You Are The First, My Last, My Everything (Barry White)

Unbelievable...

I took some time and sat in peacefulness to listen properly to this band called Inland Sea, I really have never heard anything like it before.

First of all I need to inform that this band are the writers of their own music, the instruments used in this band to create and combine their amazing melodies, WoW it is breathtaking and it consist of the Wurlitzer Piano, Violin, Drums and the Acoustic Guitar.
The depth and the meaning of the words in their songs are absolutely incredible and written with such extreme passion as well as love, a passion and love that goes far beyond any shallow human mind. I have never heard more passionate and deep lyrics with music combined with instruments such as the violin, piano and the Acoustic guitar.

Ohh wow, I truly believe that everybody should have a CD of these people, it can be played just for peacefulness to quiet ones spirit, you can play it to get your lover in the mood for a very deep, slow hand and passionate evening, you can play it to your special someone just to show your affection with the lyrics, this music is truly one of a kind and absolutely breathtakingly beautiful.
 Please do yourself a favour and listen to this amazing band called Inland Sea on http://www.palbertmusic.com/
My personal favourites are "Come to me now", "Heaven is lost" and "The rain words".

Alora, furthermore, many of the readers questioned my decisions asking "why not have fun?" "why decide on such a long term commitment with a guesthouse?" "Why so committed and loyal to these people, you are 23 years old?"
I do know that in the eyes of the world my physical age will be questioned as well as my interests yet my life experiences has formed me to think and act much more mature than the normal 23 year old.

From a very very young age responsibilities of all kinds were forced onto me, I've had to show an unbelievable amount of inner strength, courage, confidence, self dicipline, emotional, mental and spiritual strength, not just for myself but many people who surrounded me while I was still just going to school.
After I left school I was more flapping around like a butterfly, I have done all the things in my teenage years people in their 20s are doing today, in your 20s you want to be free, study, travel, party etc, I've done all those things.
I have flapped my little butterfly wings around many times making a forceful positive impact wherever I chose to land at a time, what I found was, was that I was just flapping my wings in search for solid relationships which are honest, true, constructive, reliable, positive prosperous, fun and everlasting. I was looking for solid grounds to root myself in and grow within those grounds.
I wanted stability, a feeling of belonging somewhere where I can fully shine and be the best I can be.
I do not just want to survive for myself anymore, no I want to survive for a family, for people that appreciates all I have to offer and give. I have survived for myself for long time, now I want to survive for those around me too.

I am not a silly girl building castles in the air oh no, what I am saying is what I mean and there is no doubt in my spirit or my heart that I am making the wrong choices or decisions.
My intentions, words and decisions here in Milan has been noting but solid, honest and clear.
Also take note that these are visions, to manifest these visions will take dedication, hard work as well as commitment over a long period of time, like I have written before, Rome was not built in a day.

Have fun listening to the Music on http://www.palbertmusic.com/ and I wish you all an absolutely beautiful day, make a wish and know it will come true.

Amore Sempre

Frank Sinatra- I've got you under my skin

Inland Sea.......

Ohhh dear today I have directed my intentions to be peaceful and to read as well as write.

I'm sorry the blog is still confusing but oh well I will still re-organise it, just not today, today I just want to write.

I am currently attending at my parle Italiano school an intensive Italian learning coarse, all the Italian grammatica is scattered everywhere around in my mind, it does not have proper storage to make perfect sense but I know my mind well, its constantly busy taking in and re-organising information so I know one morning I will wake up and just speak Italian, things like this normally happens to me. Ohhh and I really adore my school I love learning Italian, speaking Italian is like singing beautiful music.

This past week has been wonderful, Monday morning before I went to school and looking for apartments I first went to Ronchis to say hello and just to let them know that I did not fly away.... Hehehehe, Max was there and then he called Giacomo for something about the restaurant and gave the phone to me to say Ciao, hhehehehehe I just giggled, Giacomo too shame, I hope they were happy I stayed, otherwise I will seem like a very strange person to them, just coming in and start to decorate and smile hahahahaha, yes I am strange I apologise but I tried to be normal once upon a time and it was really difficult for me so I decided to just be me.

WoW I'm so peaceful today, I feel like I have no care on the planet, just relaxed and very content.

Inland Sea's music are extremely beautiful, the voices and music of this band are incredible,   ohhh wow its intense. The way this band plays music and the lead singer singing the songs reaching every single high note successfully and so smoothly, singing of love and doing it so passionitaly, WoW!!! I absolutely adore the cd and I love the song "come to me now" as well as "The rain words". Ohhh wow just sit, close your eyes and allow the music to stir the emotion inside of you..... Magical!!!!

I did not know about this band, I did not know about Palbert music uintill a week ago, I heard the song and wanted the CD so I went to the music home to buy the CD and they told me they don't have it. So I asked Giacomo for a CD and he kept on telling me everyday, "tomorrow night". Hhahahahahaha.
So when I finally received the CD I was so happy, I loaded it onto my Ipod, my computer and my ebook reader.
I asked Giacomo a bit about the singers, I find the music increadible, so he told me that they are heart surgeons... What??? I was a bit shocked for a moment but ofcoarse I myself am very strange and multi talented so the shock passed very quickly.
If this band can perform open heart surgery like the way they sing, ohhh dear I will never worry if I have heart problems ever.

Please do listen to their music on the website, it is incredible!!! The website is called  http://www.palbertmusic.com/

Ohh Tuesday that has passed was lovely, I was at Ronchis again in the evening, well I am always there hahaha, alora, ahhh Mirko came in and he had a shock when he saw me, he was still under the impression that I flew away, hahahaha and his voice was gone but he looked happy, ahhh shame.
He is such a gentleman, he asked me if I wanted to taste a type of olive oil and he took bread, poured the olive oil over and brought it to me, I must say it was impressive and it was Amazing oil, salty but not too salty and very smooth on the tongue with a little bit of a metallic twist to it, really really good oil.
He also looked at me the whole night as if  making sure that I am really there, and he looked so handsome.
Giacomo looked upset with me, I felt a bit heartbroken, I do not want them to ever be sad or upset with me, no no.

Giacomo is like a protective big brother seriously and he looks worried about me sometimes he also looks like he has to check that there are no wings that might appear out of my back somewhere and fly away.

Ahhh they are wonderful. I really feel so blessed and fortunate, I love just being close to them, just spending time with them means the world to me and I just love seeing them happy, smiling as well as relaxed. When they are happy I am happy.

Ahhh last night was wonderful, yesterday morning I sms'ed Giacomo and told him that I missed Mirko because I do, he is funny, he has this very strange magnet pull to him, ahh and he is so happy, he is like a teenage boy around me, hahahha its beautiful like he gets so excited and really happy when he is around me, perhaps its just who he is but he is wonderful, I have never met a more joyful, attractive, kind, sweet man in my life and he is so funny, he is such a sweetheart, he is an Archangel, must be, the way he pays attention to me is so incredible his interest in everything that I do its very unbelievable, just being close to him satisfies my spirit.

Really I wish I could share with all of you all these happy feelings inside of me, its so pure so true and wonderful, I do not care much now anymore, I've found a peace and happiness in life that even if a world war starts today, I will not be worried at all, Ronchis and everybody in there, Mirko and Giacomo, wow, I just want them to always be happy, my heart will not take it if they are ever sad, no no!!! I am so peaceful because I have true happiness, I know who I am, happy, I know where I am headed, bliss, and I know that when I have only a few moments left on this earth one day, I know where I am headed without a doubt so I am peaceful.

Ohhh dear tonight I met Giacomo's wife she is absolutely beautiful, where has he been hiding her?  I am so happy.

hehehehe the Shef asked me tonight if Im lesbian well he might ofcoarse I dont have a boyfriend, a husband, im not even looking so I might seem uninterested in men but ohh no, I am most difinitaly a woman and straight, there is no doubt. I just got bored I guess, I want something different,  Ive had too many lovers which became stalkers, I love fully when I love and they could not understand that it was just for the night, the next morning I wanted my space, the fast train incident was though unecpected and very intense, playful and the guy was really attractive, he was persistent and did not take no for an answer I like it when a man takes charge, it shows his character, his drive, his confidence.

I wish you all a beautiful evening.....

Always smile and celebrate life!

Amore Sempre...

Everly Brothers- All I Have To Do Is Dream (with lyrics )

Vision...;-D

After my amusing confession with the priest went and sat in the middle of the church again, thinking what is the purpose of me even being in Milan, I did not understand and everybody I know would kill to be in my shoes yet I was just trying to figure out what the purpose was for me being here.

A little while back I have noticed that everything that has happened in my life,  has happened with a purpose, then as I sat and wondered what my purpose was, I realized that I must not worry about the answer, all I have to do is just be me and it will be alright and that everything will make sense soon. At that time and that moment noting made sense and everything was confusing, nothing still makes sense, I am really just being obedient to my heart that is all. If I am not obedient to my heart I am unhappy and I want to be happy, always.

Alora, so I signed up for a two week standard coarse to learn Italian and I met all my classmates and they all became my new friends. Marte from Norway, Anne from New Zealand, Daniel from Germany and An from Taiwan. Apparently we are the best class they have had forever because we are joyful.

Ohhh dear I was so happy to learn Italian my energy was so alive and ecstatic that I could light up the planet, I was laughing all the time learning and it was just beautiful. School was wonderful it was so much fun and I was really happy learning.

That same night I sat at my usual table and showed Giacomo that I signed up for Italian school, ohhh dear you should have seen his face, he was so happy, he tries to  be serious sometimes, but his eyes gives him away all the time, he is a very good man.

The next day after class Daniel and myself were walking and I asked him if he wanted to come for lunch with me to Ronchi78, hehehehehehe, he said alright, as we entered Giacomo was making his usual "ohhh dear not you again face" and I just laughed joyfully back at him, Daniel was standing there next to me and Giacomo was shocked, he asked Daniel if he was with me and Daniel replied yes because he was with me there having lunch.

Daniel has a girlfriend, he is just a friend of mine, so we lunch and as we left Giacomo gave Daniel a cd while looking at me, it was Inland Sea's cd, I wondered why he was giving my friend a cd and he never gave me a cd ever? I was a bit sad but happy for Daniel.

The following Thursday Daniel asked me to please meet him and his girlfriend for an apprettivo in Brera, I did not know where Brera was so I went to Ronchis first, I asked Max where Brera was and he told me that It was too far away, he told me that I had to first take the yellow line, then I had to take the green line and I sighed thinking ohhh dear no, I cannot travel that much for an apprettivo and I knew that I would get lost even with my GPS. So I sent Daniel a message to please meet me at Ronchi's and he accepted the invitation, oh I was so relieved.

Daniel and his girlfriend with her work friend arrived and we had some drinks, Daniel then found it amusing that I was always at Ronchi's and he started to laugh, well we both started to laugh, he said that they can practically build me a little room in the top corner of the restuarant, hahahahaha he said he could picture me coming out of there just smiling at the guests greeting them and telling them to have fun, hahahahahahaha this vision amused me I then saw myself in my hello kitty pajamas hair messed up with big furry slippers hahahaha it was very funny vision we laughed about it for a couple of minutes.... then suddenly (hold your breath for 3 seconds 1............2..............3................, Alora, exhale please)

.....Suddenly,  I had this vision in my mind, it was beautiful, Ronchis is a Restuarant, a music home and so warm as well as inviting, so I had this vision of Ronchi78 turning into a 5 star Guest House, ohhh dear the feelings that was attached to this vision was unbelievably overwhelmingly satisfying and joyful to me. Ronchis is like family so why not expanding it and making it grow, Just imagine people coming from all over the world to Milan just to be part of the warm and happy atmosphere, excellent wines and cuisine as well as sing live karaoke, listen to live music and have fun then retreat to your room where you can wake up to a beautiful warm, kind and inviting delicious breakfast and then start your day. 

Just imagine making Ronchi78 the heart of Milan, the Guesthouse situated very close to Duomo, Galleria, La Scala as well as my new favorite shopping place that has the view of the Duomo at the top called La Rinascente (ohhh dear its a magical building, I love La Rinascente and I want them all to love me too.)

So I sat there with this vision now stuck in my head feeling very happy but then I got really tired and wanted to go to bed, Daniel and his girlfriend with her friend also felt it best to retreat.

Giacomo was by then most probably confused why this guy he thought was supposed to be my boyfriend was leaving with other women, hahahahaha I tried to explain that he was not my boyfriend but he either didn't want to understand or he just didn't understand (giggle).

At this very moment I am very tired as well so I will write again soon.

I wish you all beautiful dreams and a wonderful new week tomorrow....

Amore Sempre

  

Heaven is lost

Mi mancherai

Nat King Cole - Unforgettable

my joyful confession...

I do believe all of you know how passionate I am about the Duomo, ohhh I can never leave the Duomo I miss the Duomo after one day of not seeing it.

One beautiful afternoon  I sat inside the Duomo and I thought that I want to be Catholic, I still want to.
I cannot love the Duomo and not be Catholic, that would be loving half way, no no, so I made a decision to speak to a priest. The only place I could find a priest was in confession so I waited in the confession line. (This happened in the first week in Milan, it happened when one day I got lost and found my way back to the Duomo again, I sighed and entered the church, hoping that the security guards were not the same guards as the days before, obviously I felt like these guards wondered why this smiling girl was always in church, hahahaha. Alora.)

So I peacefully waited in the line of confession for about an hour and 30 minutes, Mama Mia the people that entered confession looked all so heartbroken, so sad, I forgot to remind myself to wear a normal face and not smile, hehehehe, so I waited...... and waited...... waited...... and finally it was my turn.

I then entered and this beautiful old priest was sitting there smiling at me, so I sighed in relief thinking that this could be easy.
I then started to speak but the priest could not speak english and I tried my best to explain to him that I really wanted to join the church, hahahaha, the priest just kept on smiling at me and he had this inner giggle to him while he kept on telling me to pray to Madonna..... Mamma Mia after about my third attempt to explain why I was there, seeing this priest smiling at me and keep on repeating the same thing, I started to joyfully laugh about the situation and he started to laugh at me too. So I was in confession and I joyfully had a laughing, giggling, joyful session with a priest in the Duomo.
As I left I said goodbye to the priest,  thanked him and he nodded with an enormous smile on his face, you should have seen the people outside the confession chamber's faces, they looked absolutely confused.

After confession, also not being able to communicate in Ronchi78, I realised that it was very important to learn how to speak and write Italian.

I then signed up for a two weeks standard coarse.....

To be continued...

Grazie....

Thank you all for all the amazing emails, I appreciate your beautiful compliments and wonderful opinons about the blog, truly.
May I add that I am just sharing a story, it is not me, it is Ronchi78, Mirko, Giacomo, Max, Carlo, Mr Pimp and then ofcoarse my heart, the Duomo as well as all the buildings and statues in Center Milan, the devine light and unconditional love from Heaven that inspired me to write this blog.
Without the inspiration there would be no blog so please its the inspirations that you must thank, but it is an absolute pleasure to make all of you smile, as long as you are happy reading, I am happy to write.

I do aplogise once again, I have not been writing and yes I am in Milan, I have just been so busy with studying Italian as well as finding an apartment  which I did, ohhh, I hoped for Brera, but I found an apartment in Corso Como and the Hotel I am currently residing in does not have wireless internet for the room, which is very strange and I prefer writing in a comfortable space. I am re-editing the blog so that it can be like reading a really facinating, strange, enchanting true life story, I still have so much to write about what has happened already,  Mama Mia.

I ask for your patience please so that I can revise and re-edit in peace, then I will post again.

I do wish you all a wonderful day filled with fun, joy, optimism and laughter. Always remember, always think of what you can be and can do or give for someone, do not only focus on what you can recieve, peacefully flow with the current of  this beautiful life, smile and know that all is taken care of.

Tanti baci!!!!!!!

*M*

quando quando quando- pat boone

Passion......

Well I am in Italy, finally I can write exactly what PASSION means to me... and ohhhhh I love it!!!!!

You reading this now have a passion for something, it is your drive, it is something that makes you feel very  very excited and happy, whether it is intimacy, art in the form of fashion or architecture, singing, music, films,  anything, different things for different people.

I wondered about this feeling "Passion", this intense burning, beautiful, exciting, happy, explosion of a feeling within my core and I tried to analyse where this feeling comes from.

Passion also stems from the physical for example your 5 basic senses, sight, taste, touch, hearing and smell to fully experience as well as connect and understand someone or something you need these 5 basic senses.
with these 5 basic senses we are just born with freely, your mind and thought gets stimulated and feelings / emotions are released. the most powerful feeling you must know is love, and passion is a very enormous part of love.

One cannot experience any feelings without your five basic senses. In previous posts I did explain that with passion there is success and whatever you pursue in life, do it only with passion or not at all.

To be a good lover for instance, you need to completely and openly let yourself go with your partner, feel their body, smell their scent, taste their lips, look into their eyes with eagerness, hear the intense breathing and your body as well as mind and spirit will just do the rest.

When an artist paints he/she pays attention to every detail of the colours, he/she feels the paint on his hands as well as the canvas or paper under the tips of his/her fingers he/she smells the paint that is potent enough itself to taste on his/her tongue.

The Duomo ohhh dear, when I saw it for the first time, the detailed carving of biblical stories into the marble, I saw one big symbol of passion and love.
I carve pictures into wood, so when I see the Duomo I see extreme love and passion that have created it, ohhh dear these intense feelings I felt only viewing the Duomo, my next step was touching it, I did, the marble was cold but smooth the sound was an instrument called an orchestra, the smell inside was lavender incense combined with wood and marble and the beauty of the colours of the windows inside all the paintings and detail of the statues inside it was just unbelievable.

Ronchis was the same, the inside of this beautiful restaurant when I viewed it the first time was warm and absolutely decorated to be comfortable and relaxed yet very stylish and classic. The people there are absolute amazing, fun exciting loving and relaxed. Entering Ronchis the smell of quality cuisine, the warmth, the comfort and the smell was so inviting to me and then the celebration as well as the kindness. In Ronchis when I stood on the steps the first time with the live music, seeing the happiness, song, laughter and joy in all those people, passion and love arose so strongly within my core being I light up with absolute pure happiness.

Sit and think what your passions are today, what drives you then just emerge and pursue these passions.

Follow your dreams and visions with passion it is guaranteed success.

I do wish you all a beautiful day....

Ghost - Unchained Melody - (rba)

Ronchi78 giovedì 7 Ottobre 2010

Law of attraction....

Some people may have wondered while reading this blog about my mental stability, do not be surprised if I tell you that no I am perfectly stable in all ways, I just think in a very different way....

I am sure most of you has read the book 'The secret' if you have not please do. I went into deeper study, combining the secret which is the law of attraction with the spirit as well as the mind....

You are as free as what your mind is my dear friend, for instance, you are as wealthy as what you feel you are worth, you are as successful as what you believe you can be, you are what you believe and choose to be.

Now the law of attraction states that only focus upon what YOU WANT, only focus on the POSITIVE, only focus on GOOD and then,  one I love focusing on is simply LOVE. What you focus upon is what you attract, when you focus upon bills, an empty bank account, your passionless relationship with your spouse you will just attract more of it.
Before you can attract good you must first be able to love yourself, meaning knowing that you deserve the best and accept it wanting the best for yourself, feeling of self worth and accepting yourself just as you are. The only thing blocking people from obtaining what they want is their own minds actually.

I had to break my own mind blocks too, I was only criticized when I grew up so my self esteem was really low when I was a teenager, my spirit just one day rebelled and I became a wild child then I had to teach myself good and calm down, I had to change all negative belief systems about myself, I know it seems crazy because I am only 23 now.
But life broke me down and then formed me to blossom like a flower so I am happy, do not worry.

 When you can love and accept yourself just as you are, you can then love, meaning feelings of gratitude, feelings of patience, pure intention, joy and true happiness.
When you love yourself you want the best for yourself so you have beautiful visions for your own future and with those visions you apply self worth and align these visions with love.
Love is the fastest way to manifest dreams. Love is pure true and unconditional, it is joyful, kindness and true happiness, and the last step is true belief that it is already yours.

So what is the law of attraction actually?
It is  1. loving yourself, wanting as well as having only successful positive beautiful  2. visions for yourself then aligning these visions with true love 3. gratitude, joy, happiness and a knowing 4. true belief without question that it is already yours.

I am exhausted I had an insane day and want to get into bed, I have to be up early to move into Hotel Rio then go to advanced Italian classes from 10am and then I finish with my second class at 04pm.

Yes if all of you readers wondered where I was on this planet, I did go to Malpensa Airport to fly back to South Africa, before I checked in for my flight, I saw a sign for a chapel so I went there first. As I entered the chapel I just sat there, asking many questions.... I then asked myself what makes me happy, truly the last time I have been this happy was many years ago and when I am happy I am inspired to be the absolute best I can be for myself and everyone around me.
I also reviewed my life at that point and asked myself  "why I could ever doubt myself or loose faith and belief?"
I then left the chapel and walked to the check in counter, I had my ticket in my hand and told the lady that I cannot picture myself leaving, she smiled cancelled my ticket and I went to a hotel.
Tomorrow morning I am moving into Hotel Rio.

I can not say what will happen tomorrow, all I can say is that I feel happy and secure that my future will be bright joyful and magical with many beautiful memories.

I wish you all an absolutely beautiful evening....

Buona Notte

let us continue with the story, shall we?

I do apologize for writing in such confusion, I started to write about my journey then suddenly writing about  endings as well as love and activism Mama Mia I truly apologize.

Thus far I  have only written about my first 12 days in Italy, many things happens to me normally which are absolutely abnormal, if I can describe my life, well I will say that it is absolutely enchanting.

I do believe it is my mind though, I have this automatic function in my brain that only sees things in a magical way. I choose to see only light, love and happiness, I focus only on good then I don't notice bad things. If it is bad, I don't want to know it or pay attention to it. Also if something bad happens, well I cannot be sad or angry for too long at all because my imagination is too big, if I am sad then suddenly I would imagine a statue coming to life and dancing shaking it's butt cheeks at me then I laugh out load. Mama Mia, you should see me in the City Center of Milan, there are too many statues, I walk around laughing, smiling and giggling all day long, its amazing.
If I am crazy I'm seriously the happiest crazy person on the planet as well as the most joyful. I love being happy. I choose it.

On my birthday I spoke about the taxi man that took me for a drink, his name is Stefano, he laughed at me all the time, so he called me and asked if I wanted to meet, I agreed to meet him at D Angeli so Stefano and I had something to eat. He ordered the food because I did not understand the menu. Mama mia, he ordered an overdose of fish, shellfish.
When I am in any other restaurant or with anybody else in Milan, crazy things happens around me.
I took my lemon to press it over the fish, giggle, the lemon juice shot right into my eye and over the table cloth hehehehehe mama mia, knives and forks kept on falling off the table I almost tripped and fell again and I giggled all the time, the people in the restaurant were all too serious.
The fish was lovely.

I did wonder about the pigeons at the Duomo while Stefano and myself were eating dinner.
My mind drifted then to Noah my lost pigeon in South Africa, Noah flew in one day into the house and never wanted to leave me alone after that so I called him Noah. I do think Noah followed me to Milan, I do hope so, if he did he has a new family with all the other pigeons by the Duomo ohh I'm so happy for him.

Afterwards Stefano asked me if I wanted to see his house so I agreed, it was pretty then he asked me if he can teach me the tango, that was absolutely brilliant. What I love about the tango is the fact that the man is in full control all the time, it is also a very passionate dance, mamma mia it is like having sex on the dance floor really intense sex with a lot of emotion.
After my tango lesson I got the impression that this man liked me too much more than what I liked him, I cannot be intimate with someone if I do not have feelings for that person because I only do things with passion, I cannot be false or pretend, If I cannot do things properly with my whole heart and soul with extreme passion I choose not to do it at all. Stefano was a friend, not one feeling extra. I felt a bit bad because I do not like to see people disappointed, I knew then that I must end my friendship with him because it will be cruel to spend time with a person and giving them false hope.
I could not see myself taking Stefano to Ronchi's ever, no no.

I do hope that he is blessed with true love and happiness.

To be continued....

Nat King Cole - I love you for sentimental reasons

Giorgio Armani

My third week in Milan after meeting my girlfriends, we decided to meet one Saturday Morning just to have a belissima day in Milan.

We had paninni's and cuppacchino's then they took me to this building next to the Duomo.
It was a shopping mall, I never knew that this place existed, It was very interesting and had many people inside and at the top there was this cafe where you can sit and look right at the Duomo, ohhh when I got to the top of the shopping center and saw the cafe right in front of the Duomo I sighed and just said out loud "ahhhh Amo Duomo", uhahahha, an Italian man I could picture late in his 50's, dressed in a black coat worth the price to feed 20 poor countries, well he turned around in shock when I said it, then he had a second shock when he looked at me, yes my face was shining again with love when I said it and he nodded at me in shock saying back to me confirming if I had just said that I love the Duomo, I replied with such an enormous smile, "si", he then smiled and then I turned around to leave because there was no place open to have something to consume.
I do believe I recognised this man, he was one morning at the metro when I gave a homeless person money and biscotti  (cookies), he also turned around in shock then aswel and said "generous", that time I just smiled.

I know my actions of love are publicly displayed but I cannot deny my heart or inner guidance, I am obedient.
Ahhh shame yesterday afternoon I baught a lovely bag at Carpisa, I saw this very old man, his eyes looked so tired, he was homeless and he had not bathed in many days, his one leg was half meaning he had one leg and another half of a leg, I did not have any change on me and he did not beg either, something just told me "Marilette give this man your old bag", you could see that this man had not been given any opportunity because of his leg I could understand in his eyes that he was not lazy, he has been trying for a long time for an opportunity and was looked down upon, rejected, that is absolutely heartbreaking to me.
He was really grateful for the bag because even if it was just a tiny opportunity, I gave him an opportunity to sell this bag for money, I wish I could give him a bigger opportunity, perhaps in the future.

Now, I have already explained how I love to all my readers in the post called "understanding", I love Milan, I love Ronchi78, I love the city all the people and all the statues, the Duomo, all the buildings I love Lombardia.
Milan loves fashion, so when you love something or someone you compromise a little bit and look deeper on what they love, pay attention and just want to be part of their or just knowing their passions.

All Puccino talked about a person he spoke to called Giorgio Armani, I did not know who he was talking about at first,  then I walked past a billboard called Armani so I stopped and paused for a second and a lightbulb switched on.
So I googled Giorgio just to study Armani a bit better, I will upload a picture of Giorgio Armani on this blog.
You can see that Giorgio Armani has humble eyes, he has worked hard for his status and you can see he has had difficulties in life aswell, you can see in his eyes that he is a good person, his eyes does make me curious though, very soft eyes, little bit sad yet humble. I do think he is from Southern Italy possibly, they are darker or perhaps he is just really tanned either way it does not matter, it would be interesting to meet this man, to ask about his life experiences just to understand his eyes a bit better.

I also looked deeper into Palbert Music and ohhh dear I adore these artists called Inland sea. I would love an album so I will try to find a music house tomorrow and see if I can buy it perhaps. I love the song "come to me now", it is a post on the blog,  absolutely stunning, it is definitely an intense passionate song. The song is sung with passion, written as well as produced with passion most likely, how can it not be anything but absolutely perfect as well as a success?

The world has placed a label on Milan, Milan has so much Character and depth, how I view Milan is ohhh WOW, Milan for me has such history, meaning, beauty and love.  Milan is not just about fashion it is so much more than that, Milan is love, passion, art, creation and productivity. Even the considered important people has absolute depth. Milan I see as the Madonna of Italy.

I do not know anybody in this world who has perfect lives, nobody is perfect.
The only thing one could do is look deeper past the labels and see the love within every person to accept people just as they are and not try change them, to look deeper is where you will find the love.

I wish you all a very beautiful evening and a wonderful weekend.

Make a wish and know it will come true.

Amore sempre

Connie Francis - Que Sera Sera (What Ever Will Be, Will Be)

Inland Sea, Come to me now

Understanding.....

Before I continue on explaining about all my absolute facinating, tragic as well as hilarious adventures I do need to explain to all of you my viewpoints on the term "LOVE".

I recieved a question about my blog asking "how can I love everybody?"

Ofcoarse I just write and move forward without thinking that not everybody thinks like I do.

Love to me is everything, for me it is all that exists in truth. If love did not exist nothing would exist, I would not exist nobody will exist.
There are several different types of love,  love is unconditional, it is true, kind, honest, open, joy, laughter, generosity it is all good, there is love for oneself (taking care of yourself), love for family and friends (you would do and give anything for them), then passionate love (romance, lovers), true love with a partner (this person you could not imagine life without and will love them unconditionally forever (soul mates).

From young I was frightened and did not recieve much comforting so I had to comfort myself, meaning hug myself, I still do it many times, when my heart is aching, you will find me loving myself in a position where my arms are folded towards myself in a hugging way comforting and protecting my own heart. I had to teach myself self controll, I had to seek wisdom by many different wise people and I constantly prayed every day for guidance in my own mind. Loving myself, meaning nurturing myself with good and wanting to grow to be the best I can be.

As soon as I could properly love myself I could expand my love outwards to the people surrounding me. Helping and nurturing those close to me wanting them to grow into the best they can be aswell.

After a while I could then love a community, then a country untill I could love, accept and understand people on this planet unconditionally and accept and love everybody just as they are.

When i say I love you or someone, I mean unconditionally, meaning accept and love just as you are or they are as well as will help you in any way you need, to be the best you can be. Love for me has no price tag or no label, I do not need payment or proof to love unconditionally, I just do.

I love all yet I fell in love with Milan (the statues, the buildings churches), Duomo, Ronchi's and I love everybody in Ronchi's78.

Please do not confuse my words of love with lust. Absolutely not.
When I love something or someone I will help them in any way possible to grow to be the best they can be.
When I speak of loving a city, I pay attention to all the people, I secretly bless people on the metro, I give to the poor people yet information and inspiration is more needed, also respect, I will not disrespect the grounds, I will not mess junk anywhere, I would rather contribute to the growth of the city than distructing it.

When there is love there is happiness, nutrition and growth, not physical growth neccasarily but spiritual, mental and emotional growth.

I needed to explain this so that all of you readers do not get confused with my writings of love.

I love you all and God bless.

Mona Lisa Song by Nat King Cole

Tradegy....

The apartment I signed to rent is a Military building and I feel very guilty, Tuesday evening Al Puccino asked where I stay and well I was moving so I said near Castello because it was, ohhh dear I feel so horrible talking for the future while it was still at that time present and I was still staying in the Hotel.

I believe it to be impossible to find an apartment in two days. I cannot stay in hotels, I want to cook and relax in my own space.... not having control over something is getting to me.
My return ticket to South Africa is for tonight 19/11/2010 check in at 18:00  and I cannot picture any visions for myself over there.
I am terrified to exist heartless in a space I have no intention being in, so what should I do?

My heart is breaking asking God why cant I just peacefully have  a family for longer than a short while, I just want a big family happy, festive, kind like my Ronchi's family?
I don't understand what I did wrong to deserve this, I don't use drugs, I don't smoke cigarettes, I am not cruel, dishonest, disrespectful, I don't judge, I don't hate and hold grudges, I'm not an unfaithful person, I'm so sad phhh dear and the Duomo? Ohhh my I cannot take this,  this is worse then all past experiences.

Description of my feelings right now is very very emotional, very heartbroken, pain in my chest, breathing louder by the thought of departing on an aeroplane, endless tears pouring down my cheeks while I stuggle really hard not to break down and cry. I cannot write here any longer after today, no it will be too much for me to handle.

Last night I was at Ronchi's again trying to say goodbye to Giaomo, Max, chef and the other singer, very very excellent on a guitar. I was trying to smile and not look sad, yet the tears kept pouring from my cheeks, I tried to look happy for all of them but how can one look happy when your heart is shattering from the inside, not knowing how long it will take again for healing.

I am trying to see the best in this situation that is very tragic to me right now. The light and the blessings of this experience was true bliss. Thank you so much!!!!!


Amore Sempre

Frank Sinatra - Fly Me To The Moon Lyrics

Pretend Nat King Cole

Ronchi78 Sabato 6 Novembre 2010

Nat King Cole - Smile

..... smelled the roses and paused for a moment

I was busy typing my next days of adventure in Milan and at Ronchi's78, yet I stopped dead for a moment because of other thoughts and happenings that has been replaying itself in my mind all day...

Last night ofcoarse once again I was at Ronchi's78, yet sinse Giacomo told me to start the blog, I just started with this blog with no direction of what and what not to say, all this writing comes solemnly from my heart, nowhere else.
So since I have started with this new project, the only opportunity he basically gave me to speak to him about all I have been writing here was last night.

I was afraid of how Giacomo, Al Pucchino, San Carlo,Mr Pimp and everybody else would have reacted towards this blog, with what I have been writing, after all, Ronchi's is a business not just my lovely warm and magical place.

While I was on my way to Ronchi's, I got hopelessly lost once again because I was visiting mio amica just before. It was raining aswell and I forgot my umbrella, mamma mia and my whole body was so tense of what could happen. I was nervous, so many things went through my mind like "what if they dont like it?", my head told me "marilette run away put your head in the sand and never look back", well I never listen to my head so once again I just followed my inner guidence, I went anyways.

I arrived at Ronchi's quite late yet nobody was there, so I sat down ordered some water and salad and I started to study.

Everybody arrived but I was still busy figuring out Italian verbs which is quite difficult and I listened to music on my very tiny ipod. I might have thought, sang music in my mind or sighed a bit too loud at times where I could have made funny noises where I sat in the corner of the restuarant. I might have drawn attention but it was not with intent.

Later on I was sitting and looking at all of them, speaking, laughing, making jokes, all fed all satisfied and all with smiles talking in Italian very quickly I could not understand, yet the expressions on their faces were very pleasing to me. I love to see happiness and joy, it was once again a memmory so pleasing that I sat and smiled just with the atmosphere.
I then picked up my pen and decided to write down this magical feeling, the warm, cosy, safe and happy feeling.
Once I started to write Al Puccino asked me what I was doing, so I told him that I was writing and so the bonding started again.

Al Puccino I only call him Al because he looks like Al Puccino but his personality is absolutely wonderful, he is very adorable and funny yet he has a very attractive and seductive look to him which could draw any woman in immedietly. His style and ways of moving simbolises power in a way. To many he might be, yet I analyse a soul through their eyes and he is very sweet, he even gave me an italian lesson last night with my book from school and what facinated me was the way he acted every character in the pictures,  also describing to me that "ciao" is informal and "boungiorno signora" very formal, hihihihihihi he was absolutely adorable I wanted to hug him so I started to giggle with absolute joy again, I couldn't stop I was too happy and amused, San Carlo then laughed out load because I was giggling with joy once again.
Al Puccino also explained to me the small Madonna made of gold on the top of the Duomo as well as a little folklore that goes with it.
He also introduced me to his cousin and told me some funny snake stories which made me blush and giggle for a while.
Ahh Al Puccino stole my heart too with his interest and beautiful personality, I love them all so much its just unexplained. Beautiful people, priceless as well as a gift from heaven.

What made me wonder though was the way things do work here with men and women?  All of you must understand that I absolutely adore this beautiful family and that I also have not had any sexual physical interaction with any of them, please do not confuse this....

At one point I was asked  if anyone there could satisfy me.... Anyone can capture any heart with unconditional love and acceptance ofcoarse and any woman looking for just any man to please her ONLY sexually will also be satisfied.
I do love the idea of love, passion and romance, candles ......., its beautiful, I am a woman of many passions I believe that whatever you do in life, do it with love and passion or else do not do it at all. Love unconditionally with passion, play an instument passionitaly, eat with passion, dance with passion, sing with passion and when you love... the flames arive and you make love with passion fully, paying attention to every single part of the others body and pleasure in their eyes, feel, smell, kiss......... intense passion.

In the animal kingdom the Male dominates, the strong dominates the weaker so when it comes to a man wanting to be with a woman I do believe the man could make his intentions known and move forward without compromise ofcoarse. Persistance has a graet amount of sex appeal when the dominator persues the weaker prize.....(Giggle)
Yet here I do not know how it works really, it is very strange yet amusing.

So last night everybody seemed happy and pleased with the blog, afterwards I felt like they all felt sorry for me and could not understand why I am like I am.
I would not for one moment change my past, It has formed me to be who I am today and I am very proud of who I am today.
My experiences formed me to be the best I can be for all who has recieved help from me and one day to teach my own children so much great values, morals and to be the best they can be aswell. The thought of having a little baby girl like me running around Milan getting lost and looking starry eyed at the Duomo, giggling and laughing all day long oh dear beautiful images, bellissima!!!!
I am very grateful and happy.

I wish you all a beautiful evening, make a wish and know it will come true!!!!!

Amore Sempre....

Pet Shop Boys - Se a vida é (That's the way life is)

......... the next couple of days,

The next morning I awoke with a smile and I felt very optimistic about the day,

It was a Teusday knowing that, that evening would be Karaoke at Ronchi78 hahahaha, I am hopeless I know, Mamma mia!!!!
I got dressed and headed out first to the Duomo and then to try find a school to learn to speak and write Italian the language fluently.
I was on the metro and my eyes suddenly noticed an advertisment for the IH language school, I wrote down their email address and emailed them from my blackberry, they replied almost immedietaly because I was already in Milan, and they told me to personally come to the school.

Now I am in Milano already decided to stay forever, so obviously I have to manifest this desire, the school, I arranged an appointment with for the next day, and then I was running around Milan looking for an apartment.
I have learned from experience not to force open any doors, so I just silently prayed for assistance and did not worry too much about how my wants and desires will manifest, I just knew and hoped that it will.

As I was running around Milan, I secretivly smiled everywhere I went, because it felt like I was that woman from the series Sex and the City, the only difference was, was that I came from another country and I did not have any girlfriends yet hahahaha......
Now in my magical mind, I am saying "I want my girlfriends, my sex and the city type of girlfriends", giggle..... I did meet my girls..... my amicas but only later on, ahhh and they are the best!!!!!

Later on that evening it was time for Ronchi's again, ahhhh I just light up when I go there or just think of going there. Amo Ronchi's.

As I entered Ronchi's, San Carlo was there again as well as Giacomo, mamma mia and it was busy but as always MAGICAL.
I ate Ravioli cheese, Oh dear, unbelievably delicious cheese that is absolutely incredible, decorated with a rose shaped mango on the top.
The first tase I took of this absolutely devine cheese sent me to heaven, the taste of this cheese is a little sweet, creamy and adores flowing to every part of my mouth, tickling and satisfying my tastebuds in every single way, ahhhhh, every bite I took my eyes narrowed with just loving every single bite of this perfect cheese, Bellissima!!!!!!!

As the evening drew to an end, I was ready to pay for my consumption and realised that my bill was increadibly low, they are truly very generous and I do feel sad not being able just to accept this generosity, I do have some problem accepting things from everybody, I am not used to recieve, I have not even had a birthday present in such a long time or a christmas present even, I mostly when given a gift I feel like I need to give something in return to show my gratitude. I know, I could try accept their generosity too but I do not expect it or anything just spending time with all of them means so much to me already, they really do not understand how dear they are to my heart.
That night I gave Giacomo my Jamie Oliver  Italian cook book, everytime a looked at my cookbook I tought of Ronchi's, it was important to give this gift because it gave me a reason to go there every day and get a recipe from the cookbook even if I moved into my new apartment  with my new kitchen.

He accepted the gift and that was wonderful, I love giving people presents and see them happy, smiles love and laughter ahhh Amo Feliche!!!!!!!!!! Giacomo had this very sad yet grateful and loving look in his eyes when he accepted my gift, it was an absolute pleasure to give him the gift because I could see the appreciation in his eyes.
Appreciation is so important, people just want and forget to be grateful and to appreciate the things they have already, or appreciate the things they recieve.
Seeing appreciation in Giacomo's eyes were like a looking through a window right into his soul, he has a very good heart he is a very good man and his wife as well as his children are very fortunite to have him as well as all his friends and family, Guiacomo is my guardian angel, he is priceless.
So after I gave Giacomo my first gift to Ronchi's,just to show my gratitude for them I wanted to give them more, the vision of one day parking a Lamborgini outside Ronchi's sayin "Surprise" to Giacomo and seeing the surprise in his eyes, ehehehehehe well now that vision feels absolutely wonderful.

Ronchi's have always been so open and welcoming towards me, I cannot even communicate with any of them properly yet it is just a meeting of many hearts and just the way things are.

I will later on in my posts describe the restuarants, the staff and the food in better detail just to give you all insight of why I find this restuarant so enchanting.

I also want to thank everyone that has been following this blog, I do hope you have been entertained and that you will keep on reading. For now I am going to bed, I am quite exhausted and tomorrow is Teusday ....hehehehehe (giggle).

Sweet dreams........

Dream A Little Dream Of Me - The Mamas & The Papas

so what happened next.....

......after the 21st I was absolutely bedazzled, San Carlo told me to travel so I did, I went to Rome to visit a very dear friend.

While in Rome I had a very good travel, I met sweet people Antionella and her girlfriend as well as cooked Carne a Pizza, slept like a princess every night, I sat in one of the latest Lamborgini Models not yet released, I went to the beach and I saw a very tiny Tornado. I also saw amazing Fountains, I walked to see the Vatican Museum but the line was way too long, and then I also visited San Pedro Church, I did not go inside because the line was too long aswel, but I waved at San Pedro. San Pedro church saw me, it's all that matters (giggle). My dear friend Gaetano was an absolute gentleman and an amazing tour guide, we drank wine, laughed and he is a loving dear friend for life.

While I was in Rome, I missed Ronchi78, I was wondering about all of them all the time, Rome and my friends there were absolutely amazing, yet Milan is like my Disney land, the statues and getting lost, also feeling safe getting lost, being lost and finding my way back to Ronchi78 then the Duomo, sitting and mentally communicating with Leo da Vinci, talking to the angelic statues. Milan is magical and Ronch78 just added the family part, the unconditional love, the commitment and the incredible gratitude. I have also bonded with the homeless people on the street and the incredible desire to help these people so it is and was so important to learn the language. I have been giving cookies, shoes and money to the homeless yet I know that it is not what they need, yes it is, but one cannot keep feeding fish to people, one must teach them how to fish for themselves. I just want everybody to be happy.

Rome is beautiful, yet I felt a bit annoyed with all the tourists, and what made me upset was the fact that I was surrounded with once again the most beautiful fountains as well as buildings, yet the tourists just threw their papers and junk on the ground, disrespecting the meaning of the history of the ground, I felt an urge to slap a tourist or two.
When you enter another's home, region or even country, you do not disrespect it, under no circumstances, respect is incredibly important.

My experience in Rome was wonderful yet my heart was already in Milan.

The first time I was on the fast train TRAINITALIA to Rome, I was absolutely excited and yet again I had no map I asked the receptionist of the hotel what station to go to, she told me the yellow line to Central Station, I bought a ticket to Rome by the Machine and off I went, it was beautiful seeing the country side, the green, the nature, Ahh Bellissima!!!!!
On my way back to Milan from Rome on the fast train..... hehehehe (blush), I was feverishly surprisingly kissed by a man from Napoli, and it was a very interesting experience, I do not want to go into much detail (blush). hehehehehe.

My return to Milan, oh dear the second I saw my Duomo my whole being just lit up and I sighed with happiness and joy.
It was Monday and I took the metro at once back to the hotel from the Duomo to get settled, cleaned up from the travelling and dressed to go to Ronchi78 ofcoarse and tell them about my visit to Rome. Ohhhh noooo, when I entered only Max was there, I was really happy to see Max and the chef,  yet I felt a bit sad because nobody else was there, so I returned back to the hotel, deciding to surf the internet for a school to learn Italian, unfortunitaly I had no luck and drifted once again into a peaceful sleep, knowing that the next day would be another day and just to be peaceful because not even Rome was built in a day...

.....to be continued....

Paul Anka - Put Your Head On My Shoulder

New Beginnings..........

The next morning after my birthday.....

I woke up optomistic about the day knowing at that time how to properly travel fom my hotel to the Metro, from the Metro to the Duomo and from the Duomo to Ronchi78 and then in reverse, I also knew Via Torino street but I had a problem, my laptop charger did not want to work in my hotel so I had to buy a universal charger, I had no idea where to get or buy a universal charger so I started at the Supermarket and so every helpful Italian that could speak poko poko Inglese, directed me to Fnac, Fnac is situated right down Via Torino and across Fnac is San Maurilo the street where Ronchi78 is in. 

Once again I did not know this information, I walked with my GPS all day finding places, when Fnac told me that they were sold out with chargers, I was so sad so I decided to play on the Wii Party it was amazing its like Zumba, I want a Wii Party WOHOOOO!!!!  So after I giggled laughed and amused everyone with shaking my butt cheeks on the Wii Party I took the exit out of Fnac and as I took the exit to Via Torino,  I saw the street where Ronchi78 is in, so I went to Ronchi87 again

I entered and Giacomo told me that my friend (ex friend) was down stairs having lunch and I shook my head signalling no thank you, I want to be by myself,  hahahahaha,  He was talking so loud, hehehe mama mia!!!!

So I had lunch, it was wonderful and then I still without a notebook charger , took the metro back to my hotel. I was walking down Carlo street and surprisingly there was a shop with a universal charger so I bought it and it worked perfectly when I returned back to the hotel.
I was exhausted and I missed everybody at Ronchi78 already so I had to have supper there, I was even so excited to see them to let them know about my experiences, but of coarse communication was a problem and that made me so angry as well as frustrated not to know everything about everybody at Ronchi78, so I tried to self study Italiano.

I went there and Giacomo made his vuvuzela signal it was lovely, it felt like home, like family, warm and happy unconditional acceptance as well as unconditional love everything felt so right.

So that night I was sitting trying to self study Italiano and two men entered the restaurant, always around Giacomo, It was San Carlo and another San, San Carlo keeping pouring me wine, I heard music downstairs and I asked Giacomo if I may go downstairs?  He replied "yes". 

Tick, Tick, Tick, Tick, turn one quarter right and another 5 steps down the stairs I saw the singer as well as all the other Italian people that booked for karaoke were all singing from their stomachs and having so much fun, they were all happy, being festive it was magical..... I was standing on the stairs seeing the happy smiles and the joy, the laughter the happiness and I fell in love with Ronchi78 right that moment, so much love filled my core being I got emotional, my heart filled with so much joy,  tears pouring down my cheeks with happiness, knowing that if I am not going to be part of this forever I will not exist, I knew already by then that If I had to leave ever I will die of a broken heart!!!! 

On the 21st of October 2010 my heart was lost unconditionally for a number of people I hardly knew. What I love about the Italian language is, is that some things should be left unquestioned. Just accept things as they are without asking why!

I feel so passionate about Ronchi78 because my last happy memory as a family died at the age of eight actually, you know given everything else, also struggling and battling life taking worry as well as responsibility  onto my shoulders as a really young child, just trying to survive and to keep sane with all the bad that had happened and try smiling trough all these experinces.
I did survive I did pull through  and I am too grateful and happy today because I have seen and lived through the worst already. If it was not for God I would have not been here today, I am so grateful.

I fell in love with a Region I love more than windsurfing, with a warm Italian family restaurant I always imagined family to be like and have, and a church considered a masterpiece and an art in so many forms I cannot imagine living without... I am more in love with Ronchi78 I cannot imagine a world without the People, without the guests and without the Festivity.

I have never experienced a Restuarant in my life with so much passion for excellent cuisine, wines, music, karaoke, festivity and so much warm and loving openness.

My heart was stolen and I do not even want it back..... keep it forever and another day.

...... to be continued.....

Fell from the sky and my birthday.....

I desired to start this blog for one simple reason, that is unconditional love.

About one month ago I could not have dreamed about anything that has been happening in my life, to happen, not for one moment. I am currently in Milano Italia, I have recently decided to reside here forever and a day because my whole heart has been stolen completely, firstly by the Duomo, second by a very warm, loving and absolutely beautiful Restaurant called Ronchi78.

My experiences here in Italy have only been absolutely incredible and yet an adventure aswel.
Life is priceless and absolutely beautiful there is not a day I will allow to pass without gratitude and a smile.

Before I arrived in Milano I had no idea even about the smallest tourist attraction here, I really never had any interest to ever visit Milano, my understanding of Milano was Fashion only, meaning cold fabric and I love to think of myself as a warm, loving, caring, joyful, sensual, hot blooded young lady, I had no intention to fly from South Africa to do shopping but I was persuaded by a friend to come and visit so I did.

I arrived in Milano the day before my 23rd Birthday on the 19th of October 2010. I did not have a map of the city at all, all I had was my 2 pink suitcases and my smile.
I had to take a taxi from the airport because I did not know how to use the Metropolitana, I did not even know there was something called a yellow line (giggle).
I arrived at my hotel, I settled in and got freshened up for dinner in the evening with my friend. One terrible mistake i made was to wear high heeled shoes, Mama Mia...... these women here are too brave to walk all day long in high heeled shoes.
So I met my friend we went for dinner and walked in the City center, ohhh dear, Statues of Archangels and saints everywhere... this City is absolutely beautiful.
We were still walking and I was struggling to pay attention about what my friend was talking about because of the high heels that was killing me yet suddenly I stopped, paused and as I looked up I saw the most beautiful building I have ever seen, the famous Duomo a church. My mouth fell open, my eyes nearly popped out from it's sockets and I stood still, stunned... tears filled my eyes because I have never seen so much detail in one church or any building, the Duomo is such a symbol of patience, hard work, passion, love for God, Beauty, history and I was standing right in front of it, It was absolutely magical and it still is.  It was love at first sight it was home.

I awoke the next morning and I got dressed very optimistic for a wonderful day and then I got completely lost, my friend forgot to tell me where the Metropolitana was or I forgot to ask, ohh but it was wonderful getting lost, I tried to communicate and the older Italian mammas helped me, they were so helpful even today. I could only say ciao and buongiorno so they took me by the hand into the correct direction.

After about 2 hours I found myself walking up one flight of stairs standing right in front of the Duomo, a big bright smile appeared on my face and I was in love again so I had to enter this big beautiful church.
As I entered the inside of the Duomo my heart melted even more, I took candles I prayed, tears filled my eyes gratitude filled my heart and I was so happy, I sat in the Duomo for about 2 hours before I had to leave to meet my friend for lunch, it was my birthday too.
I met my friend at via Torino street at the shop called Zara where my friend and myself walked down the street talking about my morning experiences and his work.
Suddenly the door opened and I was looking at this beautiful tiny and warm restaurant filled with men with black and white suits on and I felt a bit under dressed, I had a black pants with a pearl pink top on, a thick belt, white and pink pearls and this enormous bag. I looked funny I suppose but the owner called Giacomo made me feel welcome immedietaly!!!!
I ate this very fascinating pasta dish, It tasted divine but I apologize I cannot remember the name of the dish, the pasta itself I remember were in the form of little balls.
My friend told me "Happy Birthday" I replied with a kind thank you and we had lunch at Ronchi78, for me the first time. As we were about to leave I tripped and fell over the chair, I felt ridiculous because I was clumsy and stared at, yet the owner made me feel better once again, I was called miss Vuvuzela (giggle).

After lunch my friend had to go back to work again and told me to continue walking via Torino street, I did as I was told and I bought my first pistaccio gelato oh dear, it was divine, I was in heaven.
I then received a text message from my friend saying that he does not want to see me again because I am not apparently his cup of tea, luckily I was still eating my Gelato so I did not care too much. Afterwards I did think about the situation, it was after all my birthday, I have at that moment only been in Italy for 24hours not knowing how to get back to my Hotel or where I actually was but then I remembered my way back to the Duomo so I was grateful.
I did not get angry at my friend, I was quite peaceful, my mind was at that moment still busy processing all the new around me so I could not really worry too much about a man, but I forgave him at once and told him afterwards that it is alright, we can remain friends but I will never be with him again because I will never be able to even think about doing to another what he had done to me, It was very rude.
After that I never heard of him again I do hope he is blessed with goodness, wisdom, light and laughter though.
So it was still my birthday, I was sitting by the statue of Leonardo da Vinci, silently speaking to the statue in my head saying "so, I guess its just you and me." I giggled and took a taxi to my hotel where I took a shower and decided well I am here for a month so let me make the most of it.

I took the Metro once again to the Duomo where I looked starry eyed at this enormous beautiful church, I decided to rather stick to the things I knew and take a walk down Torino street again, I really tried to remember where I had lunch with my friend that afternoon because it felt so warm and safe inside Ronchi78, yet my heart dropped, I felt discouraged because I have within 24hours been lost so many times, I did buy a little map book and only later realized that the map book were written in Spanish. (giggle)

As I walked down Torino my head turned right looking down a street that looked familiar, and it was, it was Ronchi78 where myself and my ex friend had lunch that same afternoon, ohhh my heart raced and I was so happy, it was wonderful. So I went inside and the waiter Max helped me, such a kind person, he visited South Africa and he liked it hehehe and Giacomo still called me miss Vuvuzela, I was so happy because I felt safe, the atmosphere felt so peaceful kind and loving the people so warm and friendly.... Happiness.

I did not have a late evening there at Ronchi78, I felt a bit exhausted so I left early, the man who was driving my taxi spoke to me and I told him it was my birthday so he offered to take me out for a drink for my birthday, I accepted and it was fun, he was a gentleman and took me back to my hotel afterwards and explained to me how to take the metro back to my hotel, what the street name is and all the have to know things. That night I went to bed feeling happy knowing that as long as I know how to get to the Duomo and to Ronchi78 I will be va bene.

....... to be continued.