiNe. Ahhhh I love the Sun, I LOVE LIFE!!!!!!

Ok write again soon...

Amore Sempre

lunedì 28 marzo 2011

Mina Mooooooo......hehehehe

Last night was amazing.......

Yesterday afternoon my heart was a little bit soar because because.... Gloria actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I am truly grateful for her yesterday she made me laugh. She is very funny, through communication, kindness and understanding we resolved our differences.

So as I felt quite sad and feeling the need for compassion, kindness, affection and a sense of belonging I decided to go to Ronchi78 again, ahhhh I always go to Ronchi I love Ronchi Ronchi78 and myself'87 are soul mates, heheheheh. So I entered Ronchi and the atmosphere was electrifying and most definitely not an evening to write, ohhhh no Max Morganti as well as Paolo Pilo were both performing, the handsome Giacomo was behind the bar the Naked shef in the kitchen, hehehehe noooo he is not really naked, unless he wants to be? I don't judge people..... hehehehhe va bene.  So everybody was happy, joyful and I went downstairs to see what Max and Paolo were up to. I first saw Poalo he greeted me warm and welcoming over the microphone, then I went to the other section of the restaurant to see what Max was doing..... (blush).

I was not in the room long and Max asked me to sing "I will survive" I was still sad, I cannot sing when I am sad, I don't know why I cannot sing. When I am sad my intestants and all my muscles feels like it pulls tight and inwards, probably out of habit to feel safe. when this happens I cannot sing at all. Max I apologize for the worst performance ever last night, I tried though.
After I sang I met very interesting and beautiful fun people, they were so sweet and I met a sweet guy. He has a milk farm so I asked him if one sunday we can milk his cows and he said yes uhahahahaha that sound funny. I am so excited I read about how to properly milk a cow today.

I was really happy because he was Milanese but he felt like such a warm sincere person. He was not shy to talk to me, to be kind, to do anything, he had courage and confidence to approach me and he even kissed me, well, it was a peck on the lips and then I blushed. I was so surprised because the guys here I think wants an invitation before taking the lead, I don't give invitations. I am not used to giving permission for feelings of romance people are free to do as they choose, go for it and if the other person responds positively back GOOOOD. Where I come from the woman is the silent waiting sensual female, the guy sees you and if he really wants you he will do anything to get you and keep on trying even after you said no, its quite charming actually, persistence. It actually impossible to deny the charm of a man completely sure that he wants you, ahhhh let me stop.

Last night I even found myself being in the center of a group hug. It was wonderful, everybody last night at Ronchi was having so much fun it was magical. I felt really happy eventually when I left Ronchi78, but I left confused. Giacomo told me things that does not make sense. 

Allora.

ohhh well. 

Still every time I go to Ronchi78 everybody makes me very happy, I love Ronchi78 and everybody could consider to come and visit because there is so much love in the Ronchi family. ahhhh my heart.

ok write again soon.....

Amore sempre

venerdì 25 marzo 2011

Thank you

Thank you

I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everybody. For me showing my gratitude is extremely important. It shows that I appreciate and acknowledge what others do and help me with.

I want to thank you as reader for reading this blog, I truly appreciate it very much, as long as you enjoy what you read and sometimes benefit from the information or laugh out load it is a pleasure for me to write when you enjoy to read this blog. You reading and enjoying my blog makes me very happy. Thank you.

I remembered earlier the first day I arrived in Ronchi78, (smile), I remember all the times I spent in Ronchi78, ohhh DIO, spending time with the football team, spending time with Max, Giacomo, Mirko uhahahahaha, decorating for Christmas the Vuvuzela's, Christmas, New Years, meeting Laura the boys having trouble speaking Italian, big communication problems. I feel truly fortunate and grateful. If I had to rewind these past couple of months And I had a chance to live it over again I would not change a single moment.

Every day has been a new surprise almost and it has been miraculous.
Everybody at Ronchi78 Giacomo, Mirko, Laura, the boys the grandparents the uncles and aunts are just beautiful and truly I am blessed to be able to spend time with all of you. 

I can remember the night I was hanging Christmas balls onto the little christmas tree in Ronchi78, Mirko looked at me and told me that I am lucky because I have three balls and all of them only two each, I replied "Si, io sono molto fortunata", he laughed himself silly. I remember the first time I brought Giacomo his Vuvuzela uhahahahahahahaha he was happy, he was like a little boy. You know every memory here has been priceless, every moment a new wonderful surprise and I can only be absolutely grateful and say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being with the most wonderful people I have ever came across in my life. 

Thank you Giacomo, Mirko, Ronchi78, football team, inland sea, Paletti family for all of your love, I love you all with all my heart and truly grateful for every second spent with all of you.

Thank you

Amore Sempre  

mercoledì 23 marzo 2011

loads of fun......

Sunday was fun....

.....it was the baptism of little Ludo, a very important baptism, the festivity was amazing, I played the piano it was beautiful, the piano is one of the most beautiful instruments for me in the world. The music produced from a piano gives me goosebumps ohhhhh WOW I want to play it. The church where the baptism was held in was incredible, ohhhh my goodness, I have met a Mini Duomo hehehehe ahhhhh it was amazing. 

To be honest I have not been writing, my energy feels low because I think I need a hug or something pfff...... love is normally my inspiration, (Love for me is clarity, sweetness, kindness, fun, joy happiness yes and many other different forms) right now I feel a little bit loveless. 

Sigh its just me perhaps or its just in my mind, remember I am a woman and it is important to understand that women have more mixed emotions than men.
These feelings shall pass soon do not worry. I have also my own things I need to think about my own worries and fears, right now I need to pause and think clearly but it feels like I cannot, it feels like I just want to find some GENI somewhere rub his lamp and have all the unnecessary obstacles which are my own worries (which are little things) removed so that I can focus on more important things, bigger things like my book, like helping people. uffff.

Allora I do apologize (sigh). l am still very grateful though, yet I realized that I am really strange, nothing about my life is normal it is like it is magical, truly, it is true I sat and I thought about these past 4 months and it has not been a normal situation, but as I sat and thought I became frightened because I don't know what is going to happen. Then whenever I feel the feelings of fear the song "QUE SERA SERA" suddenly plays in my mind and then I feel a little bit better.

Right now I just feel like breathing and taking one second at a time. (Sigh) someone took my Africans in the little garden and Gloria is rude to me, bossing me around again, she has been doing the same to poor Ialene, shame the poor girl confides in me so may times about her own past experiences and that's why she is so extremely quiet, she doesn't know how to speak up she needs a boost of courage and confidence, Ialene has a really beautiful heart and spirit she is still so naive ahhh shame. I don't really feel like smiling writing or doing anything when people are rude to me, my mind switches off, its like my brain thought itself to protect itself from any negativity...... there is no need to be rude to me, I am always the same, people assume thats where things go wrong, assumption is the mother of all evil. I also miss playing calcio in the park with the kids I don't know why we are not going anymore, I miss spending time with All Puccino, I don't even see him, it makes me sad and I have not been coming to Ronchi78. I feel like I write best when I write in Ronchi. 

ohhhh dear I have to tell you, I met Giacomo's little babies ohhhh they are just so beautiful!!!!!

Yes I do love Ronci78 and everyone WoHoooooo, Everybody should come to Ronchi78 it is peaceful and wonderful the festivity is incredible and the atmosphere just revitalizing, it is like heaven on earth. Mirko's parents are also wonderful, ahhh Mirko and his mother smiles the same way, whenever Mirko or his mother smiles it looks like they heave stars in their eyes and their faces lights up like shining diamonds, they also have the same giggle hehehehe, it is beautiful and the most satisfying sight for me, just priceless. His father lights up when he sees me then he squishes my cheeks uhahahahaha Im like a doll!!! Ahhhhhh absolutely beautiful.

Everybody is wonderful..... I am so sorry for writing about my negative feelings in this piece but today was truly one of those days where life just wanted to throw every bad stone at me, I delt with all of them peacefully yet it was so uneccasary and confusing, it disturbed my spirit, but I feel better now. Thank you....

Allora now I will retreat and continue with my book....

baci baci 

ciao...

(will write again soon)

martedì 15 marzo 2011

Roxette DANGEROUS+Lyrics

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thDo_QIw2tg&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Preface of my book.....

Preface

This book has been inside of me for about two years just wanting to be written and published and I can remember that I had so many doubts at first. I constantly started to write and then I stopped, wondering, pondering, deleting then lost all hope and confidence all the time.

We all have dreams we want to acchieve and it is true that we fear acchieving our dreams, we lack confidence, we think that we are not good enough and then just settle for second best, we end up sad then as we continue our daily lives, we then feel empty inside because we keep on sitting and wondering "What if?".

When I was a very young girl of about 5 years old I always sat and wondered when I saw very old people with sad faces. I one day asked my father why some old people have happy wrinkles and why some of them have sad wrinkles.  I remember him telling me that it is because the happy wrinkle faced people followed their hearts, even though faced with fear they acchieved their dreams and have no regrets. The sad wrinkle faced people chose to let fear rule their lives and they sit daily asking themselves "What if?", they sit in regret.

I promised myself that when I grow old I want to have a happy wrinkled face and not a sad wrinkled face. I promised myself aswell that when I leave this planet I will leave my footsteps behind of good deeds. I love people worldwide and helping people is a passion for me. To be able to contribute to anothers life is so priceless because people always remember that miracle, that kind person, that passer by that helped without asking in return.

I pondered about this book, I worried if I was capable and smart enough to write this book. I decided that the vocabulary is not really that important, what is important is the information I provide to all of you readers, combined with my personality of coarse. 

This book is about health. It is about healing in the body, the mind, the emotions and then the spirit combined with the law of attraction then of coarse examples from my past experiences. I truly hope and believe that this book can add valuable information to your life so that you as reader can grow, can live a full life, that you as reader can smile and be happy every day no matter what. 

Now to be completely honest, I love books but I normally start reading a book on the first Chapter because I really do not normally find prefaces all that interesting, so this preface I am keeping short but before I take you into my journey I must say thank you first.....

I firstly want to thank God, Christ and Spirit and all the angels for helping me and being with me all my life as well sending me this heavenly idea to write this book, "God without You I am nothing and with You all is possible, Thank you and I love you."

Secondly I want to thank Mirko Paletti, Giacomo Bertacchi, Ronchi78 in Milan Italy, the whole Ronchi family, Paletti family, the band Inland Sea and the famous football team for embracing me, for showing me so much love and kindness, for giving me confidence in myself to complete this book. I love you all with all my heart and I have never been happier in my life.

Lastly I want to thank you as the reader for reading this book, for your own personal growth and your own healing process. I always say that everything starts with yourself. I truly appreciate that you as reader made a conscious decision to grow more in all areas of your life, I want to thank you for loving yourself.

Alright Alright enough, let us smile, let us breathe and start with Chapter one.
 
Amore Sempre.

giovedì 10 marzo 2011

Festa Della Donna.....

Ohhhhh WoHoooooo Fiesta della Donna was wonderful, it was My first Fiesta Della Donna qua in Milano. It was amzing!!!!!!

Well My amazing and your amzing will differ because perhaps your amazing will include a breakfast in bed, a massage at a day SPA a precious heart felt gift, ok well that is amazing for me tooooooo no woman will refuse that but for me just a Surprise presence was enough which started in the morning........ I felt hipnotised and shy, bedazzled and surprised all at once but did not show it, I did not know what to do actually.... It was a big Surprise hello I was really happy.

You know when you meet someone and you really like them but you dont know how to approach them so you wish and pray they will just read your mind and grab you like a monkey kiss you .............. Then afterwards when the ice was finally broken you can talk, pfffff thats how I feel sometimes but because I am a woman similar to an early in the morning CAR in the middle of winter, one needs to get heated first to get turned on to be driven properly and we women only get heated with romance and feeling special in the beginning...... then afterwards the poor man has no more VA VA VOOM left to give to a VU VU ZELA which evident by the World Cup Soccer last Year can keep going.... Uhahahahaha, hehehehehehe (blush) joking joking.... Im so happy I am not a guy, if I could I would buy all male spiecies apology gifts just to say sorry that we women Are so complicated.

Allora, so I had a Surprise morning bedazzle then I went to Castello Park to write..... Later in the evening I went to Ronchi78 again and played with some pictures while everybody was tranquil. There were many festa della donna flowers on the tables provided by Ronchi for the Donna's and there were Yellow balloons outside the door, ohhh it was beautiful.
Once again in My little corner I was so happy, pleased and content just looking at the football team having fun, ohhh It was magical.
Afterwards while Ronchi closed ahhh I had fun, lets call these two boys Nimples and Dimples we left Ronchi hehehehehehehehe Nimples and Dimples took the rest of the donna flowers to sell with the balloons as a joke uhahahahahaha, boys will be boys sempre. I asked if I could join them and they told me no because I am a woman that is the first and only rule that no women Are allowed to sell flowers with them on donna day.... I was not sad, I was happy because Nimples and Dimples even though very serious men were like two mischievous boys wanting to have some innocent fun. How can one be sad for another's happiness?
When you love people or care for them you will do anything for them help them in any way and always want to see them happy with a smile, sigh....
Nimples and Dimples (smiling secretly to myself) I hope they had fun.....

Ahhhh sigh, so yes for me it was a beautiful fiesta Della Donna yesterday....
It was a priceless memory I once again collected into My heart and engraved into My spirit....

I hope everybodies day yesterday was magical too and I wish you a beautiful day today......

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martedì 8 marzo 2011

Memory lane 2

Many things have been going through my mind since Sunday evening, my feelings were hurt badly but I am alright I guess, My own fault pffff.

I am sitting looking at walnuts and my thoughts drifted down memory lane..... Suddenly I found myself thinking about my father... He passed away many years ago but I still feel him close most times...

About a week ago I shared a photo of my parents with a close friend of mine who is very dear to My heart and means the world to me. I do not easily share my past with anyone, my past was very dark, difficult and painful and I choose to only shine light, give love, laughter and joy to the world now and in my future. I must add that even though I had many trails in my past , I would not change one day in my past because it has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of myself.

I can remember just after my concert My brother and I went to visit my Grandfather in Kwazlu Natal, Margate (100km from Durban) where he lived. We went to visit him every school holiday with my parents actually but that particular school holiday my parents could not go, my father just bought a new business for my mother and obviously with everything else with the new business they had to stay and work. 

Ahhh Margate, always green and tropical, the house was a walk away from the beach but my favorite beach was Uvongo beach, it had a waterfall with a lagoon that flew into the sea, beautiful!!! We normally swam to the waterfall to sit under the waterfall ohh It was Devine. Normally we woke up at 6am to be at the beach at 7am and spend all day at the beach. I've always been a beach baby, I saw a picture of myself 2 years ago when I was 1 year old, I had only one pink g-string on running full speed towards the sea and my father behind me trying to catch me because I was told when they looked away for a second I was up running to the waves, hehehehe I kept them fit.

The evening before the second of October we were all having a barbaque with my grandfather and I saw the monkeys on the telephone lines walking to sit on the roof of the the lower section part of the house that was the maids quarters. The monkeys came because they were hoping for fruit but we were forbidden to feed them because when you first start to feed them, they come in and reck the house when you are not there.
So I was looking at the papa monkey, and whoops there he was licking his backside displaying his crown jewels very openly to the planet, uhahahahahaha, I was staring at this monkey's private parts because it was shocking blue, you couldnt miss these large shocking blue big balls, then while I was staring, this shocking pink thing emerged out from these shocking blue balls and I was really amused........I was hipnotised actually, the colours of those private parts were unbelievable  It probably glows in the dark too?
My attention was then braught back to earth when my name was called to speak to my father on the telephone.
My father called the landline that night because he wanted to speak to everybody and as soon as I picked up the telephone to speak to him I told him all about the monkey's balls, he listened and laughed himself silly as I was passionately explaining the colours, how the monkey sat etc. While I was babbeling to him he suddenly just said loudly over the phone but gently with excitement and pride "Ek is lief vir jou My pop", translated "I love you my little doll". 
I smiled broadly because I was surprised, ahhhh I love surprises, so I told him I loved him very much back, (soft loving smile).

My relationship with My father were not normal, I listened to him, respected him but he was My best friend too. We spent all our time together and he loved me more than anything on the planet, he was My hero too, we swam together always, played bee bee guns, went fishing every weekend, built go-carts in the back, another section on the house that was stocked with sleaper wood to build things, hehehehehe when My mother tried to get me to do the salon thing Mama Mia I was annoyed, My mind always drifted towards where My dad was. ohhh Sundays were Formula 1 day watching Micheal Shoemacher as he raced and won and we went offroad driving always... It was super fun, ohhh I love speed, adrenalin rush!!!

October the 2nd 1997, we awoke early to go to Uvongo Beach, we were there at 7am, the water was still low tide so I was playing in the little stream that flew from the waterfall into the sea. My brother joined me and told me that we must pretend to be still crocodiles so we both just layed in the little stream pretending to be still crocodiles hehehehehe, about 08:10 am My grandfather came walking towards where the grown-ups were sitting, I was confused because My grandfather was dressed in his suit and looked puzzled, when he saw myself and My brother he called My brother to go to him at once... I was really confused because once My brother reached everybody he was told some news and started to scream. My grandfather then patted him on his back hard and I thought that My brother was such a baby, yes he was sunburnt a bit but he did not have to act like a Crazy person. 
So I twirled around in the water now pretending to be a happy syncronised swimming crocodile then suddenly I noticed everybody was crying and not just My brother. WOOAH, it was strange to me and remember clearly that I was wondering why everybody was crying over my brothers sunburn?
I ran to where everybody was standing and crying, but they all turned their backs on me, avoiding me, I was getting more nervous by the second and started to yell at the top of My trought "WHAT HAPPENED!!!!?", My stepgrandmother then looked at me and told me "your father died." , I can remember everybody turning towards me in horror, everything went quiet and felt slowmotion because It felt like somebody took a thick blunt spear and pressed it straight through My chest that crushed My heart, then another that went staight through my stomach. The pain and shock was so great within me, all that came from My Lips were a deadly loud scream, it sounded like I was being tortured to death slowly and then My knees collapsed underneath me. I was laying remembering people hovering over me, looking backwards seeing as My brother was trying to run, to where, I dont know? 
We were taken to the doctor immedietly to get injections to calm down and afterwards I just layed staring a the walls, not moving, not making a sound, just lifeless eyes. 
I was in denial for a long time, the funeral was the worst, when the coffin sunk into the ground they had to sustain me because I wanted to jump into the hole to go with. I was in denial for 4 years after My father's death, I could not accept it at all. I was dead inside, I was alone.

Yes it was tragic but I pulled through being a good person, remembering what he had thought me, remembering the solid and good morals as well as values of life, the unconditional pure love he thought me. I was blessed to have  had him even if it was only for nine years... He was a really good man, father and husband dont forget son. 

People do not understand me, time spent with someone you love or care about for me is priceless because I have lost everything already and all that kept me going was the memories and the desire to make new happy memories one day. Happy memories are the most precious gifts in life for me.
We all have trails we go through but remember that the hard Times Are there for a reason. What does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nobody's lives Are perfect, we all have had pain, we have all felt rejected, broken down, humiliated, sad, angry but look around you, if you still have your health and you Are still breathing then you have Made it untill now, you have gone through so much and you Are still standing tall, you Are fantastic, so be proud of yourself and let the past in the past. 

WoW sorry for writing sooooooo much...

I wish you all a beautiful day and smile!

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martedì 1 marzo 2011

Paolo Pilo

Paolo ahhhh Paolo, the funny English speaking Italian  man, also always serious but has a good heart you can see, he has had his challenges in life and overcame them, he has a very strong spirit and very brave because he follows his heart and passions come what may.

Paolo  made me fall in love with Ronchi78, he was the musician that was playing that beautiful magical evening, I was sitting upstairs trying to decide what my purpose in Milan was, I still don't know, hehehehehe then I heard music and my spirit flew to the stairs where I stood seeing all the beautiful Italian people having such a big Feast, singing with Paolo, dancing, dancing on the table oh my dear it was such a powerful strong love emotion that spread right through my body and my heart was stolen by Ronchi78 on the steps, not by Paolo, hehehehehehe sorry Poalo, no with the beautiful happy faces just enjoying life, enjoying that moment, celebrating life to me ohhh wow seeing so much happiness at once I just fell in love.......

In the beginning Paolo did not speak to me, but when he actually started to speak to me I was surprised at how well he spoke English, it was impressive and he has always been sarcastic but very sincere.

The one evening I was sitting in Ronchi78 and I spoke to Poalo asking him one million questions, heheheheh, he just answered truthfully but told me something private that truly made me respect him in so many ways, like I said he has had his challenges I am very very proud of him.

At the Inland Sea concert I met his beautiful wife and his little daughter I was surprised because I assumed that he was a lone walking musician, those tranquil one's that just has the quitar on the back and moves around, hehehe.. he is awesome..... not just about Poalo's character but also his music, he is really such an excellent performer, he is downstairs now playing "Hey Jude" its wonderful!!!!
Paolo Pilo is really a very good performer, he is part of the Ronchi78 family so of coarse he gets some biscotti and some chocolates with a lot of smiles and applauds from me....

Where can you buy this brilliant musician's CD..... hmmmm well from a man called Giacomo at Ronchi78 so you really have to come visit Ronchi78, online I believe you can buy it on ITUNES or for more information you can follow these links:
http://www.palbertmusic.com
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Palbert-Music/180603769020?v=wall

Ohh dear, It is wonderful, Paolo is an EXCELLENT Performer so please I suggest you buy his CD because you will not regret it, it will inspire you, you will fall in love you will smile always and another day. 

I will write again soon....

Tanti Baci

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sabato 26 febbraio 2011

hmmmmmm.....

I have not been writing, I don't know where to write or what, I could tell you everything but everything right now is really confusing.... I could be the middle of a world war and I wont know that I am in a world war because I don't fight, I don't get angry and if I do get really upset I speak really fast and the tone of my voice rises so high that the person I am upset with bursts out laughing out load, then I laugh back because I love laughing hehehehe.... pffff. I am just always me, because I know who I am and the world tried to change me once, it did not work, I love myself and as long as I can be myself, smiling through thick and thin, as long as I am allowed to giggle for better or for worse as long as I can make a joke or say something really strange that amuses the hell out of me until death does me part I am happy.

I am really a very simple honest person with simple needs I assume a simple honest and clear approach will be appreciated.... but ohh well

what has been happening at Ronchi78?

PLENTY!!!!!!!


I did have a strange request that I could not fulfill just before Inland Sea concert, Giacomo asked me to please get strange people like me in for the concert, that request was really difficult well it was impossible because I don't know anybody like me really, to find someone like me might take much longer than 3 weeks........ It might take even forever. So I did fail at that request I apologize.

Everybody has been asking me lately what my plans are for the future, As far as my plans for the future goes, I never make plans I only follow my heart and the feathers because I tried for long to plan my life in the past and it never happened as I planned it, normally everything works out for the best for everybody envolved because my intentions are always pure.... even now I have no plan Im just enjoying my life and writing as well as spending time with 3 little angels so let me be..... I am exhausted, seriously it feels to me like for the first time in 13 years I can relax and breathe and not worry about anything, I don't know why I feel like this but I do.... I am really happy, even hopelessly clueless of what is really happening but ohhh well, I cannot forse anyone to talk...

I have been thinking and I truly want to start writing about the musicians in Ronchi78 which is also part of Palbert Music... I spend time at Ronchi78 with all these musicians and I want you to get to know them too, they are all great performers as well as such beautiful people on the inside, ahhhh bellissimo!!!!!

For the next few weeks I will be writing about these musicians and what magic they have contributed and still contribute to my life.

To be truly honest this piece was difficult for me to write because my feelings and mind is not completely balanced or knows what is happening but now I decided that "QUE SERA SERA, WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE" so I am going to relax and just play CALCIO, Ohhhh I love playing calcio with the kids, truly!!!!!!

Ooh there are beautiful rides like a theme park at Castello. I am going to go now.

Have a wonderful day!!!

Tanti baci!!!!!

venerdì 11 febbraio 2011

The Concert.......


You know sometimes just before you meet people you really could not wait to meet and you have this whole picture in your mind of how it would be, how you want it to be, the first sight, you practice your best look before the time, your best way to greet, you have this whole picture in your head of how the first meeting is going to be and you are all excited, your heart races faster, emotions of excitement just keeps on stirring and stirring so much that you want to yell out loud and bounce off of the planet, well.......
......that is how I felt last night when I was getting ready in the bathroom in front of the mirror and these feelings of incredible excitement just became stronger the closer I got to Ronchi78 for the concert......

I walked from home to the Concert last night because of the fresh air and the fact that there were so many things going through my mind, fears, hopes, meeting the band for the first time whether some important people were going to be at the concert, for me, I never think or worry about myself or what I want as long as everybody is happy around me I am happy, yet sometimes its difficult to make people happy because people want too much sometimes, expect too much too soon and It does make a person tired, I can imagine being in a band and (trust me performing in front of a handful people is much more stressful than performing in front of a big group of people) also just wanting to give your fans your best, THAT IS WHY I MUST SAY COMPLIMENTS TO INLAND SEA, last night they performed without the violinist very very extremely well, It was absolutely beautiful and I had goosebumps all over me all the time. Truly you are excellent Inland Sea.

So as I entered Ronchi78 last night expecting to see the band first, I didn't because they were downstairs eating,  so now already practicing my entrance and the first look the pose and the greeting were now not possible anymore so now I had to go to pose, smile and greeting PLAN B.... there were no PLAN B hehehehhe ohhh dear so I just went with the flow of things....

I was waiting for friends obviously important, they did not show but it didn't stop me from being happy, I was disappointed but I understood because it was a week night and people has to work difficult thinking professions so they need rest, I understand completely.....

While I was waiting peacefully downstairs at the table to meet the band, people started to fill the room and I was worried that the band was just going to start performing without talking to me so  I got up, swallowed once, exhaled and walked to the other section of the restaurant where the band was sitting.

As I entered I saw and met the band Inland Sea and WOW Paolo Spada Really looks very young for his age it is incredible, I wonder what cream he uses? or what his secret is? Its true, things here are not normal, everything here are so backwards especially me, its really unbelievable. Giorgio the Pianist in the band has this incredible beautiful pair of blue eyes, also a Cardiologist like Paolo, but you can see that they are very sweet and kind people, truly absolutely amazing Characters and very deep, shy though but only in new company, I am sure they are loads of fun when you know them personally for a while,  one big festive cantare e ballare PARTY!!!!!

Paolo is a gentleman very sweet and extremely deep person, he is sensitive, handsome obviously smart, has a sense of humor writes and performs music with passion, its amazing I am blown away with this band actually, WOW.......!!!!!!
Giorgio Poletto is very shy, at first I thought he was strange, hehehehe, we were talking and he told me that he felt like a cigarette, he then showed me his electric cigarette but told me that sometimes he feels like a normal cigarette, I can understand that he was nervous just before he would perform but he really looked very eager for the cigarette, his mind was on tobacco planet so I stood there trying to find him a cigarette, hehehehe it was amusing to me..... after the concert he came up where I was sitting at the corner table alone and he was really happy I was talking too much and too fast and exactly like Max normally does he just sat looking at me in amusement laughing while I was babbling away talking about everything...... Obviously I was so excited to meet them for the first time and It felt like the time was too short to really get to know them so you try savor up every detail and every movement, the other two band members I did not even get a chance to talk to once and I feel very guilty about that, I was really so happy last night, I tried not to smile at times, but it was really difficult for me.

The music ohh my goodness, it was absolutely incredible....... I did notice the difference without the violinist, the violin really adds a great deal to the music, the song "come to me now" did not sound the same at all without the violin, the violin has a very powerful effect on that particular song not just on the music but also on Paolo's voice when he sings, yet COMPLIMENTS, because like any good artists, when you are good you can perform without anything anywhere anytime.... it was truly BEAUTIFUL, and they even had MARACAS Wohooooo!!!!!!!! Ahhhh I love the Maracas, I must say I really love their drums and the drummer knows what he is doing....... Goosebumps I tell you all over......

As always when there are an enormous amount of joy inside of me I cannot sit still because when I sit still my joy comes from my stomach and I smile more and more and giggle more and more, I glow actually and I cannot help it or hide it, I sometimes disguise it with a glass or two of wine so that people think I am a little bit tipsy and think that I am tipsy starry eyed smiling,  nooo actually its my disguise lately, I really don't know where all this happiness is coming from really, I have been laughing and giggling myself awake even, I am serious, I am not joking...... pffffff allora,

As I was running around everywhere in Ronchi78 last night because I have too many happy feelings and did not know how to deal with them all at once, I heard a familiar heavenly sound, the melody was peaceful, it was like a peaceful rain of words that filled my ears and pulled my spirit down the steps towards the band where Inland sea sang another favorite song of mine called "Rain of Words", it was absolutely beautiful, ahhh all off the excitement in me turned to complete inner peace for the entire song..... afterwards my happy pack was charged again and I am still happy at this moment the happiness still has not gone allora...... maybe I am ET's sister who knows, I am really frightened to try point my finger to the sky, I am really afraid the top part of my finger will actually glow hahahaha.... I'm just kidding hehehehehe I already pointed my finger to the sky, it did not glow don't worry....

Truly If you have not heard the music of Inland Sea please do visit their website www.inlandsea.it  their CD called "Things Change" can also be bought on ITUNES, when you visit their website you will find all the necessary information.

Furthermore I was really happy with the concert for me it was really beautiful, I hope that for two of the Directors of Palbert Music, Giacomo Bertacci and Mirko Paletti that was there last night aswell,  that they too were happy and pleased, ahhh I just want everybody to be happy, if you are a man know that you are fortunate because it is so difficult to be a woman sometimes, we care too much, we have so many emotions and just wants everybody to be pleased, nurtured, smiling, peaceful and extremely happy.

.....Once again I was bedazzled by Inland Sea..... in Ronchi78

I am tired now, I want to sleep but.......

I will write again soon....

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